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Every year i try to look back and think about the sort of stuff i've learned and my takeaway from it all. The biggest thing i can just think of, overall, what defined my year? My identity and Mental Health.

Now Mental health struggles are no stranger to me, and its something i've been dealing with since i could remember. These last two years ive been on anxiety meds and got on ADHD meds just this year, and it made me realize just... how it isnt really a fix all for how i am mentally. I had a day where I was told i'd be written up because i forgot to write something down, and i went home to my mom and broke down crying. And after that, I got angry at a co worker over a convo they were having about "adult books". When i went home to my parents, they told me that, people are just like that. My dad said his co workers do the same. It made me re-evaluate how i proceed with convos and having to realize that, what i might think is wrong or abnormal, is actually socially normal.
On top of all of that, I've been trying to view myself in a better light. Because of the stuff that had happened at work, and my struggles with my ADHD and memory issues, it was really hard for me to come to terms with how i function and how im allowed to be like this. I don't have to be perfect, and i shouldnt feel like a burden because of it. It was definitely one of those "practice what you preach" moments for me haha.

All in all, this year felt like a year of learning and growth. Learning im allowed to accept help, learning to not let my mental illness control me, learning im disabled- and that its ok to ask for accommodations surrounding it. It was also learning what made me happy, and why it did. I love metal because it resonates with my emotions. I love drawing because it lets me create, and to let others feel seen with my art and characters. I love working with kids because its fulfilling and makes me happy.
Along with that, me and a couple of friends are also all planning on moving in together in the distant future. Theres been a lot of preparation behind it, and a lot of discussion about how to go about things and how we all want to do it. Moving out has been something i've wanted to do ever since I was a kid, and it feels surreal to actually see the future of that goal in sight, especially since im getting the help of my friends.

This wasn't a perfect year by any means, but it also wasnt bad. I learned a lot, i grew a lot as a person and learned to accept my struggles and when i need help. A lot is still unclear for me in the future, as i recently quit my current job and have been applying for a lot near me. I wont hear anything until the start of the new year. I wont be moving in with friends for a while, but me and another still have to go and look at states to decide which one we wanna settle on. Will it be in 2024? Who knows, we will have to wait and see.

I'm going into 2024 optimistic, but nervous. The presidential election is on the horizon, I want to try and get a car by then, and im officially going to be in my mid 20's. I'm hoping 2024 wont be a rough year, and that things can go as smooth as they can for a new year.

All pieces of art pictures:

January: www.deviantart.com/annnoel/art…
February: annnoel-art.tumblr.com/post/70…
March: annnoel-art.tumblr.com/post/71…
April: www.deviantart.com/annnoel/art…
May: i.imgur.com/12aWS1R.png (Had to go digging to find anything in may, this is the only one i found and it wasnt even uploaded anywhere LMAO)
June: www.deviantart.com/annnoel/art…
July: www.deviantart.com/annnoel/art…
August: www.deviantart.com/annnoel/art…
September: www.deviantart.com/annnoel/art…
October: www.deviantart.com/annnoel/art…
November: www.deviantart.com/annnoel/art…
December: www.deviantart.com/annnoel/art…

Template i used: www.deviantart.com/arieldrawsd…

Description
Every year i try to look back and think about the sort of stuff i've learned and my takeaway from it all. The biggest thing i can just think of, overall, what defined my year? My identity and Mental Health.

Now Mental health struggles are no stranger to me, and its something i've been dealing with since i could remember. These last two years ive been on anxiety meds and got on ADHD meds just this year, and it made me realize just... how it isnt really a fix all for how i am mentally. I had a day where I was told i'd be written up because i forgot to write something down, and i went home to my mom and broke down crying. And after that, I got angry at a co worker over a convo they were having about "adult books". When i went home to my parents, they told me that, people are just like that. My dad said his co workers do the same. It made me re-evaluate how i proceed with convos and having to realize that, what i might think is wrong or abnormal, is actually socially normal.
On top of all of that, I've been trying to view myself in a better light. Because of the stuff that had happened at work, and my struggles with my ADHD and memory issues, it was really hard for me to come to terms with how i function and how im allowed to be like this. I don't have to be perfect, and i shouldnt feel like a burden because of it. It was definitely one of those "practice what you preach" moments for me haha.

All in all, this year felt like a year of learning and growth. Learning im allowed to accept help, learning to not let my mental illness control me, learning im disabled- and that its ok to ask for accommodations surrounding it. It was also learning what made me happy, and why it did. I love metal because it resonates with my emotions. I love drawing because it lets me create, and to let others feel seen with my art and characters. I love working with kids because its fulfilling and makes me happy.
Along with that, me and a couple of friends are also all planning on moving in together in the distant future. Theres been a lot of preparation behind it, and a lot of discussion about how to go about things and how we all want to do it. Moving out has been something i've wanted to do ever since I was a kid, and it feels surreal to actually see the future of that goal in sight, especially since im getting the help of my friends.

This wasn't a perfect year by any means, but it also wasnt bad. I learned a lot, i grew a lot as a person and learned to accept my struggles and when i need help. A lot is still unclear for me in the future, as i recently quit my current job and have been applying for a lot near me. I wont hear anything until the start of the new year. I wont be moving in with friends for a while, but me and another still have to go and look at states to decide which one we wanna settle on. Will it be in 2024? Who knows, we will have to wait and see.

I'm going into 2024 optimistic, but nervous. The presidential election is on the horizon, I want to try and get a car by then, and im officially going to be in my mid 20's. I'm hoping 2024 wont be a rough year, and that things can go as smooth as they can for a new year.

All pieces of art pictures:

January: www.deviantart.com/annnoel/art…
February: annnoel-art.tumblr.com/post/70…
March: annnoel-art.tumblr.com/post/71…
April: www.deviantart.com/annnoel/art…
May: i.imgur.com/12aWS1R.png (Had to go digging to find anything in may, this is the only one i found and it wasnt even uploaded anywhere LMAO)
June: www.deviantart.com/annnoel/art…
July: www.deviantart.com/annnoel/art…
August: www.deviantart.com/annnoel/art…
September: www.deviantart.com/annnoel/art…
October: www.deviantart.com/annnoel/art…
November: www.deviantart.com/annnoel/art…
December: www.deviantart.com/annnoel/art…

Template i used: www.deviantart.com/arieldrawsd…