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11/11/03 4:35 am
edited 12/10/03

All that I do, I do to forget,
to forget about you.
I drink to numb the pain,
the pain caused by you.

I’ve done all can to let you know,
and you ignore me.
I would have been thankful for just one kind word,
but you leave me in my own misery.

You need to be taught a lesson,
so you know how I feel.
For you I would have done anything,
but now the cuts are too deep to heal.

To care so much and to be shrugged off,
put aside like I'm not worth shit.
I'll keep searching for a way to numb the pain,
bleeding and cursing in the dark I sit.

Everybody has somebody or so they say,
but what the fuck do they know.
I once thought you were the one for me,
how wrong I was so long ago.

I'll put one a happy face, like I've done before,
I can fake being happy, and that is my curse
I may not matter to you, but that don’t mean a damn thing,
that don't mean that I can't make matters worse

I shall show all you bastards,
just how worthless I can be.
I'll do it, and leave you all alone in pain,
the way that you saw fit to leave me.

I can do anything either for you or too you,
I do still have that capacity.
This knowledge of what I can do to others is my sin,
this sin that I carry with me, is knowledge of my ability.