JohnnyandMe In reply to ??? [2018-10-18 20:08:54 +0000 UTC]

Thanks for the,song.


I won't cut

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PyroShadow18 In reply to JohnnyandMe [2018-10-18 22:14:23 +0000 UTC]

You're welcome.
I'm glad.

~J

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JohnnyandMe In reply to PyroShadow18 [2018-10-19 00:54:47 +0000 UTC]

Yep

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PyroShadow18 In reply to JohnnyandMe [2018-10-19 01:34:50 +0000 UTC]

~J

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JohnnyandMe In reply to PyroShadow18 [2018-10-19 18:18:30 +0000 UTC]

Yeah how are,you and AJ
How,did it come up with the name AJ

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PyroShadow18 In reply to JohnnyandMe [2018-10-20 16:27:32 +0000 UTC]

I'm okay.

Yesterday, there was a low point.

Upon which I dealt with, by screaming into my blanket and biting it while I screamed.

I was in a state for a few minutes.

And then I felt bad. And felt like I wasn't worth anything.

But that moment eventually passed, and I was okay again.

AJ is my anger personified.

AJ means Angry Josh.

And he's a voice in my head. One that loves to torment me and wants to kill me.

Even though I often try to accept him because he's been hurt as well.

Though I don't know how he's been hurt. He's often too angry to tell me how.

Soo, yeah.

Stay safe Lacey. *hugs*

~J

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JohnnyandMe In reply to PyroShadow18 [2018-10-20 20:43:43 +0000 UTC]

I understand my voices are different sam is nice and caring but carol is evil and mean

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PyroShadow18 In reply to JohnnyandMe [2018-10-20 20:47:59 +0000 UTC]

I see.

I'm sorry that Carol is mean to you.

*hugs* You don't deserve it, and it's not your fault.

I hope that one day you and Carol can be friends.

~J

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JohnnyandMe In reply to PyroShadow18 [2018-10-20 20:55:30 +0000 UTC]

We were friends but then I got on meds to take him away and he turned evil

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PyroShadow18 In reply to JohnnyandMe [2018-10-20 21:09:20 +0000 UTC]

I see.

I'm sorry.. *sends him, and you a hug*

~J

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JohnnyandMe In reply to PyroShadow18 [2018-10-21 01:11:30 +0000 UTC]

I'm still depressed and my mom's and sister meanest doesn't help

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PyroShadow18 In reply to JohnnyandMe [2018-10-21 01:53:44 +0000 UTC]

*hugshugs* I'm sorry. I hope the rest of your night goes well. *hugs*

I'm here for you. Promise. You're not alone.

~J

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JohnnyandMe In reply to PyroShadow18 [2018-10-21 18:51:13 +0000 UTC]

Thanks my family was fighting

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PyroShadow18 In reply to JohnnyandMe [2018-10-21 20:18:06 +0000 UTC]

*hugs* I'm sorry they were fighting.. It's not your fault Lacey. I wish parents wouldn't fight in front of their kids..
It's not right..

~J

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JohnnyandMe In reply to PyroShadow18 [2018-10-21 21:04:57 +0000 UTC]

Yeah its his fault he watches ass porn and my mom as a anger problen

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PyroShadow18 In reply to JohnnyandMe [2018-10-22 00:02:41 +0000 UTC]

I'm really sorry Lacey. *hugs*

I wish things were better in life for you.

And I hope they will be one day. You're a good person.

~J

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JohnnyandMe In reply to PyroShadow18 [2018-10-22 01:11:15 +0000 UTC]

Thanks I'm going to try to ignore my problems until I see my therapist and psychiatrist

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PyroShadow18 In reply to JohnnyandMe [2018-10-22 01:20:25 +0000 UTC]

Okay.

Good luck. I'm sorry you're going through hard times.

*hugs* But you're not alone.

I hope you see them soon.

Take care Lacey.

~J

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JohnnyandMe In reply to PyroShadow18 [2018-10-22 01:38:45 +0000 UTC]

I see them in November the 8th I just got to make it til then

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PyroShadow18 In reply to JohnnyandMe [2018-10-22 13:08:49 +0000 UTC]

Awesome. Good luck!

~J

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JohnnyandMe In reply to PyroShadow18 [2018-10-22 18:46:18 +0000 UTC]

Thanks today I'm feeling better

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PyroShadow18 In reply to JohnnyandMe [2018-10-22 19:31:10 +0000 UTC]

That's wonderful! I'm very happy to hear that.

I'm doing well too.

~J

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JohnnyandMe In reply to PyroShadow18 [2018-10-22 19:56:58 +0000 UTC]

Yeah that's good

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PyroShadow18 In reply to JohnnyandMe [2018-10-23 16:47:02 +0000 UTC]

Thanks

~J

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JohnnyandMe In reply to PyroShadow18 [2018-10-23 18:49:47 +0000 UTC]

I your welcome

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PyroShadow18 In reply to JohnnyandMe [2018-10-23 21:52:00 +0000 UTC]

Cool.

I hope your day is going well.

~J

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JohnnyandMe In reply to PyroShadow18 [2018-10-23 22:05:16 +0000 UTC]

Thanks it was good

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PyroShadow18 In reply to JohnnyandMe [2018-10-23 22:35:40 +0000 UTC]

That's good. I'm glad.

~J

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JohnnyandMe In reply to PyroShadow18 [2018-10-24 18:13:04 +0000 UTC]

Yep

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PyroShadow18 In reply to JohnnyandMe [2018-10-24 20:42:26 +0000 UTC]

Cool. I hope today is a good day for you Lacey.

~J

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JohnnyandMe In reply to PyroShadow18 [2018-10-24 21:25:31 +0000 UTC]

It is in hope it's good for you too

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PyroShadow18 In reply to JohnnyandMe [2018-10-24 22:05:18 +0000 UTC]

Thanks. My day's going well so far.

~J

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JohnnyandMe In reply to PyroShadow18 [2018-10-24 22:06:38 +0000 UTC]

Yay

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PyroShadow18 In reply to JohnnyandMe [2018-10-25 00:18:21 +0000 UTC]

Thanks.

~J

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JohnnyandMe In reply to PyroShadow18 [2018-10-25 03:19:04 +0000 UTC]

Your welcone

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PyroShadow18 In reply to JohnnyandMe [2018-10-26 13:03:28 +0000 UTC]

I hope today is a good day for you Lacey.

~J

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JohnnyandMe In reply to PyroShadow18 [2018-10-26 17:26:21 +0000 UTC]

It is

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PyroShadow18 In reply to JohnnyandMe [2018-10-27 12:54:18 +0000 UTC]

That's good. I'm glad.

~J

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JohnnyandMe In reply to PyroShadow18 [2018-10-27 14:52:27 +0000 UTC]

Yep I get to hang out with one of my friends today

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PyroShadow18 In reply to JohnnyandMe [2018-10-27 16:39:45 +0000 UTC]

That's awesome! I"m happy for you.

~J

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JohnnyandMe In reply to PyroShadow18 [2018-10-28 01:16:00 +0000 UTC]

It was fun

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PyroShadow18 In reply to JohnnyandMe [2018-10-28 01:18:14 +0000 UTC]

That's great! I'm happy you had a fun day.

~J

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JohnnyandMe In reply to PyroShadow18 [2018-10-28 18:22:45 +0000 UTC]

Me,too

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PyroShadow18 In reply to JohnnyandMe [2018-10-29 00:14:03 +0000 UTC]

Yay! Good for you.

~J

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JohnnyandMe In reply to PyroShadow18 [2018-10-29 00:33:19 +0000 UTC]

Yeah but I just want to die. I can't take the voices and self harm and suicidal thoughts anymore. I can't wait til I see my therapist and psychiatrist next week

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PyroShadow18 In reply to JohnnyandMe [2018-10-29 19:53:00 +0000 UTC]

*gives you a great big hug* I'm here for you Lacey.
I don't want you to die. And I know that if you did die, then I'd be really sad..
I know pain is really painful. And it hurts a lot.
And I'm sorry you're going through this pain in your life right now.
But you're not alone. I'm always gonna be here for you.
You are an amazing person. And I'm glad that you haven't died yet.
Take care okay. You are loved and treasured by a lot of people.
I love you..
Take care okay. *hugshugs*

~J

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JohnnyandMe In reply to PyroShadow18 [2018-10-29 20:05:33 +0000 UTC]

Awwww thanks I'm trying to fight the urge to cut and die. I'm going to try to make it til I. See my therapist and psychiatrist next week. I'm kind of hoping I go to the hospital for suicidal thoughts cause I can't fight them anymore. I love you too and thanks for being a good friend

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PyroShadow18 In reply to JohnnyandMe [2018-10-29 21:20:16 +0000 UTC]

You're very welcome Lacey.
You can always talk to me if you want to. But I won't force you to. 
Thanks for trusting me. I trust you. I'm glad you'll try to live. That's important.
*hugs* You're important to me. And I'm glad you're still here.

You're welcome. Thanks for being a good friend to me as well.

~J

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JohnnyandMe In reply to PyroShadow18 [2018-10-30 01:33:10 +0000 UTC]

It sucks my home town psych ward is closed. Which sucks.

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PyroShadow18 In reply to JohnnyandMe [2018-10-30 02:41:39 +0000 UTC]

Does the psych ward close during the week?
I hope it'll be open again soon! *sends you a big hug*


~J

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