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Published: 2018-09-16 08:05:59 +0000 UTC; Views: 882; Favourites: 16; Downloads: 1
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Ive been having some really severe art block. i cant do shit lately and i hate myself for it. im becoming very angry that my art isnt perfect. 20 years of drawing and what do i have to show for it? absolutely nothing. im angry with myself and then i get frustrated and feel like i have to self harm to punish myself for being a bad person and a bad artist. that i need to be punished for being a waste of space and not talented enough, if i could id stab myself with my pencils until i become a better artist
sigh i hate this cycle but whatever it takes to force myself to draw ii guess
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I understand the sentiment perfectly. Art, for years, was the only way a lot of us trauma survivors were able to express ourselves without consequences, unlike with other ways that we learned to eventually silence. When we're older however, and the ugliest symptoms of childhood trauma come to invade in our daily lives, those symptoms tend to also show up in ways we previously found solace in. It's like...we lose the spark that made us so great in the past at these things. It's such a painful and unfair aftermath that we have to pay the price for. However, something I realized was that if I'm feeling unhappy with my work, going back to foundations of art and re-learning them tends to help me at least come out of it a little bit.
These are my favorite things to study
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and then there's this guy who's really good with digital art. www.ctrlpaint.com/ He has a large archive of videos that can teach foundational things about digitial art that I never knew I needed until, well, I learned from him lol.
I hope these help helicka <3
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You don't need to always draw to be a good artist. Art is not something that should be perfect, I think the imperfection is something very beautiful <3
So don't be so hard on yourself and just go your own art way!
Because that is something wonderful that just you can do ^-^
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