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I was advised by my mom to stop buying things at out local fair since we're planning of moving out, but besides the fact that I don't want to 100% rely on that (did it in the past and everything failed spectularly for us lol) thrifting is a great hobby of mine, even though anything makes me happy anymore.
I don't really keep most of what I thrift anymore because I'm trying to get some money back by re-selling the nicest pieces I find on FB Marketplace, but some weeks ago I managed to get myself a really colorful floral dress that at first seemed very 60's like until I tried it on and realized it's on the tighter side. And when I tought how nice it would look paired with some rainbow/holographic sneakers I have I had a dejavu(? what is it called when you get a really strong like vision? of me shopping at the capital in the summer under the heavy sun, having fun and laughning with the one I love while wearing the outfit I just had imagined, and that's when I realized that something I want as much as I want to die is to be happy again. And that's when I realized that I ruled out the possibility of ever being happy again. When did I do that?
Although dying seems more probable than being happy again, I would be lying if I said that the idea doesnt't excites me a lot. I really really want that daydream to become reality: recover the habit of going out all summer, go shopping in Santiago, feel good again and share my happiness with whom I love.

Description
I was advised by my mom to stop buying things at out local fair since we're planning of moving out, but besides the fact that I don't want to 100% rely on that (did it in the past and everything failed spectularly for us lol) thrifting is a great hobby of mine, even though anything makes me happy anymore.
I don't really keep most of what I thrift anymore because I'm trying to get some money back by re-selling the nicest pieces I find on FB Marketplace, but some weeks ago I managed to get myself a really colorful floral dress that at first seemed very 60's like until I tried it on and realized it's on the tighter side. And when I tought how nice it would look paired with some rainbow/holographic sneakers I have I had a dejavu(? what is it called when you get a really strong like vision? of me shopping at the capital in the summer under the heavy sun, having fun and laughning with the one I love while wearing the outfit I just had imagined, and that's when I realized that something I want as much as I want to die is to be happy again. And that's when I realized that I ruled out the possibility of ever being happy again. When did I do that?
Although dying seems more probable than being happy again, I would be lying if I said that the idea doesnt't excites me a lot. I really really want that daydream to become reality: recover the habit of going out all summer, go shopping in Santiago, feel good again and share my happiness with whom I love.