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Published: 2012-09-07 02:45:30 +0000 UTC; Views: 2267; Favourites: 146; Downloads: 19
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this is what i realized. i am way to trusting. i will trust that my friends will do something, even though i know they wont. not only that but i forgive them for breaking the promises they break and then i go back to "trusting" them. i think its more hope that they will actually do what they promis to do, but still.this is a picture of italy being stabed by his 2p (second personality, or dark italy) because i see his as some sort of concious i guess. its like, that side of italy that never shows, all his anger and stuff is hidden away in the back of his mind and he just locks it away, so when he does finally looses it, this is how i imagine his 2p getting back at him for locking him away in his mind for so long.
the reason i chose these too is because for 1, i cosplay as italy because he is the one i am most like, and also, i try and hide my dark, sad, angry emotions in the back of my mind, kinda like i think italy does. this is how i also feel when some one breaks a promis, like my heart was stabbed by the anger. sorry if this is a bit grafic, and that my rant is a bit long. i know most of you probably didnt even get this far into the rant, so thank you for reading this if you did, and now, i feel better. i love you guys (you know, in that non-creepy type way)
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I don't want to sound like an ass, but it's "too" not "to." I'm so sorry! I think I'm just like OCD!
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I know how you feel, the other day I got into a serious fight with one of my best friends, and I'm owed a lot of collabs and characters from one of my best friends here on dA. But sometimes things aren't as they seem; sometimes there are reasons as to why they break their promises as I found out. And even if there isn't a reason, there's no need to beat yourself up about it! There's nothing wrong with trusting people you about! So don't feel so depressed, kay? Things will get better ^^
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Thank you. Ill keep that in mind
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You're welcome ^^
I don't like seeing people with such great talent feeling so depressed
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thank you again. that means alot
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And it's okay to be trusting sometimes. C: It shows you're a good hearted person. ^^
And that....that picture is so epic.
I'm jelli. :C
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Just telling you the absolute truth. ^^
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<3 Don't worry <3 I know how you feel :3 If you ever need someone to talk to, I'll be there for you <3
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dawww thank you so much~!!!!
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You're welcome <3
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oh yesh o.o I saw u draw this one
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... trust me... i know... STALKER!
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oh gosh gosh gosh live Italy TAT...but I like more 2p
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Wonderful drawing! I love how you depict him being stabbed by his darker consciousness.
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Random creeper here! Ahaha~ I saw this on the front page and I couldn't resist clicking on it. Your drawing is very well done, and the concept, I absolutely love. 2p!s and Dark!Hetalia, I find are very fascinating. Hetalia is hilarious and I love it that way, but... There are all these dark sides to the coutires that I love to delve into. As someone who roleplays for America (a generally happy if obnoxious character... You never really see him angry), I can somewhat understand where these feelings come from. I'm sorry you feel the way you do about your friends... It can be quite depressing at times, yeah? I know how it feels, dude... Ehehe... But we're the type of people that are happier in the end.
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op! i started crying... thank you so much. hearing these words really makes me feel better. i drew this on tuesday during school, and i showed it to the girl who made me upset and she loved it, im glad she liked it, but it still hurts a little that she liked how italy was stabbed, and she knows i cosplay/rp as italy. she cosplays as romano, and if you see this picture --> [link] youll understand that this isnt the first time i have had issues with the matter, and i draw my feelings. allen (romano) and her girlfriend katie (prussia) have made me upset in the past, and katie yelled at me for the one picture i linked because she thinks im taking things too personaly and that i think im the only one who has problems.
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Oh darlin'! I'm glad I can make a fellow lonely heart feel better~! I know how it feels when your friends break their promises. I was raised as an only child and didn't have many friends until middle school. I had a best friend and I was happy... But she betrayed me. She let out my secret and we started fighting all the time. All my bottled up anger started bursting out. I'm scared to make real best friends now because of that. I've come close, but it all comes down to that little secret I keep. I have to find someone I can trust it with. And I think I will. I have hope and I think you should have it too~ 
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yeah, i have a friend who we use to be best friends since 3rd grade, we use to get into all sorts of trouble and stuff, and then she started treating me like shit just because she isnt a virgen anymore and i am, so she thinks that makes her smarter and better than me. she laughs at me if i dont know some kind of term or a small part of the human body or something, and she has just been a complete ass. but the 2 who keep breaking the promises, if i try and bring them up they blow up at me, so i decided that drawing out my feelings about the issues would help, and katie got mad at me for that, so hell i really dont give a shit anymore. if they see the pictures i draw when they make me mad or sad, i dont give a flying fuck anymore if they get mad because they will just have to fucking deal with it (sorry for the rude language) im sick of them just getting mad all the time, and the reason i get so mad i guess is because im jealous that they are so close, and i dont have anyone that i can hang out with anymore. anyone who i ask tell me they are busy, or that they dont want to, or they just dont plan answer. i spend almost all my free time RPing with someone who doesnt even live here, and sitting in my cave (bedroom).
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Ah, don't feel lonely in the virgin department. Having sex doesn't make you any better or smarter than someone who hasn't. Especially if you lose it when you're younger. But, ah, who am I to judge? At this point all I can do is give you a nice cyber pat on the back *pats back and gives cookie* There seems to be something neiter of you are willing to talk about. I can't really judge since I've not personally meet any of you... But there seems to be lots of miscommunication going on. And perhaps fear of rejection on your part? i can't be quite sure, but if they're yelling at you when you try to tell them how you feel, then maybe you need to yell back. Get their attention. If you're already yelling, yell louder. Be brave. I know how hard it is when your first instinct is to smile and forgive. I do it all the time. Don't keep the anger in, let it out. If you have to, draw more. Then shove it in their face and say, "This is how I fucking feel. Don't you dare yell at me for trying to tell you that sometimes the things you do make me feel like shit." It could just be that they didn't take the drawing as seriously as they should. I was in a similar situation with my now very-best-friends. Something happened and I got extremely depressed and decided to break off my friendship with them. I had been trying to tell them how I felt, in a subtle manner, and they seemed to ignore it. Eventually I got fed up and sent them both letters saying I couldn't take them anymore. Their replies brought me to happy tears. They told me how much they cared and that they'll try harder to notice when they do things that hurt my feelings. Our friendship is stronger now because of it. And jealousy? Pff- Me too. Cause guess what? Those two friends I mentioned? Dating. Off and on for over a year now. But even with our friendship so close... I'm alone the majority of the time. In my room, mostly on the internet. It's that sinking feeling that no one really likes you, yeah? I know that's what gets me. That despite how friendly I am, no matter how much I smile... It's all for nothing. I feel mad every time I find out that 'this friend hung out with this friend over the weekend' while I sat at home by myself all weekend or 'Oh yeah! Me and her went to see that movie you really wanted to see. Sorry we didn't call you or something!' I'll tell you how to help with those problems when I figure it out myself. But you have to look for the hope in life too. Sometimes you just gotta say "Fuck you, world! I'm gonna be happy! I'm gonna have that close person that's always there for me! No matter what you say!"
-Abi
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you know... everything in this message just about describes me... i feel like a third wheel, i dont like the thought of loosing any of my friends dew to the face i only have a few.. and im always left out of everything. if i want to go do anything its either i have to invite someone and hope they actually decide to show up, or i do it by my self. it feels like people look at me and they see the plege or something and they just ignor me. the only time i talk or anything with people is at school or at work. other than that its pretty much any random person i meet on deviantart and start talking to, and sometimes it seems, that the people i meet on DA, are better friends then my ones in real life, you would not believe how bad i just want to stay on DA and not go anywhere else becuase i feel like this is the only place im aknollaged. shool, im seen as the freak who always wheres these weird cloths (my cosplays) and draws dumb cartoons about 2 gay guys. and at home i am seen as the couch potato or the dest toper that never leave the computer. i noticed that i actually seem to try and cut myself off from the people in the real world. i watch anime more than i see friends, i only seem to talk about anime with my people who know what im talking about. and i just dont want to include myself into this world i guess because im afraid of being casted out i guess.
thank you so much for talking to me. im just glad to see, that im not the only person who feels like things are unfair i guess. it seems like i got the short end of a vast line of sticks, and that everyone else is happy while i just put of a mask. well, good night
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*yawn* (I'm getting ready for school.) I know exactly how you feel. You want to have those best friends and do everything with them, right? But you end up not doing much because you're afraid of letting them in and then losing them. SO you stay at home, unless you're brought out. I do the same thing! I'm seen as the weird girl too. I wear really random, really colorful clothes (no cosplay seeing as I have no monies to buy them). I can be really loud and obnoxious without meaning to be. I can't, for the life of me, find this book called The Atmosphere that everyone's telling me I can't read. (xD One of the many reasons I roleplay America). i've never HEARD the whispers, but I can't help but think they're there. You know, "I heard she likes gay porn." (*sigh* I don't call it gay porn... Though sometimes Yaoi is close. Very close.) "She's always hugging these other girls. I think she might be lesbian!" (I'm not. I have respect for LGBT, but I prefer a nice hunk of man... Even if I've never really had a boyfriend. ): And I hug and hold hands with my friends because I'm a very touchy-feely person.) "I heard she's not a Christian." (Ugh, living in the Bible belt! I'm not Christian either... I don't really have a religion I follow, though I respect all of them.) Just kind of adds up, I guess. At home, I'm the loud and clumsy recluse. I only sometimes come out of my room, and I'm always lazy. (Eh, mostly true~)
These all add up to someone who is... DUNDUNDUN... An ambivert! We get the short end of the stick. On the extreme ends of the "Social Spectrum" there are introverts (people who dislike, intensely, to associate with other people. Are usaully caught sulking if brought to public events) and extroverts (the peoples people of peoples people. Usually the center of attention at public events.) And then there are those inbetween. There are different types of ambiverts, but we're the type that can do well in a public event but generally are found by themselves. We LIKE people, we want to be around people... But we're too scared or too sad to keep contact. We can't grasp other's attention. Sucks, right? *sigh* Alas, maybe we'll find that special someone one day, yeah?
Oh, you're very welcome~! I don't reach out like that a lot (people on the internet tend to forget about me and stop messaging me ): ) But I'm glad I did~ I'm also happy to find I'm not the only one who feels the same way~ See you when I get back from school~!
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it amazes me how much this describes me. its increadible. and you dont have to worry, i try not to ignor people online, but if im really busy i wont chat. well thanks again for the great talk, ill be sure to talk to you again when i get the chance
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im back, sorry i left for a little bit~!
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'Sokay~ I'm sorry myself! Ah, I've not been feeling well so I was sleeping it off all day. But I'm better now~ How has your day been?
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pretty good, just got work
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Really? That's good~
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lol sup~! i work at freaking 7:30 am. lol but hey~!
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Ahaha~ Work starts at 11 for me~ What do you do?
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Ohh~ Tough work sometimes. I was going to get a job at McyD's but... No car, which means no way to get there. *shrug* I get commisioned for odd jobs. Moving mulch and sorting trash is what I'm doing tomorrow. Hard labour and Tutoring is what I usually do... Ah, wish I didn't have too... But, money makes the world go round, yes?
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yeah, thats the only reason im still working at McDonalds.... i hate it so much
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Omaigosh! I'm sooooo sorry this took so long! I was sick for a bit and was sleeping it off and then I was at school and Drama club... But anyways... D: I'm sorry you hate work. Life always smooths out after the rough bits, yeah?
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