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decided to draw endgame fraus for goblin week. I like that he ended up being the monkey's paw son of maglubiyet, where he did do everything he was made to do, but in a way that a tyrannical war god would never approve of. I think that's kinda an interesting theme, that you are inevitably bound to what you are and what fate has in store for you, but you ultimately get to decide who you are and how you choose to achieve that destiny.

I'm really going to miss playing as fraus. He started out as kinda a personal exploration of my own anxieties but I discovered that he was also some of the best parts of me. He's gentle, kind, and patient, not letting the coldness of logic dictate his choices but instead trusting his heart and his friends.

For most of my life I listed confident as one of my best traits, and upholding that image of strength and certainty. And it's not that confidence is bad, but there's a line between being confident and never allowing yourself to be vulnerable. When I was younger, I defiantly put an effort to be the biggest presence in the room, to be a beacon of strength. And sure, when I was just with people I was close to it made them feel safe from others, but it also made me hard to approach. I'm also a pretty big guy and I worked out back then, so I had a physical presence too. I knew people were afraid of me, but I liked that about myself.

I played fraus because I wanted to explore what it was like to not be like that, to be someone other than myself. I was curious to know what it was like to be small, meek, easy to overlook in a crowd, because that idea was so foreign to my experience, but in doing so I found those things in myself. Being soft spoken, meek, and gentle made fraus easy for others to talk to. Other characters could feel safe while being emotionally vulnerable with him. Even characters who didn't know him very well were comfortable being open with him because of his gentle demeanor. I hadn't realized it, but I had started to adopt some of his gentle and meek behaviors into my life and I think it's changed me for the better.

Now, I haven't changed completely because of this, but being fraus has added a gentleness to my heart that has changed me for the better. I don't come on so hard to people when I meet them. I'm still a big, loud, confident fella, but there's an added gentle kindness in there now that had been missing for a long time.

I may no longer play as him, but I hope he stays a part of me. Because I think I'm a better person because of him.

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decided to draw endgame fraus for goblin week. I like that he ended up being the monkey's paw son of maglubiyet, where he did do everything he was made to do, but in a way that a tyrannical war god would never approve of. I think that's kinda an interesting theme, that you are inevitably bound to what you are and what fate has in store for you, but you ultimately get to decide who you are and how you choose to achieve that destiny.

I'm really going to miss playing as fraus. He started out as kinda a personal exploration of my own anxieties but I discovered that he was also some of the best parts of me. He's gentle, kind, and patient, not letting the coldness of logic dictate his choices but instead trusting his heart and his friends.

For most of my life I listed confident as one of my best traits, and upholding that image of strength and certainty. And it's not that confidence is bad, but there's a line between being confident and never allowing yourself to be vulnerable. When I was younger, I defiantly put an effort to be the biggest presence in the room, to be a beacon of strength. And sure, when I was just with people I was close to it made them feel safe from others, but it also made me hard to approach. I'm also a pretty big guy and I worked out back then, so I had a physical presence too. I knew people were afraid of me, but I liked that about myself.

I played fraus because I wanted to explore what it was like to not be like that, to be someone other than myself. I was curious to know what it was like to be small, meek, easy to overlook in a crowd, because that idea was so foreign to my experience, but in doing so I found those things in myself. Being soft spoken, meek, and gentle made fraus easy for others to talk to. Other characters could feel safe while being emotionally vulnerable with him. Even characters who didn't know him very well were comfortable being open with him because of his gentle demeanor. I hadn't realized it, but I had started to adopt some of his gentle and meek behaviors into my life and I think it's changed me for the better.

Now, I haven't changed completely because of this, but being fraus has added a gentleness to my heart that has changed me for the better. I don't come on so hard to people when I meet them. I'm still a big, loud, confident fella, but there's an added gentle kindness in there now that had been missing for a long time.

I may no longer play as him, but I hope he stays a part of me. Because I think I'm a better person because of him.