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*Gandolf Death Theme Plays.*

Ooo, what's this, you're asking? Well, lemme explain:

A majority of my watchers may have seen this reoccurring character in many (if not all) my rant videos on YouTube.
He is Sebastian Castellanos, main protagonist from The Evil Within video game.

It's been a whole year and a few months, and my love is still extremely strong for him.
It's not just about looks (even if he's a handsome sweetheart,) but it's because of his character that made me fall in love.

I can relate to Sebastian so much.
You see in the game, the story lowkey hints that Sebastian struggles with addiction (alcohol) after his Wife vanished and his daughter died in a housefire.
He cannot get over the intense loss, even going as far to never washing his own coat for an entire year because it was a gift from his Wife before she disappeared.
Throughout the game, you'll encounter the grounds constantly blanketed with emptied bottle of beer, another hint towards his addiction.

At first, Sebastian's personality feels bland. But until you realize WHY he's acting so closed-up, it makes sense.
He wants to show care, but at the same time he doesn't want to show weakness or vulnerability, thus closing himself up and trying not to connect with others.
He really does love his comrades, but getting too close scares him because he doesn't want to deal with that same emotional wreck if they die.

OH MAN, how much I can relate. I've mentioned it before, but I too suffered addiction for three years on prescription pills.
Believe me, it's hell on earth that no one should put themselves through. I would've been dead had it not for moving away from AZ and into WA.
I still feel clammed-up, trying not to show any emotions, but I'm getting a little better now that I'm more interactive and using rant videos to be more expressive.
It's not something that you can get over in one day or week or month. See, I'm four years clean, and I still have a bad time opening up.
But don't get me wrong - I love my friends and everyone I talk to. I'm just too cautious.

Well, that's all I wanted to say.

Sebastian, you remind me of my darkest times, but you make me realize that I'm not a bad person.
I just need to do better and be more hopeful, the world's not so small, and it's more colorful than I once imagined it to be.
Love you to death, even if you're fictional. You're real to me, and I wish you could stop being a lovable moron.
Seriously, you're walking in pools of blood and you keep saying, 'there's something up with this place.'
NAH YOU THINK?

//World's smallest violin plays.
OK, done with the cancer. Enjoy this self-insert x canon character!

Sebastian Castellanos The Evil Within.
Leaved Leaved.

Description

*Gandolf Death Theme Plays.*

Ooo, what's this, you're asking? Well, lemme explain:

A majority of my watchers may have seen this reoccurring character in many (if not all) my rant videos on YouTube.
He is Sebastian Castellanos, main protagonist from The Evil Within video game.

It's been a whole year and a few months, and my love is still extremely strong for him.
It's not just about looks (even if he's a handsome sweetheart,) but it's because of his character that made me fall in love.

I can relate to Sebastian so much.
You see in the game, the story lowkey hints that Sebastian struggles with addiction (alcohol) after his Wife vanished and his daughter died in a housefire.
He cannot get over the intense loss, even going as far to never washing his own coat for an entire year because it was a gift from his Wife before she disappeared.
Throughout the game, you'll encounter the grounds constantly blanketed with emptied bottle of beer, another hint towards his addiction.

At first, Sebastian's personality feels bland. But until you realize WHY he's acting so closed-up, it makes sense.
He wants to show care, but at the same time he doesn't want to show weakness or vulnerability, thus closing himself up and trying not to connect with others.
He really does love his comrades, but getting too close scares him because he doesn't want to deal with that same emotional wreck if they die.

OH MAN, how much I can relate. I've mentioned it before, but I too suffered addiction for three years on prescription pills.
Believe me, it's hell on earth that no one should put themselves through. I would've been dead had it not for moving away from AZ and into WA.
I still feel clammed-up, trying not to show any emotions, but I'm getting a little better now that I'm more interactive and using rant videos to be more expressive.
It's not something that you can get over in one day or week or month. See, I'm four years clean, and I still have a bad time opening up.
But don't get me wrong - I love my friends and everyone I talk to. I'm just too cautious.

Well, that's all I wanted to say.

Sebastian, you remind me of my darkest times, but you make me realize that I'm not a bad person.
I just need to do better and be more hopeful, the world's not so small, and it's more colorful than I once imagined it to be.
Love you to death, even if you're fictional. You're real to me, and I wish you could stop being a lovable moron.
Seriously, you're walking in pools of blood and you keep saying, 'there's something up with this place.'
NAH YOU THINK?

//World's smallest violin plays.
OK, done with the cancer. Enjoy this self-insert x canon character!

Sebastian Castellanos The Evil Within.
Leaved Leaved.