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This was my son's room. For five years after he's gone, it stayed that way. I was scared of this room, this is where I found him and I only go here to clean it twice a year.. . Late October 2023, on his 5th Angelversary, I started to transfer my 'Happy Place' here. It was a very hard decision for me.. my heart says no and I was crying the whole time as I pack his things but I feel the need to do it.. I know I will never be able to move forward but I feel the need to face my trauma because I can't live with fear anymore. After three months of fixing and decorating this room, It's done. 6 months forward, I am not scared of this room anymore. That's another milestone for me.

I spend my everyday here, doing crafts, writing on my journal, watching movies, listening to music, editing photos, smelling candles and of course, drawing and painting..

But still, most times, , I feel lonely in my Happy Place.

Description
This was my son's room. For five years after he's gone, it stayed that way. I was scared of this room, this is where I found him and I only go here to clean it twice a year.. . Late October 2023, on his 5th Angelversary, I started to transfer my 'Happy Place' here. It was a very hard decision for me.. my heart says no and I was crying the whole time as I pack his things but I feel the need to do it.. I know I will never be able to move forward but I feel the need to face my trauma because I can't live with fear anymore. After three months of fixing and decorating this room, It's done. 6 months forward, I am not scared of this room anymore. That's another milestone for me.

I spend my everyday here, doing crafts, writing on my journal, watching movies, listening to music, editing photos, smelling candles and of course, drawing and painting..

But still, most times, , I feel lonely in my Happy Place.