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I went with the title because of the story below. No matter how many times things get rough I always pull through.

Character: Elsa
Series: Frozen
Edits: Myself
Make Up: Myself
Costumes: Myself
Photographer: My Mom

Photographer comments: Read below.
Model comments: Read below.

This isn’t the best photo; the pose isn’t very good, things on the costume are all turned, the wig was falling off and it was taken with a very low quality camera. However this is still one of my favorite photos just because of the memory associated with it. I had spent close to a hundred hours on this costume and it took about six months but it really never felt like it because I had so much fun with the construction of the design. The costume is supposed to be a masquerade version of Elsa but in the photo I’m just wearing the original pieces. The reason why this photo means so much to me is because while it is taken by my mom it’s still a moment where I felt like I could really be a professional in the art and design world and do it on my own. I had been having continuous fall outs with trying to work with others in the same field and I was getting quite upset that I had years and years of costumes and clothing with so many hours of work but no proof to show due to not wanting to support my past photographers anymore because of their ethics and morals. My mom who is still quite against me making a career out of art and design for once felt compelled to help me out because it was also around that time that I had to move back home so both my parents were able to see the amount of work I put it to my costumes. I had to work in the kitchen because at the time, my room was too small to work on things. When she found out that I would have no pictures of my own and also that I wanted to take pictures in the next town over, she took me for a day trip and we raced against the melting snow that had disappeared as quickly as it had appeared. It was only around for about an hour even though that day was so fucking cold. XD I only took my heavy jacket off for pictures and was shaking so much that my mom had the heat cranked up in the car.

Anyway I remember wondering why my mom decided to help me and she said to me “Well I watched you put all that work into it and it’s a shame you don’t have any photos.” And that’s often the comments I get when I make clothes or cosplays and people see them in person. A lot of people tell me I’m underrated and sometimes I believe them and sometimes I don’t but I’m trying to believe it more. I try to explain to people too, the reason that is the case, is because I’m not taking photos of everything I make and when I do, it takes me quite a long time to do the shoots, edit them, and post them. Also I’ve just always been the type of person people like to hate without reason. I realized as I got older that a lot of it is because I do things on my own and even though I’m older and in a tough situation where I don’t have much freedom; I still manage to do my things the way I want in secret. Apparently that pisses people off. XD The other thing about this costume is that the snow queen was also one of my favorite stories growing up. I’ve read and watched many different versions of it and had planned to do a cosplay of it at some point and when I saw a Disney version…I just lost it. 0__0 This costume was also not cheap to make, it cost close to 250 dollars that’s including the masquerade accessories not shown in the photo and the only reason I was able to make it was because it was originally for a fancy masquerade and my parents were trying to get me to buy a regular dress for around the same price but I suggested to put it towards a cosplay so I could get more use out of it and also make something instead of having a store bought gown or costume. Also while this photo was being taken, not only was I thinking “I can do this” and that it compelled me to get into doing everything from photos, editing, modeling, make up, wig making, drafting, and sewing all on my own; but that this is my little bit of peace in the world. I worked at the place where the photo was taken for a few summers and because of it, I grew quite a lot as a person. I met people from all over, got to use my languages, met some real assholes and real lovely people but often whenever I got really fed up with the world, even in tourist season, I would go off somewhere, often by myself, which is actually not recommended there due to wild life, and just sit and enjoy the view in peace. I really loved when it was close to or at off season and I could do this. There was such serenity to it and it is one of those things I do try to normally hide from the world but this place is unfortunately becoming more and more overrun by people. It’s good in a way that it keeps the town running but also a little sad that it will eventually loose it’s calmness like a lot of tourist towns do. That’s why this photo, actually the whole set, is quite precious to me even though it doesn’t look like the professionals’. Also it’s after making this costume that I thought; “Fuck this “Working for another company makes you legit.” I’m calling myself a pro since I have my papers, I’m trying to start my own business and I can make something like this.” XD

Description
I went with the title because of the story below. No matter how many times things get rough I always pull through.

Character: Elsa
Series: Frozen
Edits: Myself
Make Up: Myself
Costumes: Myself
Photographer: My Mom

Photographer comments: Read below.
Model comments: Read below.

This isn’t the best photo; the pose isn’t very good, things on the costume are all turned, the wig was falling off and it was taken with a very low quality camera. However this is still one of my favorite photos just because of the memory associated with it. I had spent close to a hundred hours on this costume and it took about six months but it really never felt like it because I had so much fun with the construction of the design. The costume is supposed to be a masquerade version of Elsa but in the photo I’m just wearing the original pieces. The reason why this photo means so much to me is because while it is taken by my mom it’s still a moment where I felt like I could really be a professional in the art and design world and do it on my own. I had been having continuous fall outs with trying to work with others in the same field and I was getting quite upset that I had years and years of costumes and clothing with so many hours of work but no proof to show due to not wanting to support my past photographers anymore because of their ethics and morals. My mom who is still quite against me making a career out of art and design for once felt compelled to help me out because it was also around that time that I had to move back home so both my parents were able to see the amount of work I put it to my costumes. I had to work in the kitchen because at the time, my room was too small to work on things. When she found out that I would have no pictures of my own and also that I wanted to take pictures in the next town over, she took me for a day trip and we raced against the melting snow that had disappeared as quickly as it had appeared. It was only around for about an hour even though that day was so fucking cold. XD I only took my heavy jacket off for pictures and was shaking so much that my mom had the heat cranked up in the car.

Anyway I remember wondering why my mom decided to help me and she said to me “Well I watched you put all that work into it and it’s a shame you don’t have any photos.” And that’s often the comments I get when I make clothes or cosplays and people see them in person. A lot of people tell me I’m underrated and sometimes I believe them and sometimes I don’t but I’m trying to believe it more. I try to explain to people too, the reason that is the case, is because I’m not taking photos of everything I make and when I do, it takes me quite a long time to do the shoots, edit them, and post them. Also I’ve just always been the type of person people like to hate without reason. I realized as I got older that a lot of it is because I do things on my own and even though I’m older and in a tough situation where I don’t have much freedom; I still manage to do my things the way I want in secret. Apparently that pisses people off. XD The other thing about this costume is that the snow queen was also one of my favorite stories growing up. I’ve read and watched many different versions of it and had planned to do a cosplay of it at some point and when I saw a Disney version…I just lost it. 0__0 This costume was also not cheap to make, it cost close to 250 dollars that’s including the masquerade accessories not shown in the photo and the only reason I was able to make it was because it was originally for a fancy masquerade and my parents were trying to get me to buy a regular dress for around the same price but I suggested to put it towards a cosplay so I could get more use out of it and also make something instead of having a store bought gown or costume. Also while this photo was being taken, not only was I thinking “I can do this” and that it compelled me to get into doing everything from photos, editing, modeling, make up, wig making, drafting, and sewing all on my own; but that this is my little bit of peace in the world. I worked at the place where the photo was taken for a few summers and because of it, I grew quite a lot as a person. I met people from all over, got to use my languages, met some real assholes and real lovely people but often whenever I got really fed up with the world, even in tourist season, I would go off somewhere, often by myself, which is actually not recommended there due to wild life, and just sit and enjoy the view in peace. I really loved when it was close to or at off season and I could do this. There was such serenity to it and it is one of those things I do try to normally hide from the world but this place is unfortunately becoming more and more overrun by people. It’s good in a way that it keeps the town running but also a little sad that it will eventually loose it’s calmness like a lot of tourist towns do. That’s why this photo, actually the whole set, is quite precious to me even though it doesn’t look like the professionals’. Also it’s after making this costume that I thought; “Fuck this “Working for another company makes you legit.” I’m calling myself a pro since I have my papers, I’m trying to start my own business and I can make something like this.” XD