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I isolate myself in shame of sadness,
because my grandmother gave me guilt.
Frankly, the motive is always in earnest;
finding the mother I need, and
the sister I lost in a bloody mess.
It could have been you
if you had sworn to stay forever,
I would declare myself fulfilled.
One thing is certain; you'll leave me, too,
and the holes in my chest will
go on bleeding,
and I will keep hurting
myself so that I will reach out
for anyone else I could hope to love.
I hate myself for it,
that I ever would want something so pretty
for an outlet, not even a lover.
And it goes on; selfish, spinning out of control.
Truly, love makes a beautiful fractal.

Description
I isolate myself in shame of sadness,
because my grandmother gave me guilt.
Frankly, the motive is always in earnest;
finding the mother I need, and
the sister I lost in a bloody mess.
It could have been you
if you had sworn to stay forever,
I would declare myself fulfilled.
One thing is certain; you'll leave me, too,
and the holes in my chest will
go on bleeding,
and I will keep hurting
myself so that I will reach out
for anyone else I could hope to love.
I hate myself for it,
that I ever would want something so pretty
for an outlet, not even a lover.
And it goes on; selfish, spinning out of control.
Truly, love makes a beautiful fractal.