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Please note that I did the initial sketch of this about a month ago and that I am currently doing better.

I don't paint very often, but I felt that this revelation couldn't be represented properly through a marker drawing. 2020 was a shit year. Mentally before that, I was doing good for three years. Before that was my first bout of depression. I'm not sure how to explain it, but it was pretty bad.

It was mainly because, at the time, I had recently moved back to the states from Germany. When I was there, I had the biggest group of friends, which included one of my best friends, who we will call Zee. When I returned from there, it meant leaving all of them.

I felt like I wasn't able to make friends like those, much less like Zee. She had a type of crazy that couldn't be rivaled. Due to losing my friends, I decided to be antisocial and not make more friends if I was just going to lose them.

In junior year, I decided that I should be improving on being positive and it helped to improve. I managed to keep it up for 3 years before everything went to shit.

Last month, I got to thinking about exactly why I was feeling shitty all year and it helped me realize: I was going through a relapse. Once I figured that out, I sketched this out and it felt like a weight was lifted off of my shoulders.

Description
Please note that I did the initial sketch of this about a month ago and that I am currently doing better.

I don't paint very often, but I felt that this revelation couldn't be represented properly through a marker drawing. 2020 was a shit year. Mentally before that, I was doing good for three years. Before that was my first bout of depression. I'm not sure how to explain it, but it was pretty bad.

It was mainly because, at the time, I had recently moved back to the states from Germany. When I was there, I had the biggest group of friends, which included one of my best friends, who we will call Zee. When I returned from there, it meant leaving all of them.

I felt like I wasn't able to make friends like those, much less like Zee. She had a type of crazy that couldn't be rivaled. Due to losing my friends, I decided to be antisocial and not make more friends if I was just going to lose them.

In junior year, I decided that I should be improving on being positive and it helped to improve. I managed to keep it up for 3 years before everything went to shit.

Last month, I got to thinking about exactly why I was feeling shitty all year and it helped me realize: I was going through a relapse. Once I figured that out, I sketched this out and it felt like a weight was lifted off of my shoulders.