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"Life on hard mode, beat the game anyway."
So, this quote was by Boogie2988. I'm going through a very hard time in my life. I'm sucidal, and I'm trying not to think about it, but it's really hard. I watched some of Boogie2988 videos, and he helped me quite alot. So, if you don't know him, he has a YouTube channel called- I think I said his name to many times now, that it's burned into your mind now (Just incase, his YouTube channel is Boogie2988 [Meh]). I want to give a quick shout out to my friend, TheVexster2. She was the only one I talked to about my suicidal thoughts, and I owe her literally my life. I just wanna thank her for everything. Anyways, I have a habit of blaming myself for all the problems in my family, like for example, why my sister gets into trouble more and fights with my parents (She told me multiple times that she hated me, just in different words). She and her friends are the ones who are making me suicidal, but I don't wanna tell them since I'll anger them or just make them feel guilty. I hate it when someone feels guilty over me. My little siblings aren't making it better, they're just stressing me, and the fact that my sister does not help take care of them, make the problem worse. I thought if I wasn't alive, all the problems would be fixed. I wanted to bring a knife to my skin, and I did careless things like: Dropping knives constantly, sharpening pencils with knives, trying to cut myself with a knife, PLAYING with knives (Weird how all of these are knife related). So, if anyone, anywhere, is going through this, know that you're not going through it alone. I'm not trying to be cliché, but other people like me, are experiencing this with you. I hope you like the drawing by the way.
Any ways, good bye. Hopefully not forever.

Description
"Life on hard mode, beat the game anyway."
So, this quote was by Boogie2988. I'm going through a very hard time in my life. I'm sucidal, and I'm trying not to think about it, but it's really hard. I watched some of Boogie2988 videos, and he helped me quite alot. So, if you don't know him, he has a YouTube channel called- I think I said his name to many times now, that it's burned into your mind now (Just incase, his YouTube channel is Boogie2988 [Meh]). I want to give a quick shout out to my friend, TheVexster2. She was the only one I talked to about my suicidal thoughts, and I owe her literally my life. I just wanna thank her for everything. Anyways, I have a habit of blaming myself for all the problems in my family, like for example, why my sister gets into trouble more and fights with my parents (She told me multiple times that she hated me, just in different words). She and her friends are the ones who are making me suicidal, but I don't wanna tell them since I'll anger them or just make them feel guilty. I hate it when someone feels guilty over me. My little siblings aren't making it better, they're just stressing me, and the fact that my sister does not help take care of them, make the problem worse. I thought if I wasn't alive, all the problems would be fixed. I wanted to bring a knife to my skin, and I did careless things like: Dropping knives constantly, sharpening pencils with knives, trying to cut myself with a knife, PLAYING with knives (Weird how all of these are knife related). So, if anyone, anywhere, is going through this, know that you're not going through it alone. I'm not trying to be cliché, but other people like me, are experiencing this with you. I hope you like the drawing by the way.
Any ways, good bye. Hopefully not forever.