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Published: 2013-06-04 13:18:49 +0000 UTC; Views: 237; Favourites: 14; Downloads: 0
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Why is saying goodbye to you so hard? It's just one word that can make me so emotional, so fearful,

so hurt, so alone...


Trying to tell you even once, just stops my heart dead in its tracks, knowing that it could mean our 

last goodbye, our last "hurrah". 


It has become a bane to me, stirring up feelings that grip my heart very tightly in its clutches, 

threatening never to release it from its keep.


It stumbles my every movement. It makes me faulty in my speech, action, and mood. It slowly changes 

me into a husk of my former self.


Every time I think about those words and you, it causes the cruelest knowledge to come to mind: "This

is it, make it last."


"Sweat dripping, pulse quickening, body shaking; Yep, I have it bad." I say to myself, knowing that it will

never get any easier. 


So, I swallow my feelings, walk that long terrible walk, sigh deeply and turn to you saying: "Its hard for me 

to do, but I want to say, before you left...."



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themonsterinside123 In reply to ??? [2013-06-08 18:10:36 +0000 UTC]

That's not good... Did you try sleeping pills?

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cyimang In reply to themonsterinside123 [2013-06-08 18:18:04 +0000 UTC]

No.. I don't use sleeping pills

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themonsterinside123 In reply to cyimang [2013-06-08 18:18:49 +0000 UTC]

For what reason, because you need it?

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cyimang In reply to themonsterinside123 [2013-06-08 18:37:07 +0000 UTC]

I had.. a few bad experiences with them..

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themonsterinside123 In reply to cyimang [2013-06-08 21:01:07 +0000 UTC]

Read the directions next time, see how many to take, and if you are really that afraid, then only take half the dose, then if you are one of those suicidal people, then put the rest in a place you would never think to ever look, or give them to someone you trust not to give them to you enless you needed them

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cyimang In reply to themonsterinside123 [2013-06-08 21:03:48 +0000 UTC]

Mmm

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themonsterinside123 In reply to cyimang [2013-06-08 21:05:41 +0000 UTC]

"Mmm" What?

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cyimang In reply to themonsterinside123 [2013-06-08 21:28:45 +0000 UTC]

Hmm?

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themonsterinside123 In reply to cyimang [2013-06-08 21:44:10 +0000 UTC]

Nevermind...

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cyimang In reply to themonsterinside123 [2013-06-08 21:51:54 +0000 UTC]

sorry

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themonsterinside123 In reply to cyimang [2013-06-09 04:43:59 +0000 UTC]

Its ok, im sorry for not being on much today

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cyimang In reply to themonsterinside123 [2013-06-09 04:45:39 +0000 UTC]

Its ok

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themonsterinside123 In reply to cyimang [2013-06-09 04:48:15 +0000 UTC]

Can you go to sleep?

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cyimang In reply to themonsterinside123 [2013-06-09 04:59:38 +0000 UTC]

I'll try

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themonsterinside123 In reply to cyimang [2013-06-09 05:01:48 +0000 UTC]

Ok ill see you in the morning... If you try, ill try

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cyimang In reply to themonsterinside123 [2013-06-09 05:05:40 +0000 UTC]

Good

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themonsterinside123 In reply to cyimang [2013-06-09 06:18:37 +0000 UTC]

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cyimang In reply to themonsterinside123 [2013-06-09 06:37:20 +0000 UTC]

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themonsterinside123 In reply to cyimang [2013-06-09 06:56:39 +0000 UTC]

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cyimang In reply to themonsterinside123 [2013-06-09 07:08:20 +0000 UTC]

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themonsterinside123 In reply to cyimang [2013-06-09 07:12:02 +0000 UTC]

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cyimang In reply to themonsterinside123 [2013-06-09 07:16:00 +0000 UTC]

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themonsterinside123 In reply to cyimang [2013-06-09 07:16:44 +0000 UTC]

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cyimang In reply to themonsterinside123 [2013-06-09 07:18:39 +0000 UTC]

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themonsterinside123 In reply to cyimang [2013-06-09 07:20:40 +0000 UTC]

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cyimang In reply to themonsterinside123 [2013-06-09 07:23:28 +0000 UTC]

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themonsterinside123 In reply to cyimang [2013-06-09 07:25:09 +0000 UTC]

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cyimang In reply to themonsterinside123 [2013-06-09 07:26:35 +0000 UTC]

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themonsterinside123 In reply to cyimang [2013-06-09 07:30:34 +0000 UTC]

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cyimang In reply to themonsterinside123 [2013-06-09 07:31:51 +0000 UTC]

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themonsterinside123 In reply to cyimang [2013-06-09 07:37:03 +0000 UTC]

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cyimang In reply to themonsterinside123 [2013-06-09 07:38:04 +0000 UTC]

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themonsterinside123 In reply to cyimang [2013-06-09 07:43:32 +0000 UTC]

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mexican-jo-cool In reply to ??? [2013-06-04 16:35:11 +0000 UTC]

So sad and pretty!

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cyimang In reply to mexican-jo-cool [2013-06-04 16:37:18 +0000 UTC]

Thank you Jo-jo..

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mexican-jo-cool In reply to cyimang [2013-06-12 03:58:14 +0000 UTC]

anytime!

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cyimang In reply to mexican-jo-cool [2013-06-12 04:42:41 +0000 UTC]

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jennystokes In reply to ??? [2013-06-04 16:10:37 +0000 UTC]

Very very good.
Granny

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cyimang In reply to jennystokes [2013-06-04 16:12:39 +0000 UTC]

Thank you Granny.

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jennystokes In reply to cyimang [2013-06-05 09:18:13 +0000 UTC]

Love and hugs

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cyimang In reply to jennystokes [2013-06-05 09:56:45 +0000 UTC]

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blueMALOU In reply to ??? [2013-06-04 15:36:19 +0000 UTC]

Amazing! [link]

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cyimang In reply to blueMALOU [2013-06-04 16:12:00 +0000 UTC]

Thank you

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blueMALOU In reply to cyimang [2013-06-04 17:38:15 +0000 UTC]

you´re welcome gentleman

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cyimang In reply to blueMALOU [2013-06-04 17:42:02 +0000 UTC]

Awwwww

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blueMALOU In reply to cyimang [2013-06-04 18:54:25 +0000 UTC]

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