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Inception:

I had dream within
a dream last night.
Or was it me,
In the haze of
Trying to block
Out what was happening,
Imagining what I really want.

I found out that what
I want is different than
What you want.
This puts a major pothole
In the road we were heading
Down. Down. Down.

That's how I jumped out
Of the dream within
A dream. Maybe that,
Or it's the fact that I'm
Running on 5 hours
Of much needed sleep.

The talked happened at 2AM
On my doorstep.
In the pouring rain
(welcome to Washington).
Where many things were said.

I would have rather them
Be kept deep down inside.
Away so no one would
Have to hear them ever.
But they needed to be said.

In some ways it could not
Have come at a better time.
While the romance is still
Blossoming. I wish that
What was said on my
Doorstep with be buried
Deep down inside
Both of us.

That dream within
A dream that I had
Last night, it was
Actually reality.
Of me waiting for that
Text that you got home
Safe, and that text that
I never got.

Do you not care about
Me anymore? Is that your
Problem? Or is it that
You lied on the doorstep
When you said you still
Wanted to give 'us' a shot.

I would rather know this
Sooner than later, so
My heart will mend quicker
With time. Yet I want what
You said to hold true.
That you still want to be with
Me. That you might, in all
Honesty, in the future see
Me as your wife.

That is what you're looking
For out of a relationship.
That's what you told me
Last night. On the doorstep.
You have a hard time saying
Things, because that's how
You were raised. I respect that.
But I since I didn't know, before
2AM, I might have ruined 'us'.

I never got that text that you
Got home safe. Does that mean
That you lied to me? Saying that
I didn't ruin a thing? Or was it
Because you didn't get home safe?
I don't want to bug you after what
Happened and what slipped out of
My mouth, yet I want to make sure
You're safe so I can return to
Your arms. To your arms forever.

But that's just a sick fantasy
After what was said. I'm 16,
You're 18, and we're stuck with
That decision on what to do next.
Obviously what you're looking for
In a relationship is out of the question.
But what if in the future, that dream
Became a reality. Then I do get to
Say that 'weirder things did happen'.
Because that's what I said last night.
I think that's what made you stay.
Weirder things have happened than
A person at 16 and 18 falling
In love, and getting married
When we're older and more mature.

Or was it because you do care
About me? Maybe more than
You want to admit to yourself.
I guess we will find out. We pledged
To 'let this relationship run it's course
Like every other one' even thought I
Know you sense it too. This is
Something real. Something deep.

That dream within a dream
Is my whirling reality that all
Happened at that face to face
Conversation at 2AM on my
Doorstep, in the pouring rain.
The setting could not have been
More real. The words couldn't
Have been more pure. That's
Why I'm so confused right now.
So confused on where we stand
Besides what was said. So
Confused on what I feel. So confused
Trying to figure out where you stand.

Sometimes I would rather it be a dream
Within a dream. But it's just shitty
Reality running its course. I guess I'll
See where this goes, even thought I
Want to dig my head in the ground
Like an ostrich and hide from reality.