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A deep tragedy befell my family at the end of 2023. I'm still in the process of grieving and contemplating everything in my life.

In the meantime, I have a strong desire to still keep going, still keep to my goals moving forward... I had finally achieved a place in my life for the first time in 21 years where things felt more or less normal... Decent. I could look to the sky and trees and smile.

My goal for the year was to get to a place where, what come may, I would have the strength and means to get through it for myself and my family. Unfortunately, that moment happened much sooner and much more intensely than I could ever imagine.

I have regrets. I replay events in my mind over, believing for a fleeting moment they could be different. However, the only thing I can do now is move forward... I could sit, but no matter how long I sit still time will forever move forward. I can't end everything every time a tribulation passes anymore. So, since I had achieved my goals in getting myself to a place where I could feel capable, I must move forward with that mindset. For all that I've lost, I thank God for all that I've had the pleasure of having.

With all that said, I don't have any time frames in mind for 2024. But, I do hope to get started on many things. For now, I'll see about posting some more lighthearted things, perhaps. I do have a illustration in mind to better express my grief, but I don't think I quite have it in me to make it happen just yet.

Here's to the New Year.

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Description

A deep tragedy befell my family at the end of 2023. I'm still in the process of grieving and contemplating everything in my life.

In the meantime, I have a strong desire to still keep going, still keep to my goals moving forward... I had finally achieved a place in my life for the first time in 21 years where things felt more or less normal... Decent. I could look to the sky and trees and smile.

My goal for the year was to get to a place where, what come may, I would have the strength and means to get through it for myself and my family. Unfortunately, that moment happened much sooner and much more intensely than I could ever imagine.

I have regrets. I replay events in my mind over, believing for a fleeting moment they could be different. However, the only thing I can do now is move forward... I could sit, but no matter how long I sit still time will forever move forward. I can't end everything every time a tribulation passes anymore. So, since I had achieved my goals in getting myself to a place where I could feel capable, I must move forward with that mindset. For all that I've lost, I thank God for all that I've had the pleasure of having.

With all that said, I don't have any time frames in mind for 2024. But, I do hope to get started on many things. For now, I'll see about posting some more lighthearted things, perhaps. I do have a illustration in mind to better express my grief, but I don't think I quite have it in me to make it happen just yet.

Here's to the New Year.

Art ©

Done with Paint Tool SAI Ver.2 Preview