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i'm caged again
not by him but her
she disguises her name
as mother.
it seems like such
a long time ago
that she took me away
from the one i love most.

demon, she called him
i knew him by many names.
rick. loki. sengu. my love.
i think she has forgotten
my painful past that
she had caused.
she hurt me, she hit me
in the end she killed me
and enjoyed every second
of my visible pain.
if only she could see
the pain on the inside,
she would definetly
wish it all away.

and now here she is
caging me away from him
when he was the one
who actually saw me
when i wanted to be invisible.
with fire red hair, golden eyes,
surely my type, skater and rebel.
he could make me laugh,
he could make me smile.

this is where i'm torn,
because i have another love.
blue-gray eyes, dark black hair.
he could make me happy,
he wanted to take my pain away.

wait, there's also another.
i've known him longer
than all the rest.
i've loved him longer
than anyone.
blue eyes, and dark brown hair.
yet he is another i question
for loyalty,
he was the one who sent me
tumbling into depression.
he was the one who stole my heart,
crushed it, stabbed it, and
hung it out to dry.
but he wanted me again.
the one person for so long
i wanted to love me back.

tearing me at each side,
only two were aware though.
one knew more than the other two.
the one i have known and
loved the longest.
he's the one with dark brown hair
and blue eyes that could see
my insides and pain.
but he didn't know everything.
he knew that i was with one,
the one with the dark hair
and blue-gray eyes.
he also knew that all i want
is to be happy and loved.
i also told him
that i'm still in love with him.
he told me
that he feels the same way.

my boyfriend doesn't know much.
he doesn't know about my first love,
he doesn't know about my newest.
all he knows is that i love him.
i don't want to hurt him,
i don't want to cheat.
i wish i could have all of them,
i wish i could multiply into three.

the last one, with the red hair
and glowing golden eyes
knows close to nothing.
he knows about rick,
i always make sure he is
not forgotten ever.
he doesn't know about
the existence of my other two loves,
alive that is.
maybe that's because
i don't know who else
he may be going after.

all this makes me wish
that rick was still here,
even more.
if he was here, everything
would be good again.
everything, in some
twisted way, would be
perfect again.

i think it might be time
that i need to start
fighting back again.
that i need to rebel
against the one trying
to keep me captive.
i'm not afraid of her,
i stopped fearing
when rick left.
she can try to take away
everything. she can try
to fight me.

but no matter what
she does, she can't
take rick away from me
ever again.
i know he'll keep me strong.

Description
i'm caged again
not by him but her
she disguises her name
as mother.
it seems like such
a long time ago
that she took me away
from the one i love most.

demon, she called him
i knew him by many names.
rick. loki. sengu. my love.
i think she has forgotten
my painful past that
she had caused.
she hurt me, she hit me
in the end she killed me
and enjoyed every second
of my visible pain.
if only she could see
the pain on the inside,
she would definetly
wish it all away.

and now here she is
caging me away from him
when he was the one
who actually saw me
when i wanted to be invisible.
with fire red hair, golden eyes,
surely my type, skater and rebel.
he could make me laugh,
he could make me smile.

this is where i'm torn,
because i have another love.
blue-gray eyes, dark black hair.
he could make me happy,
he wanted to take my pain away.

wait, there's also another.
i've known him longer
than all the rest.
i've loved him longer
than anyone.
blue eyes, and dark brown hair.
yet he is another i question
for loyalty,
he was the one who sent me
tumbling into depression.
he was the one who stole my heart,
crushed it, stabbed it, and
hung it out to dry.
but he wanted me again.
the one person for so long
i wanted to love me back.

tearing me at each side,
only two were aware though.
one knew more than the other two.
the one i have known and
loved the longest.
he's the one with dark brown hair
and blue eyes that could see
my insides and pain.
but he didn't know everything.
he knew that i was with one,
the one with the dark hair
and blue-gray eyes.
he also knew that all i want
is to be happy and loved.
i also told him
that i'm still in love with him.
he told me
that he feels the same way.

my boyfriend doesn't know much.
he doesn't know about my first love,
he doesn't know about my newest.
all he knows is that i love him.
i don't want to hurt him,
i don't want to cheat.
i wish i could have all of them,
i wish i could multiply into three.

the last one, with the red hair
and glowing golden eyes
knows close to nothing.
he knows about rick,
i always make sure he is
not forgotten ever.
he doesn't know about
the existence of my other two loves,
alive that is.
maybe that's because
i don't know who else
he may be going after.

all this makes me wish
that rick was still here,
even more.
if he was here, everything
would be good again.
everything, in some
twisted way, would be
perfect again.

i think it might be time
that i need to start
fighting back again.
that i need to rebel
against the one trying
to keep me captive.
i'm not afraid of her,
i stopped fearing
when rick left.
she can try to take away
everything. she can try
to fight me.

but no matter what
she does, she can't
take rick away from me
ever again.
i know he'll keep me strong.