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before i post this,
I just want to say few more words.

Back on October 14, i had an experience...
that really changed everything for me....
I kind of.... lost myself and found something....
else….

I know longer feel the need I used to have
to be posting and making art,

I have so many of these undone.
but I’m trying to find a meaning for myself,
in what I write,

see if I can understand something.
because, I’m blind somehow,
and really don't know where I should be going.

somehow, everything got destroyed.
and everything I thought about my future,
everything I hold dear for myself, is gone.

The last thing, the last thing I heard,

“Finish what you started.”
It’s the only way to open the path.

And maybe hope,
Too see, something marvelous.

♦☺>The Artwork
Title: Fog
Or (White and Red)
or (Freedom)

From the "I’m trying" and
“is time to release my hidden cards” series

Painting started on: 08-08-2019

I'm sorry,
I have some many paintings and writings pending,
But I am very busy right now, trying to accommodate time.

Too many questions,
Too many answers,

Too many lies, and
Too many truths.

but I decided to use my secret hidden paintings,

and maybe to try to don’t leave you alone
and at least annoy you once a week.
Hehe…

♦☺>Story
Thursday, August 8, 2019
5:03 PM

THE JOKER
This is the new Photoshop ENB Mod
Running on 4 SLI 2080 RTX 64GB Ram
AMD 64 core processor

… Just useless insipid crap.

Ohhhh Sweet Child of Mine

4 REALS

an internally sad person,
profoundly divided

A crying spirit

The Problem when playing with ‘The Mirror’
is that everything about you gets reflected.

even your fears.

Even though,
Doing this has made me more aware about myself.

for me, the hidden reason about this.
I have somehow died emotionally,
Routine, monotony, hardship, it dries you,
Closing you, slowly making you hard stone,
Becoming numb.

For me,
placing my Ghost in a Shell,
And somehow trying to output only the emotions of the heart,
Makes me see in the results, my true inner self.

Makes feel my own emotions again,
making me feel alive.

THE OUTCOME

Failure over failure

Being here,
And posting has made me a more open person to my feelings

Sad.
I am

So, you do expect to see my….

Oh, my son, if only you were real….

OTHER ASDFASDF

Thursday, Oktobeer 10, 2019 4:52pm

Your actions define your thoughts?

If your thoughts define your actions,
How do you change your thoughts?

Change your actions.

If you change your actions,
You will change your thoughts.

If you are sad,
You do sad,

But if you do happy,
You will be happy.

Stop wasting time thinking so much,
In what makes you feel bad,

Instead….
Think happy, think future, think hope.

but if you can't….
then do happy.

Do…,
move, keep on doing,
Act, do actions,
Generate,
do not be afraid of failure.
these actions will change your thoughts
and make you feel better.

In order to be happy,
first you have to smile.

so, smile first.

Happiness is a decision.
smiling, is a decision

-
How would you know, pain if you don’t feel it?
How would you resolve problems, if you don’t see them?

Feel the problems,
then manage the solutions.

……

Basic Introduction to Math
Chapter 1 Arithmetic
Or (the basic principles of empathy)

What you forgot, but always knew…

If you do sad
And I do sad,

We are sad, but sharing our sadness makes us happy.

If you do happy
And I do sad.

I am sad, but you make me happy.

If you do sad,
And I do happy.

I feel sad, but I make you happy.

If you do happy
And I do happy

We are happy.

Apply this principle to every being around you.
Person, animal, plant, and nature.
And you will find your most valuable purpose in life.

To live for each other,
To love each other.

…..

Asdfasdfasdfasdfasdf
♦☺>Status Report
-
24-10-2019 5:15pm

I want to reboot my life
Somebody call MS-DOS

-

I can perceive the sadness in my life,
I cry rainbows.
....

If I could write some last words to myself…
Because, all other words, are insipid.….

I wish I could tell you...

To fly away, and
Fly free.

And if you fail, if you stumble across

If you fall.

I will be there to catch you.

Have no fear and set your wings free.

.

But there's nothing else that I can do.
Other than this….
.

Live and breathe.

*
I really have a hard time deciding to remove a lot of writings,
And wonder…. and have felt wrong about what I have written before,
After publishing them,
But I wish not to remove them….
So, you can clearly see in all honesty my failures,
Or my uncertainty,

but somehow feel.
That ….

If we could learn to see and understand each other mistakes,
And embrace only the good between us,
And build upon the good, and discard and forget the wrong.

Somehow feel that, in order to understand ourselves,
And the world around us.

That is necessary

To explore an inquire in all things
In all knowledge.

But to understand knowledge is not as important,

As understanding Love.

That is why I try to leave at the bottom
What I think that could be harsh or insipid words.

But in every little word, there are truths and understanding that is hidden.
And that could be useful for someone.

OTHER X2

Nulla è reale, tutto è lecito

Nothing is real, everything is permitted
Nothing is true, everything is permitted

Nothing is an absolute reality, all is permitted.

“Everything is permitted, but not everything is beneficial.
Everything is permitted, but everything doesn't build others up.”
"Everything is permissible for me"—but I will not be mastered by anything.”

Accesing neural network…
Status online….
…..
Connecting the dots…
Phrasing words….
connecting relations….
…

"You cannot know anything. Only suspect. You must expect to be wrong, to have overlooked something."
―Malik Al-Sayf to Altaïr Ibn-La'Ahad

"one can only know that one knows nothing,"

The truth is a fragile idea,
The world around us is not an absolute reality.
find out the truth yourself.

you're free to think and act as you wish,

.

Because your reality is subjective,

Every one of your choices in life is your responsibility.

You have the freedom to see and hear what you want
Live your life the way you wish to live it.
But you must learn to live with the consequences.

anything within nature is possible.

Question everything.
Do. Or don't.

Sources:

en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alamut_(…

www.reddit.com/r/assassinscree…

assassinscreed.fandom.com/wiki…

.

EXPERIMENT CODENAME "AI – Generate”
words randomly generated by an AI
SAMPLE 02

I essentially use an online AI to generate the texts on this section,
Generated based on keywords in my mind,

Then pasted what i thought interesting
I realized that what i pasted is what i could relate to,
And I relate to it Because there is a part of myself on it.
I modify them and interpret them a little.

So, in another way, I am using it, to say what i want to say,
But i can't.

.
.
love,

to come together,

loving and caring, is in danger.

As long as they are safe
So, I ask you to please give them safety.

The whole family thinks I'm the worst human being ever.
My entire family thinks that I'm the only human on earth.

They make fun of everything.
…You just can’t stay home and sleep.

I'm so confused and I didn't expect it to be this way,
but now it's like I'm stuck here.

They keep telling me that they want me to have a family,
but I don't know what that would be like since (it’s like) I don't have a family.

They aren't the only ones who keep referring to me like a weirdo
because I am a weirdo.

How many days a month do you spend doing other things?
Do you have trouble making friends?
If so, how or when do you fix it? What advice would you give?
What do you hope to learn about yourself and/or the other person?

In all honesty, I hate questions like these myself.
They're not helpful and only really serve to make people uncomfortable.
The fact is, I don't care for questions of this nature
(although they're never too surprising)
but at the same time, people who actually do these things,
I can't help but find them interesting.
These questions simply give them….(headaches)

how to best bring forward the cause of the people
(who are currently being oppressed) who have already suffered enough.

Maybe we can share a few ideas and even talk to one another
and see if there's anything we can do.

In the end, everyone's thoughts and beliefs are to be heard and shared.
I'd be very proud to see what comes of this.

Thank you all for your time.

v02 25-10-2019

Status: Uploaded
Saturday October 26, 2019 12:48 AM

Posted using PostyBirb

Description

before i post this,
I just want to say few more words.

Back on October 14, i had an experience...
that really changed everything for me....
I kind of.... lost myself and found something....
else….

I know longer feel the need I used to have
to be posting and making art,

I have so many of these undone.
but I’m trying to find a meaning for myself,
in what I write,

see if I can understand something.
because, I’m blind somehow,
and really don't know where I should be going.

somehow, everything got destroyed.
and everything I thought about my future,
everything I hold dear for myself, is gone.

The last thing, the last thing I heard,

“Finish what you started.”
It’s the only way to open the path.

And maybe hope,
Too see, something marvelous.

♦☺>The Artwork
Title: Fog
Or (White and Red)
or (Freedom)

From the "I’m trying" and
“is time to release my hidden cards” series

Painting started on: 08-08-2019

I'm sorry,
I have some many paintings and writings pending,
But I am very busy right now, trying to accommodate time.

Too many questions,
Too many answers,

Too many lies, and
Too many truths.

but I decided to use my secret hidden paintings,

and maybe to try to don’t leave you alone
and at least annoy you once a week.
Hehe…

♦☺>Story
Thursday, August 8, 2019
5:03 PM

THE JOKER
This is the new Photoshop ENB Mod
Running on 4 SLI 2080 RTX 64GB Ram
AMD 64 core processor

… Just useless insipid crap.

Ohhhh Sweet Child of Mine

4 REALS

an internally sad person,
profoundly divided

A crying spirit

The Problem when playing with ‘The Mirror’
is that everything about you gets reflected.

even your fears.

Even though,
Doing this has made me more aware about myself.

for me, the hidden reason about this.
I have somehow died emotionally,
Routine, monotony, hardship, it dries you,
Closing you, slowly making you hard stone,
Becoming numb.

For me,
placing my Ghost in a Shell,
And somehow trying to output only the emotions of the heart,
Makes me see in the results, my true inner self.

Makes feel my own emotions again,
making me feel alive.

THE OUTCOME

Failure over failure

Being here,
And posting has made me a more open person to my feelings

Sad.
I am

So, you do expect to see my….

Oh, my son, if only you were real….

OTHER ASDFASDF

Thursday, Oktobeer 10, 2019 4:52pm

Your actions define your thoughts?

If your thoughts define your actions,
How do you change your thoughts?

Change your actions.

If you change your actions,
You will change your thoughts.

If you are sad,
You do sad,

But if you do happy,
You will be happy.

Stop wasting time thinking so much,
In what makes you feel bad,

Instead….
Think happy, think future, think hope.

but if you can't….
then do happy.

Do…,
move, keep on doing,
Act, do actions,
Generate,
do not be afraid of failure.
these actions will change your thoughts
and make you feel better.

In order to be happy,
first you have to smile.

so, smile first.

Happiness is a decision.
smiling, is a decision

-
How would you know, pain if you don’t feel it?
How would you resolve problems, if you don’t see them?

Feel the problems,
then manage the solutions.

……

Basic Introduction to Math
Chapter 1 Arithmetic
Or (the basic principles of empathy)

What you forgot, but always knew…

If you do sad
And I do sad,

We are sad, but sharing our sadness makes us happy.

If you do happy
And I do sad.

I am sad, but you make me happy.

If you do sad,
And I do happy.

I feel sad, but I make you happy.

If you do happy
And I do happy

We are happy.

Apply this principle to every being around you.
Person, animal, plant, and nature.
And you will find your most valuable purpose in life.

To live for each other,
To love each other.

…..

Asdfasdfasdfasdfasdf
♦☺>Status Report
-
24-10-2019 5:15pm

I want to reboot my life
Somebody call MS-DOS

-

I can perceive the sadness in my life,
I cry rainbows.
....

If I could write some last words to myself…
Because, all other words, are insipid.….

I wish I could tell you...

To fly away, and
Fly free.

And if you fail, if you stumble across

If you fall.

I will be there to catch you.

Have no fear and set your wings free.

.

But there's nothing else that I can do.
Other than this….
.

Live and breathe.

*
I really have a hard time deciding to remove a lot of writings,
And wonder…. and have felt wrong about what I have written before,
After publishing them,
But I wish not to remove them….
So, you can clearly see in all honesty my failures,
Or my uncertainty,

but somehow feel.
That ….

If we could learn to see and understand each other mistakes,
And embrace only the good between us,
And build upon the good, and discard and forget the wrong.

Somehow feel that, in order to understand ourselves,
And the world around us.

That is necessary

To explore an inquire in all things
In all knowledge.

But to understand knowledge is not as important,

As understanding Love.

That is why I try to leave at the bottom
What I think that could be harsh or insipid words.

But in every little word, there are truths and understanding that is hidden.
And that could be useful for someone.

OTHER X2

Nulla è reale, tutto è lecito

Nothing is real, everything is permitted
Nothing is true, everything is permitted

Nothing is an absolute reality, all is permitted.

“Everything is permitted, but not everything is beneficial.
Everything is permitted, but everything doesn't build others up.”
"Everything is permissible for me"—but I will not be mastered by anything.”

Accesing neural network…
Status online….
…..
Connecting the dots…
Phrasing words….
connecting relations….
…

"You cannot know anything. Only suspect. You must expect to be wrong, to have overlooked something."
―Malik Al-Sayf to Altaïr Ibn-La'Ahad

"one can only know that one knows nothing,"

The truth is a fragile idea,
The world around us is not an absolute reality.
find out the truth yourself.

you're free to think and act as you wish,

.

Because your reality is subjective,

Every one of your choices in life is your responsibility.

You have the freedom to see and hear what you want
Live your life the way you wish to live it.
But you must learn to live with the consequences.

anything within nature is possible.

Question everything.
Do. Or don't.

Sources:

en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alamut_(…

www.reddit.com/r/assassinscree…

assassinscreed.fandom.com/wiki…

.

EXPERIMENT CODENAME "AI – Generate”
words randomly generated by an AI
SAMPLE 02

I essentially use an online AI to generate the texts on this section,
Generated based on keywords in my mind,

Then pasted what i thought interesting
I realized that what i pasted is what i could relate to,
And I relate to it Because there is a part of myself on it.
I modify them and interpret them a little.

So, in another way, I am using it, to say what i want to say,
But i can't.

.
.
love,

to come together,

loving and caring, is in danger.

As long as they are safe
So, I ask you to please give them safety.

The whole family thinks I'm the worst human being ever.
My entire family thinks that I'm the only human on earth.

They make fun of everything.
…You just can’t stay home and sleep.

I'm so confused and I didn't expect it to be this way,
but now it's like I'm stuck here.

They keep telling me that they want me to have a family,
but I don't know what that would be like since (it’s like) I don't have a family.

They aren't the only ones who keep referring to me like a weirdo
because I am a weirdo.

How many days a month do you spend doing other things?
Do you have trouble making friends?
If so, how or when do you fix it? What advice would you give?
What do you hope to learn about yourself and/or the other person?

In all honesty, I hate questions like these myself.
They're not helpful and only really serve to make people uncomfortable.
The fact is, I don't care for questions of this nature
(although they're never too surprising)
but at the same time, people who actually do these things,
I can't help but find them interesting.
These questions simply give them….(headaches)

how to best bring forward the cause of the people
(who are currently being oppressed) who have already suffered enough.

Maybe we can share a few ideas and even talk to one another
and see if there's anything we can do.

In the end, everyone's thoughts and beliefs are to be heard and shared.
I'd be very proud to see what comes of this.

Thank you all for your time.

v02 25-10-2019

Status: Uploaded
Saturday October 26, 2019 12:48 AM

Posted using PostyBirb