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There is a tightness in my chest,
As I watch you walk away.
To be with people better than me.
I guess I wasn’t needed,
Or maybe just unwanted,
But as you walked away I realised it was just me.
Here to suffer for all eternity.

Time repeats,
It the same scene different actors
The pain and heartbreak never ends,
And it is always the same.

As I sit alone
Looking back at all the times
Think of how it could have been different,
How you could have stayed,
How I could have done better,
At how I am afraid.

I lock myself up so the past won’t repeat
But the fear is still there.
That someone would get in and after a while
Leave me once again.
To leave me for someone better in all things.

As I think of this while looking
At your retreating form
I cannot stop the tears threatening to spill
But I keep quite and turn away so no one sees my pain.

As I walk away I wish that you would look over your shoulder,
see the pain I am in.
And come running to my side,
And hug me from behind
And tell me everything will be alright.

But I’m the one who looks over, hoping that you’ll see
Though it looks like you’re having fun without me,
And no longer need me anymore.

I’m a toy you have grown too old for and have tossed aside.
I just sit in a corner gathering dust.
Waiting for the day you will turn around and we will play again.
But I fear that day will never come,
And the pain will never end.
Until the lights fade out and the curtain closes.
And my eyes dull and shut.

I just hope you fare better
And never have to suffer.
Unlike me.