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Art and sonas, Beau and Sara, belong to me Beau-tifullyWritten

Art is not for you. Do not repost or steal, kay thanks!

Two sides of the same coin, my sonas. As many of my watchers know, I identify as a trans male. I, unfortunately, do believe part of this became a stronger view and desire due to the trauma I have undergone due to past "relationships" where my body was a central focus, rather than who I was as a person. It had turned from not feeling right in the gender I was born as to straight up disgust at my female features, a heavy dislike for pictures aka evidence of those features, and a very large discomfort with even looking at myself in the mirror. Its hard when you not only look at the mirror to see someone you don't recognize as you, but someone you view as disgusting and pitiful.

Yet, at the same time, I recognize where I come from, and how I've changed and evolved. That is why Sara is still one of my sonas. While yes, I'd much rather be male and cast away this body, I know the chances of that financially and with my next to useless insurance that won't even pay for a medically necessary chest reduction despite my various back conditions is slim to none. I might not ever be able to feel comfortable in my own skin. But... portraying myself in a way that is far more favorable in art is still an option. And you know? I may hate my teenage female beginnings and the adult figure I have now... but there was still a time I was... content with being who I was. A time where it didn't matter which gender I was and I was genuinely happy. I have decided to repurpose Sara, and do a minor tweak of her design, as well as her overall age, to represent those times and that part of myself.

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To be finished at some point. I have this lined, just not colored.

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Art and sonas, Beau and Sara, belong to me Beau-tifullyWritten

Art is not for you. Do not repost or steal, kay thanks!

Two sides of the same coin, my sonas. As many of my watchers know, I identify as a trans male. I, unfortunately, do believe part of this became a stronger view and desire due to the trauma I have undergone due to past "relationships" where my body was a central focus, rather than who I was as a person. It had turned from not feeling right in the gender I was born as to straight up disgust at my female features, a heavy dislike for pictures aka evidence of those features, and a very large discomfort with even looking at myself in the mirror. Its hard when you not only look at the mirror to see someone you don't recognize as you, but someone you view as disgusting and pitiful.

Yet, at the same time, I recognize where I come from, and how I've changed and evolved. That is why Sara is still one of my sonas. While yes, I'd much rather be male and cast away this body, I know the chances of that financially and with my next to useless insurance that won't even pay for a medically necessary chest reduction despite my various back conditions is slim to none. I might not ever be able to feel comfortable in my own skin. But... portraying myself in a way that is far more favorable in art is still an option. And you know? I may hate my teenage female beginnings and the adult figure I have now... but there was still a time I was... content with being who I was. A time where it didn't matter which gender I was and I was genuinely happy. I have decided to repurpose Sara, and do a minor tweak of her design, as well as her overall age, to represent those times and that part of myself.

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To be finished at some point. I have this lined, just not colored.