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                              Hate
Hate. It's the feeling I feel about everything. Puppies, people, birds...you name it. I'd only felt the feeling of love for something once, and that was Beckett Oliver. Yet, now we were over, and I was preparing for the preformance I had for the Music Awards. Someone had been chatting with Tori, and they'd forgotten to end the convo.
  There was the guy I was still in love with. Beck...but why was he at Tori's?
They were sitting on the couch together. His arm was around the back of the couch, and he was scooting closer to Tori Vega. No...we were supposed to get back together. We had too. We...we were Beck and Jade.
He leaned in to kiss her. My heart was twisting and my stomach was turning, wondering if he'd get that far; I hoped Trina or someone would come bursting through the door to stop it. Even though everything inside me told me to scream out, to unfocus them and make them look over here...to ruin the moment, I couldn't. Right as Beck's face was close to Tori's, she playfully punched him in the arm, wincing. Tori didn't kiss Beck...but why not? He was... he was everything any girl...everything she could ever want, right?
  "T-Tori?" Beck asked, and I couldn't help but whisper the same thing to myself.
"I'm sorry Beck...but I can't do that to her." Tori said, and my heart stopped.
  "Who...Jade? Jade's not even your friend! Why should you care about-" Beck started.
"I just do, okay? She is my friend...sort of. I mean...she's my friend!" Tori protested.
"She rubbed your hamburger between her feet the other day." Beck said, as if proving his point. I winced this time. That I did do, and Vega ate it anyway. Of course, she didn't know that I did it, but she did comment on how the hamburger tasted lightly of cucumber lotion and feet. I grinned and looked away that day. Now my decisions were coming back to bite me in the ass.
  "I...I ate feet meat?" she asked herself sadly, and gagged a little.
"She did that to you. Not to mention all of the other things." Beck said.
  "It's Jade." Tori countered, sticking up for me.
"What's so great about her?" Beck asked, and my heart cracked. He acted like I was some evil witch or something...like there was nothing good about me.
  "Everything, Beck!" Tori said, and she stood up."She's so beautiful, and funny, and she's been nice to me before, and that Jade was just so...so..."
"You sound like you'd rather be kissing her!" Beck said angrilly.
  "Yeah! That's because I would!" Tori said, and then clasped her hand over her mouth, her eyes going wide as if she was afraid and mad she said that.
"Wh-what?" Beck asked.
"You know Beck, it was going to come out anyways." Tori said,"I can't kiss you because I'm in love with Jade!" Tori shouted, and I shut the laptop off, clutching my chest where my heart was. What the hell was this? This feeling I got when Beck kissed me for the first time. When he said 'I love you Jade' for the first time. Now this feeling was for...VEGA?! No way that stupid little speech of hers made me...love her. I'd always hated her! From the night she preformed instead of her horrible sister Trina at the Big Showcase, from the day afterward when I caught her rubbing my boyfriend...but...
  She'd always been so nice to me, and she was...I mean is so pretty.....NO!
I'm Jade West! I'm supposed to hate everything! Puppies, people, birds, you name it!
   And now I loved one thing and one person only.
                                                                       That stupid Tori Vega girl.