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Time - Pink Floyd

I feel like I've given up, or that I at least want to. It constantly feels like the end, even though I try to reassure myself it isn't -- at least I hope not.
I've finished a few too many bottles for my own liking, and have smoked whatever I had left. I'd get more, but suddenly cash got a bit tight.
I've have some stronger substances that I could use, but know I can't mix them with these antidepressants unless I want to risk something worse.
Trying to sleep is a nightmare in itself. I can't feel relaxed without lingering thoughts bringing me down to the floor, breathing so hard and yet struggling with each inhale.

I want to get out of this, and know I probably can.
It gets harder each day; I hope the clinic calls back soon enough with an opening. I don't know if I can wait the six months they predicted.

Is it too late, or is this a permanent feeling?

Why am I typing all this out here? Who knows. A cry for help? Attention? I guess those could be considered the same.
I'm just expressing my thoughts in words, not just a linked song and a mediocre Garry's Mod poster.

Description

Time - Pink Floyd

I feel like I've given up, or that I at least want to. It constantly feels like the end, even though I try to reassure myself it isn't -- at least I hope not.
I've finished a few too many bottles for my own liking, and have smoked whatever I had left. I'd get more, but suddenly cash got a bit tight.
I've have some stronger substances that I could use, but know I can't mix them with these antidepressants unless I want to risk something worse.
Trying to sleep is a nightmare in itself. I can't feel relaxed without lingering thoughts bringing me down to the floor, breathing so hard and yet struggling with each inhale.

I want to get out of this, and know I probably can.
It gets harder each day; I hope the clinic calls back soon enough with an opening. I don't know if I can wait the six months they predicted.

Is it too late, or is this a permanent feeling?

Why am I typing all this out here? Who knows. A cry for help? Attention? I guess those could be considered the same.
I'm just expressing my thoughts in words, not just a linked song and a mediocre Garry's Mod poster.