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Got a hoodie from ebay, really comfy, gonna buy it again.

Wanted to do a thing in october but my pen broke. Art is surprisingly still okay... But now I've figured out where to die!

The scary part is it's not making me cry. I used to ball with tears thinking about ending it, but nothing... maybe I'm actually getting closer to doing it? I mean, I've accepted that anything I do would be stupidly undignified, and "most attempts fail"... I think it's like a 15 floor apartment back at home that would do the job. Gravity it pretty reliable. I'd try Nembutal, but the nurse made a good point about it not being the right stuff if I bought it online... what am I saying? No one gives a fuck lol I'm a little bitch whose scared of a fucking washing machiene as fuck I have the strength to kill myself right now lmao.

Strange isn't it? I start therapy and now I feel more confused and significantly worse! I mean, I was warned... also, Setraline seems to do fuck all.... Maybe I should do crack lmao It's a bit expensive though... Can't exactly comfort eat tho, I'm supposed to start losing weight next year cause I wanna wear some comfy thigh highs next winter.

At least sparkling water is still kinda affordable. Sparkling > Still. Well really that should be Carbonic Acid > Still. You get the point.

Ay Imagine venting on Deviant art in 2022 at the age of 20. How fucking sad. Oh well... Probably last post for a while, conflicted about Gods Alike and what to do with it, pretty much got attatched to Tal and no one else, the others are alright but I just don;t know what to do with the project as a whole....

Well, I'm tired, it's half 5, also uninterested in typing. It sucks. A, S and D have rubbed off my keyboard :<

Description

Got a hoodie from ebay, really comfy, gonna buy it again.

Wanted to do a thing in october but my pen broke. Art is surprisingly still okay... But now I've figured out where to die!

The scary part is it's not making me cry. I used to ball with tears thinking about ending it, but nothing... maybe I'm actually getting closer to doing it? I mean, I've accepted that anything I do would be stupidly undignified, and "most attempts fail"... I think it's like a 15 floor apartment back at home that would do the job. Gravity it pretty reliable. I'd try Nembutal, but the nurse made a good point about it not being the right stuff if I bought it online... what am I saying? No one gives a fuck lol I'm a little bitch whose scared of a fucking washing machiene as fuck I have the strength to kill myself right now lmao.

Strange isn't it? I start therapy and now I feel more confused and significantly worse! I mean, I was warned... also, Setraline seems to do fuck all.... Maybe I should do crack lmao It's a bit expensive though... Can't exactly comfort eat tho, I'm supposed to start losing weight next year cause I wanna wear some comfy thigh highs next winter.

At least sparkling water is still kinda affordable. Sparkling > Still. Well really that should be Carbonic Acid > Still. You get the point.

Ay Imagine venting on Deviant art in 2022 at the age of 20. How fucking sad. Oh well... Probably last post for a while, conflicted about Gods Alike and what to do with it, pretty much got attatched to Tal and no one else, the others are alright but I just don;t know what to do with the project as a whole....

Well, I'm tired, it's half 5, also uninterested in typing. It sucks. A, S and D have rubbed off my keyboard :<