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they couldn't possibly understand what this is like. the only one who knows, is me. i've reached my breaking point. i'm all out of options. i love my family, but i just can't take it anymore. i hope they'll understand... they have to understand. i hope my son will grow up to remember me as the strong man i once was, and not the fragile shell i've become. i know my actions will result in a lifetime of hardship for him, but i hope he can understand that i love him. my wife will make sure of that. she knows. she knows all too well. everyday, for the past 10 years, i've told her how much i love her. i only wish i'd told her today. she knows, but it's more for me than for her. i wish i could tell her right now, but there's no turning back. i'm sitting here in a pool of my own tears, wondering where everything went wrong. "he's fine.", they said. oh, how wrong they were. things are about to get better for me... but far, far worse for my family. how can i be so selfish? they have to understand that this isn't about them. they didn't cause this. i wish they knew that. they don't know how hard i tried. god, how i tried. well, i'm through with trying. it's only gotten me here, and this is the last place i want to be. i'll see them again. i'll explain it to them when they get here. i don't have time now. i love them... i love them so much.

that's the sound of a bullet travelling through a man's skull at 72,000 feet per minute.

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they couldn't possibly understand what this is like. the only one who knows, is me. i've reached my breaking point. i'm all out of options. i love my family, but i just can't take it anymore. i hope they'll understand... they have to understand. i hope my son will grow up to remember me as the strong man i once was, and not the fragile shell i've become. i know my actions will result in a lifetime of hardship for him, but i hope he can understand that i love him. my wife will make sure of that. she knows. she knows all too well. everyday, for the past 10 years, i've told her how much i love her. i only wish i'd told her today. she knows, but it's more for me than for her. i wish i could tell her right now, but there's no turning back. i'm sitting here in a pool of my own tears, wondering where everything went wrong. "he's fine.", they said. oh, how wrong they were. things are about to get better for me... but far, far worse for my family. how can i be so selfish? they have to understand that this isn't about them. they didn't cause this. i wish they knew that. they don't know how hard i tried. god, how i tried. well, i'm through with trying. it's only gotten me here, and this is the last place i want to be. i'll see them again. i'll explain it to them when they get here. i don't have time now. i love them... i love them so much.

that's the sound of a bullet travelling through a man's skull at 72,000 feet per minute.