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Chapter One


"Anna DeLuna Ludo" I heard my name from far across the room. I jerked my head up to see who was spilling that dreadful sound from their mouth. "Miss. Sanchez." I replied, twiddling my thumbs. "Anna DeLuna Ludo, do you know what I asked you to do?" That dirty skank asked me, eying me, as if she was staring into my soul with hatred. "No, Miss Sanchez..for you see, I'm deaf in one ear, and I have a hole in my brain, which causes me to black out at certain times." I replied, as serene as I could sound. I'm not REALLY deaf in one ear, nor do I have a hole in my head. The real reason I didn't hear what she said was because I was sleeping, because the night before, I had been up all night. What was I doing, you may ask? Well, I'll tell you.

  Last night, oh..last night. I was minding my own. My sister, Emma, had brought home yet another man. "When are you going to stop whoring off and get in a real relationship?" I had asked her. Even though I had asked softly, she could hear the hatred and jealousy in my voice. "I-I..Brubrubr- HAHAHAAH!" She replied. "Mhm," I nodded "You're drunk. Again. Whatever. Get pregnant. Die, for all I care." I yelled, unexpectedly. I went up to my room and looked in the mirror. "Fat ass, big stomach..no chest. Ugly face, Pimples. Ugh." I told myself. I sniffled and sat on my bed. "I can't cry. It's weakness in the eyes of the world." My eyes turned a sea blue color. I reached over to a jewelry box on my dresser. I opened it, and inside, there was a razor-blade. I sighed, "I promised myself I wouldn't start again..". I took the razor blade out of the jewelry box and placed it near my wrist. "Hm..lower.." I mumbled, and placed the blade lower down, so I didn't accidentally kill myself. Then, on my arm, I began to push down on the blade. I bit my lip, as the blood rushed out of my arm, going onto the blade as I carved deeper into my arm. "FUCK!" I exclaimed, as I realized how much blood was actually spewing out of my arm. The next thing I knew, I was on the floor, passed out.

  The next thing I remembered was, I was in the hospital with an I.V. in my wrist, watching Barney the god damn dinosaur on T.V..Emma had been sober then, with, surprisingly, no boyfriend with her. She was sitting in the chair next to me, holding my hand as I slept. I slowly began to open my eyes. "A-Anna? Are you...okay?" Emma asked me, as she wiped a small tear from the corner of her eye. "I think so..but..where am I?" I asked, confused. "The hospital..you cut yourself again. Mom said that..she's fed up with it, and she's going to put you in the happy house.." she replied. "WHAT? No! I..I had to! I had to choice! I..I...I can't do this anymore.." Then, for the first time since I was a baby...I began to cry.

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Chapter One


"Anna DeLuna Ludo" I heard my name from far across the room. I jerked my head up to see who was spilling that dreadful sound from their mouth. "Miss. Sanchez." I replied, twiddling my thumbs. "Anna DeLuna Ludo, do you know what I asked you to do?" That dirty skank asked me, eying me, as if she was staring into my soul with hatred. "No, Miss Sanchez..for you see, I'm deaf in one ear, and I have a hole in my brain, which causes me to black out at certain times." I replied, as serene as I could sound. I'm not REALLY deaf in one ear, nor do I have a hole in my head. The real reason I didn't hear what she said was because I was sleeping, because the night before, I had been up all night. What was I doing, you may ask? Well, I'll tell you.

  Last night, oh..last night. I was minding my own. My sister, Emma, had brought home yet another man. "When are you going to stop whoring off and get in a real relationship?" I had asked her. Even though I had asked softly, she could hear the hatred and jealousy in my voice. "I-I..Brubrubr- HAHAHAAH!" She replied. "Mhm," I nodded "You're drunk. Again. Whatever. Get pregnant. Die, for all I care." I yelled, unexpectedly. I went up to my room and looked in the mirror. "Fat ass, big stomach..no chest. Ugly face, Pimples. Ugh." I told myself. I sniffled and sat on my bed. "I can't cry. It's weakness in the eyes of the world." My eyes turned a sea blue color. I reached over to a jewelry box on my dresser. I opened it, and inside, there was a razor-blade. I sighed, "I promised myself I wouldn't start again..". I took the razor blade out of the jewelry box and placed it near my wrist. "Hm..lower.." I mumbled, and placed the blade lower down, so I didn't accidentally kill myself. Then, on my arm, I began to push down on the blade. I bit my lip, as the blood rushed out of my arm, going onto the blade as I carved deeper into my arm. "FUCK!" I exclaimed, as I realized how much blood was actually spewing out of my arm. The next thing I knew, I was on the floor, passed out.

  The next thing I remembered was, I was in the hospital with an I.V. in my wrist, watching Barney the god damn dinosaur on T.V..Emma had been sober then, with, surprisingly, no boyfriend with her. She was sitting in the chair next to me, holding my hand as I slept. I slowly began to open my eyes. "A-Anna? Are you...okay?" Emma asked me, as she wiped a small tear from the corner of her eye. "I think so..but..where am I?" I asked, confused. "The hospital..you cut yourself again. Mom said that..she's fed up with it, and she's going to put you in the happy house.." she replied. "WHAT? No! I..I had to! I had to choice! I..I...I can't do this anymore.." Then, for the first time since I was a baby...I began to cry.