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okay. i hate uploading vent art but i have to get this out once.
i feel fucking awful right now. i will never be enough for anyone else or for myself.
i want to leave deviantart so bad. it makes me feel miserable. it kills me. at least sometimes when i have phases like right now.
but i won't leave. because as much as i want to sometimes, i can't.
i hate looking at other peoples art, people who are better than me.
i hate knowing that i will never be as good as them, or as popular. i'll never get popular at all.
i'll never have good art. my idols will never watch me, i'll NEVER be like that and i can't change it and that's what upsets me so much.
that i can't change it. that i have to accept it, but i can't.
it feels like something inside me is screaming for help, and screaming because i won't get help and because nothing will make me feel better.
i'm worthless.
maybe not to other people, but to me i am. and that i'm not worthless to some other people will never change my opinion. please. don't try to cheer me up. it won't work. it won't change the way i think about myself.
and that's the problem.

Description
okay. i hate uploading vent art but i have to get this out once.
i feel fucking awful right now. i will never be enough for anyone else or for myself.
i want to leave deviantart so bad. it makes me feel miserable. it kills me. at least sometimes when i have phases like right now.
but i won't leave. because as much as i want to sometimes, i can't.
i hate looking at other peoples art, people who are better than me.
i hate knowing that i will never be as good as them, or as popular. i'll never get popular at all.
i'll never have good art. my idols will never watch me, i'll NEVER be like that and i can't change it and that's what upsets me so much.
that i can't change it. that i have to accept it, but i can't.
it feels like something inside me is screaming for help, and screaming because i won't get help and because nothing will make me feel better.
i'm worthless.
maybe not to other people, but to me i am. and that i'm not worthless to some other people will never change my opinion. please. don't try to cheer me up. it won't work. it won't change the way i think about myself.
and that's the problem.