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Long time no see, guys.

Hoooo boy, where do I even begin...

The years haven't been kind to me. (Or to the very few I love and trust, honestly). Especially mid to late 2022 and even the beginning of 2023. From Covid, breaking my ankle, undergoing surgery to fix said ankle... it's been hell. Yet, my friends- or, those I thought were my friends, being there helped me through it all. Now, I didn't have many people I trust to begin with, but I did have a small handful- albeit our communication tended to be on-and off. Yet, I had known most of them for, well- a decade.

Not gonna say any names or list everything I went through with these people, but they all used to mean a lot to me- yet they've since revealed their true colors... They all didn't care about me... they only used me for, example; clout, to blatantly copy off me plus my bf's designs w/o credit, tried using me to fulfill their twisted fantasies, misgendered me, recorded me w/o my permission, put me/my art down, ignored/disrespected me and/or my boyfriend almost on the daily, flirted with me despite being taken, and/or used me for my art (even ignoring me unless I drew them something) among many, many other things... One of them even told me straight to my face that they only became 'friends' with me all those years ago because they wanted art from me.

... and, proceeded to throw me away after treating me and even my boyfriend like garbage because I wouldn't blindly side with them when they were the one in the wrong, claiming to be the victim when they were the toxic, manipulative one- even complaining to me when my boyfriend vented about the situation and claiming he made it 'public' when, in reality, it was all private and only him, myself, and another mutual of my boyfriend's could see it, plus they weren't even mentioned. They even got as petty as copying our art, breaking numerous rules of my T.O.S, and being outright offensive to the LGBTQ+... likely just to spite us.

Some of the other 'friends'? Well... besides exhibiting rude behavior (most I already mentioned), let's just say they revealed they were were into illegal things- underage things. Sometimes even deceased underage things. Along with drawing such things along with de-aging characters and proceeding to draw... well, you get the point. Another even enabling and defending some of this friend's creepy/rude behavior (some things including recording me/others without consent, creepily flirting with me, ignoring me unless I made gift art, acting passive aggressive especially when confronted, and many more crappy things) and attempting to defend at-length about why being into such sick things is 'okay'; how 'morality is a social construct and the only real thing in the way is the law'... To me. A CSA survivor. Yeah.

I just wished I realized how little I mattered to these 'friends', especially with being made aware of those who had nasty interests, way sooner.

Besides everything that's happened though... so far 2023 has, thankfully, has been great so far, and I'm hoping it stays that way. I've had enough of drama and being used, and only wish to live my life with my amazing and supportive boyfriend veevee-8283 that I love so very much. He's stuck by me thru all of these awful times, and is someone I couldn't imagine living without.

And thanks anyone who took the time out of your probably busy day to read me ramble about all this waaaa- as for anyone else who's stuck around my DA, thank you too for still supporting my work even after my scarce updates on here. I feel comfortable enough to post on here again, so expect more art to be posted in time.

Lastly; If I owe anyone on here something, then please note me. I had been avoiding being on here as much as possible due to a stalker situation, which has since have been resolved- hopefully, permanently.

Description
Long time no see, guys.

Hoooo boy, where do I even begin...

The years haven't been kind to me. (Or to the very few I love and trust, honestly). Especially mid to late 2022 and even the beginning of 2023. From Covid, breaking my ankle, undergoing surgery to fix said ankle... it's been hell. Yet, my friends- or, those I thought were my friends, being there helped me through it all. Now, I didn't have many people I trust to begin with, but I did have a small handful- albeit our communication tended to be on-and off. Yet, I had known most of them for, well- a decade.

Not gonna say any names or list everything I went through with these people, but they all used to mean a lot to me- yet they've since revealed their true colors... They all didn't care about me... they only used me for, example; clout, to blatantly copy off me plus my bf's designs w/o credit, tried using me to fulfill their twisted fantasies, misgendered me, recorded me w/o my permission, put me/my art down, ignored/disrespected me and/or my boyfriend almost on the daily, flirted with me despite being taken, and/or used me for my art (even ignoring me unless I drew them something) among many, many other things... One of them even told me straight to my face that they only became 'friends' with me all those years ago because they wanted art from me.

... and, proceeded to throw me away after treating me and even my boyfriend like garbage because I wouldn't blindly side with them when they were the one in the wrong, claiming to be the victim when they were the toxic, manipulative one- even complaining to me when my boyfriend vented about the situation and claiming he made it 'public' when, in reality, it was all private and only him, myself, and another mutual of my boyfriend's could see it, plus they weren't even mentioned. They even got as petty as copying our art, breaking numerous rules of my T.O.S, and being outright offensive to the LGBTQ+... likely just to spite us.

Some of the other 'friends'? Well... besides exhibiting rude behavior (most I already mentioned), let's just say they revealed they were were into illegal things- underage things. Sometimes even deceased underage things. Along with drawing such things along with de-aging characters and proceeding to draw... well, you get the point. Another even enabling and defending some of this friend's creepy/rude behavior (some things including recording me/others without consent, creepily flirting with me, ignoring me unless I made gift art, acting passive aggressive especially when confronted, and many more crappy things) and attempting to defend at-length about why being into such sick things is 'okay'; how 'morality is a social construct and the only real thing in the way is the law'... To me. A CSA survivor. Yeah.

I just wished I realized how little I mattered to these 'friends', especially with being made aware of those who had nasty interests, way sooner.

Besides everything that's happened though... so far 2023 has, thankfully, has been great so far, and I'm hoping it stays that way. I've had enough of drama and being used, and only wish to live my life with my amazing and supportive boyfriend veevee-8283 that I love so very much. He's stuck by me thru all of these awful times, and is someone I couldn't imagine living without.

And thanks anyone who took the time out of your probably busy day to read me ramble about all this waaaa- as for anyone else who's stuck around my DA, thank you too for still supporting my work even after my scarce updates on here. I feel comfortable enough to post on here again, so expect more art to be posted in time.

Lastly; If I owe anyone on here something, then please note me. I had been avoiding being on here as much as possible due to a stalker situation, which has since have been resolved- hopefully, permanently.