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There goes my luck
There goes my pride
There goes everything that I’ve been working for all of my life

There goes that dream
And so it seems
There goes the days and nights awakened by thoughts of losing

Maybe everything I learned before today was just a waste
What if everywhere I felt that I belonged was not place
And it worked

Don’t blame, yourself
Cause you tried as hard as hell
With the hand that you were dealt

Blame - Air Traffic Controller

i've been doing really good lately, im on anti-depressants and they've been working well, i havent hurt myself in ages both intentionally and unintentionally, i've been eating and drinking decently

but i do feel something a bit weird and empty and missing im not gonna lie, and its like all my hard work is for nothing for some odd reason

who knows really, tbh i havent really, been fixing things so to speak, more, finding distractions???
Like am i better as a person or just better at distracting myself???

Who knows but i'll keep pushing forward again

its another case of "I'm not a smoker but its moments like this i wish i was" but i'll never be a smoker, its just not my thing, my lungs are about the only decent organs i have so im like, protect them with my life B) but i will probably on occasion draw Sharker doing it, just to portray my entire feeling towards things B)

One thing thats not improving is my sleep, i am literally wide awake until like 7am

Description
There goes my luck
There goes my pride
There goes everything that I’ve been working for all of my life

There goes that dream
And so it seems
There goes the days and nights awakened by thoughts of losing

Maybe everything I learned before today was just a waste
What if everywhere I felt that I belonged was not place
And it worked

Don’t blame, yourself
Cause you tried as hard as hell
With the hand that you were dealt

Blame - Air Traffic Controller

i've been doing really good lately, im on anti-depressants and they've been working well, i havent hurt myself in ages both intentionally and unintentionally, i've been eating and drinking decently

but i do feel something a bit weird and empty and missing im not gonna lie, and its like all my hard work is for nothing for some odd reason

who knows really, tbh i havent really, been fixing things so to speak, more, finding distractions???
Like am i better as a person or just better at distracting myself???

Who knows but i'll keep pushing forward again

its another case of "I'm not a smoker but its moments like this i wish i was" but i'll never be a smoker, its just not my thing, my lungs are about the only decent organs i have so im like, protect them with my life B) but i will probably on occasion draw Sharker doing it, just to portray my entire feeling towards things B)

One thing thats not improving is my sleep, i am literally wide awake until like 7am