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Everitte — I hate
Published: 2011-06-14 04:43:38 +0000 UTC; Views: 140; Favourites: 0; Downloads: 0
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"I hate" listI hate that I'm writing this list
I hate that my laptop overheats and makes it uncomfortable to type on the hot keys
I hate how up until half a year ago I spelt uncomfortable "uncomphortable" and still catch myself
I hate how I suck horribly at spelling
I hate that I have no back on my computer chair
I hate that the lack of back on my chair is giving me back problems
I hate that I can't often sit on my arm chair with my computer because it overheats
I hate that my computer crashes all the time
I hate my lack of music
I hate that my 1700+ songs crashed with my last computer crash
I hate that I have no ability to find my own music and proceed to take it from friends
I hate that I get "obsessive"
I hate that I love the game Risk so much
I hate that I get scolded for starting a Risk "trend" in Art class
I hate that I even play Risk in class
I hate that I steal my friend's iPhone just to play Risk
I hate that all I can do is art and LA in school
I hate that I don't write anymore
I hate that I don't like working in Art class
I hate being so fast at my projects in Art
I hate that when I go ahead of the class in art I get negative reactions from friends
I hate getting complements from teacher at all
I hate wanting to get these complements than hating it when I get them
I hate getting complements in front of friends and having them complain that I complemented
I hate that I'm interested in history yet can't seem to bring myself to study it much
I hate that I have so many books yet don't read them
I hate that I buy books and don't read them
I hate that all my friends seem to read all the time
I hate how I have a lack of vocabulary compared to my friends
I hate how I talk
I have that people point out I have a "fake accent"
I hate that I even have a fake accent
I hate that I've faked accents and now have an accent
I hate that that makes no sense
I hate that I don't know what to say when people ask me where I'm from
I hate when people ask me if I'm a newphie
I hate when people get confused/don't believe me when I tell them why I sound like one
I hate that I pronounce foreign words properly
I hate when I catch myself correcting someone
I hate that I seem to have a nak for pronouncing things
I hate that I want to learn foreign languages
I hate that I failed French class
I hate how obsessed I am with Russia/Russian
I hate how little I actually know about Russia
I hate how I don't know where my life is going
I hate how I want to plan for the future but everyone is looking at the present
I hate being the only one actually considering serious financial planning/saving
I hate how I grew up to fast
I hate that now I have more friends to goof around with I'm trying to gain back some aspect of childhood
I hate how I never had a childhood
I hate how I can't remember my childhood
I hate that the therapist told me this is probably because I was abused
I hate how I can't remember that
I hate that I'm saying this
I hate that I was on meds
I hate that I suddenly stopped them
I hate how much of a bitch I actually am without them
I hate being a bitch
I hate that I can freely admit to being a bitch
I hate that I swear
I hate that I don't know my friends
I hate how never try to get to know them better
I hate how muggy it is
I hate the smell of my dog
I hate how we can't afford to bring him to the groomer
I hate how lazy I am
I hate my weight
I hate my body
I hate how skinny people complain about being fat and having love-handles
I hate that I'm ashamed of myself
I hate how I find it easier to befriend and speak with adults than people my age
I hate that I'm more comphortable with adults
I hate that I spelt uncomfortable wrong again
I hate that I don't want to write
I hate that when I write teachers like my writing
I hate that my teachers take copies of my writing
I hate that my best friend complains about "No one liking/taking/noticing" her writing
I hate that A majority of things said around my writing or artwork is "I never get/I can't do that/Yours is so much better"
I hate sharing anything
I hate that I have a good friend out of state and I get called out because I met her over the internet
I hate that I can't do anything nice for said friend without being called out
I hate that some of my friends seem so jealous
I hate that my best friend is an honor student yet keeps comparing her art to mine
I hate that my friend's art is beautiful and she can't see it
I hate how my best friend can't see how beautiful she really is
I hate that I'm complaining about her
I hate that I made her look awful when she's the best thing in my life
I hate that I love my friends more than my family
I hate that I can see myself in the future with my friends and not my family
I hate that my family is so broken
I hate seeing families together
I hate seeing couples
I hate how deep this "I hate" list seems to be
I hate how I intimidate people
I hate that I haven't gotten my license
I hate that I feel stupid and can't get higher than a 75% average
I hate how people keep telling me I'm smart
I hate when I express my worry about my grades and no one tries to sympathies
I hate when I get a low grade people tell me it's awesome
I hate how I'm the only one worried about my grades
I hate that when I get a mark higher than my friends I don't want to show them because they complain
I hate that neither of my parents know what I do in school
I hate how it's a fight to get my ma to come to my school to look at my art projects
I hate how it's a fight to get anything from my dad
I hate how I have to practically black mail my dad just to see him
I hate knowing that seeing my dad is bad for my mental health yet I run to him when he calls
I hate how bitchy I am after I see him
I hate that I'm independent
I hate how for the past four years I've been extremely independent
I hate that now there's some peace in my life, my ma tries to treat me like a child again
I hate that I hate being a child
I hate that I'm defiant
I hate clown
I hate mascots
I hate my fake fears
I hate that I pray on others fears and scare them
I hate that I'm a bad friend
I hate that I have friends that are dependent on me
I hate knowing that I can live without them
I hate feeling like just leaving them all at times
I hate thinking about moving away and being okay with it
I hate making false reasons for wanting to stay
I hate my hair
I hate how everyone says they love my hair
I hate how I love hats
I hate that I never wear hats
I hate that I don't buy half the clothes I really like because I'm self conscious
I hate how I'm obsessed with tattoos and piercings
I hate how I don't have money for them
I hate that my piercing appointment got canceled
I hate that my mom's dog needs to go outside and I'm the only one home
I hate that I hate her dog
I hate cake
I hate that there's only a few types of cake I do like
I hate when I eat those cakes and get called out because I supposedly hate cake
I hate tomatoes
I hate that I'm eating chips
I hate that my house is stalked with unhealthy foods
I hate being guilty for eating junk food
I hate eating instant and microwave food all the time
I hate going out so much
I hate hearing about people eating with their families and what they had
I hate that I rarely get home cooked food
I hate that if I want it, I have to cook it
I hate that I have to do so much house work
I hate that none of my friends do near as much housework as I have to
I hate that when I say how much I do and they can't compare
I hate that I want to live on my own already
I hate that I have a complicated relation with my mum
I hate that how my mum treats me directly relates to her boyfriends
I hate that the only time I want friends over is when she's not home
I hate getting yelled at when my friends are over
I hate how reveling this "I hate" is
I hate how people don't clear the extra cook time on the microwave
I hate that my room is messy
I hate that I forgot about the dishes again
I hate that I'm always late for school
I hate feeling lazy because I don't like walking to school
I hate that I don't want to walk to school because I have to cross a highway
I hate that I don't play enough video games
I hate that people find it so bizarre that girls like video games
I hate that I only become interested in things because my friends are
I hate how I only started drawing out of jealousy
I have that I'm "better" then the people I was jealous over when I started drawing
I hate when I'm told I'm better then someone when I haven't drawn nearly as long
I hate people judging others
I hate judging others
I hate that I have a perverted mind
I hate that I'm two-faced
I hate that I can tell a stranger more than I can a friend
I hate that I can say all this over the internet and not tell the people closest to me
I hate how people closest to me will read this and ignore it
I hate how people closest to me never tell me anything
I hate knowing things about my friends that they don't know I know
I hate being a person people tend to talk to about their problems
I hate that I want to tell people my problems but don't
I hate that I procrastinate
I hate that I slack off at the end of the school year
I hate how the school year is set up
I hate long breaks
I hate summer and winter break
I wish school was set up like in Europe, school all year with two week breaks within the entire year
I hate how people call me crazy for that
I hate how my birthday failed
I hate how I don't feel like my birthday was a significant part of my recent life events
I hate how I cried on my birthday
I hate how I find it so easy to lie
I hate people who act as if they are the center of the world
I hate how I act like I'm the center of the world
I hate myself
I hate how I hate myself
I envy almost all my friends
I hate that I can't do something alone in school
I hate how I do so much better in school without friends
I hate how I want my friends to disappear at times
I hate how my cat doesn't like being held
I hate that I live under a rock
I hate that people are surprised when I know something, like the release date of a video game
I hate that knowing something like that is even a surprise
I hate how I say things that don't make sense
I hate how I like blood and gore movies
I hate that I like to talk about disturbing and gruesome things at the dinner table
I hate how I never actually eat at a dinner table
I hate how this list is so long
I hate how it's probably going to go on a lot longer
I hate how much characters I have
I hate how dependent my characters are on other peoples characters
I hate how I can no longer make my own stories and characters
I hate how I put my flaws and desires into my characters
I hate how attached I am to my characters
I hate that that's all I can talk about half the time to my best friend
I hate that it's a social norm to have relationships in highschool
I hate that I don't want a relationship
I hate how I don't want a relationship because I'm afraid of commitment
I hate how I don't know my own sexuality
I hate how I freaked out a few years ago for rumors of me being gay
I hate knowing that the reaction was a denial factor
I hate that I don't know what I'm going to do when I'm done school
I hate that I don't plan for myself and am waiting on a friend
I hate how I want to do things in the future but won't because I don't want to do it alone
I hate how above fact will reduce amazing life opportunities
I hate that today's society thrives on money along
I hate that I sometimes hate being Albertan
I hate that I can't consider myself truly Albertan
I hate that I can't consider myself anything but Canadian
I hate that I've mentioned this before
I hate that I'm insensitive
I hate that my fingers hurt from my hot keypad
I hate how my family doesn't know my interests
I hate how my sister still thinks my favorite animal is the wolf
I hate that that was a faze
I hate how I won't tell my sister and she proceeds to buy me wolf products
I hate how I'm undecided on almost everything
I hate how I'm such an attention whore
I hate how I crave attention and company
I hate how dependent I really am on my friends, but how easily I can break away from them
I hate that I go on mood swings and hurt those around me
I hate that I think there's something wrong with my head but people roll their eyes when I mention it
I hate that I wear a mask to hide myself
I hate how the mask is cracked and taped back together
I hate how the mask doesn't work anymore
I hate how this is all so self reveling
I hate looking back and seeing how messed up I am
I hate how I'm going to regret this
I hate how serious this is
I hate how it's my bed time but I won't go to bed for another 2-3 hours
I hate how right before I go to bed I'll be told to do some sort of chore
I hate how I neglect the chore late at night then get yelled at in the morning
I hate that I can't drive yet
I hate that I don't get to go driving a lot
I hate it that my friends' families are/was so willing to take them driving yet it's back breaking to get to drive to the store and back
I hate how I feel so secluded when I'm not
I hate envying other people's family life
I hate that I'm always tired
I hate when people ask me what's wrong and find out I'm just tired
I hate when people say I'm always tired
I hate that there's so much more to go here but my fingers hurt and my computer is overheating
I hate that I hate
