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so, in light of recent events and past ones, as well as discoveries made by myself, i've updated my ponysona's design to be more closely tied to me.

in an accident that she refuses to talk about, and only a few ponies know about, Baby Cakes lost almost her entire left front leg, leaving only a stump. because of this, she has to learn to adjust and cope with the loss of her leg. learning to walk again, to bake with only her front right leg and wings, as well as other normal tasks are among the few things she has to work through. she takes each day at a time, learning how to cope with three legs, as well as the mental problems she suffered with already before.

so, the specifics of what led me to change her design like this are very personal to me, and i won't be sharing them, but i can explain slightly why i've decided on this. due to these past events, i lost a large part of myself. i lost part of my childhood, my teenage years, all because of the actions of others. they've left me with trauma that could be the cause of an entire mental illness i've developed, which is something that i'm struggling extremely with now.
i wanted a physical representation, something to show my own recovery. having Baby Cakes lose her leg represents physically the part of me i've lost. her journey matches up with mine (she's still gone through everything i have, except that i haven't been in a physical accident like this. it's purely to be able to have representation of what i'm struggling through, and what i've been through). my mental illnesses have crippled me mentally, as well as what those people did to me. she's both my ponysona and my vent oc, she feels what i feel and she goes through what i do.

trust me, i didn't even want to put her through this, but this feels right for me. for her to be able to be really connected to me. she'll help me through my own recovery (which i can guarantee will take a long time), just as others will be helping her. maybe one day she'll get a prosthetic, but that won't be for a long time. not until i myself am stable and healed.

as i make progress with my own recovery, i'll be drawing pictures showing hers. a physical representation of my mental struggles basically. i would've taken away one of her wings, but i don't want her to be grounded. plus, she doesn't fly much anyway, so it wouldn't really represent anything specific with me.

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so, in light of recent events and past ones, as well as discoveries made by myself, i've updated my ponysona's design to be more closely tied to me.

in an accident that she refuses to talk about, and only a few ponies know about, Baby Cakes lost almost her entire left front leg, leaving only a stump. because of this, she has to learn to adjust and cope with the loss of her leg. learning to walk again, to bake with only her front right leg and wings, as well as other normal tasks are among the few things she has to work through. she takes each day at a time, learning how to cope with three legs, as well as the mental problems she suffered with already before.

so, the specifics of what led me to change her design like this are very personal to me, and i won't be sharing them, but i can explain slightly why i've decided on this. due to these past events, i lost a large part of myself. i lost part of my childhood, my teenage years, all because of the actions of others. they've left me with trauma that could be the cause of an entire mental illness i've developed, which is something that i'm struggling extremely with now.
i wanted a physical representation, something to show my own recovery. having Baby Cakes lose her leg represents physically the part of me i've lost. her journey matches up with mine (she's still gone through everything i have, except that i haven't been in a physical accident like this. it's purely to be able to have representation of what i'm struggling through, and what i've been through). my mental illnesses have crippled me mentally, as well as what those people did to me. she's both my ponysona and my vent oc, she feels what i feel and she goes through what i do.

trust me, i didn't even want to put her through this, but this feels right for me. for her to be able to be really connected to me. she'll help me through my own recovery (which i can guarantee will take a long time), just as others will be helping her. maybe one day she'll get a prosthetic, but that won't be for a long time. not until i myself am stable and healed.

as i make progress with my own recovery, i'll be drawing pictures showing hers. a physical representation of my mental struggles basically. i would've taken away one of her wings, but i don't want her to be grounded. plus, she doesn't fly much anyway, so it wouldn't really represent anything specific with me.