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Part IV:

Tony sat beside the bed, taking one pale hand in his own hands, silently pleading for Loki, for him to wake up. It had been three days, Loki had been in surgery two times, something with his right leg and one broken arm. Tony sat by his side all the time, barely talking when their family came to check on them.

-Please, wake up-Tony whispered. It took Loki a week to wake up, and three more days to be able to talk. He looked at Tony and his eyes filled with tears.

-What happen, Tony?

-You had an accident-he told him in a low voice.

-Where's Victor?-Tony didn't felt the jealousy, just sadness.

-Loki... I'm sorry... he...-Loki looked at him with eyes wide open, his lower lip trembling.

-No...

-Loki...

-No... please, tell me... tell me is not true...-Tony closed his eyes and hung his head.

-I'm so sorry, babe.

-No!-Loki screamed-No! No! No! You're lying! No!

-Loki... Loki, please, calm down-said Tony, trying to grab his hand but Loki pulled away with an angry look.

-You're lying to me! You're just jealous! Where's Victor, Anthony?!

-I'm not lying to you, dear, I'm sorry...

-No! I said no! Stop lying! Stop lying! Stop lying!-two nurses came in and grabbed Loki by the arm and the shoulders.

-Please, calm down, Mr. Stark.

-Do not call me that!-Loki growled and Tony took a step back-he's a liar! Victor is not dead! He's not dead! You're lying, you're...-his eyes closed in that moment, the injection worked right away. Tony looked at him, the person he loved the most, so angry, so broken for another man. Tony felt that the bitterness that was forming since a few months ago returned to him. Something broke in that very same moment.

*

Loki straightened his tie and watched with haunted eyes his face in the mirror, he was pale and had bags under his eyes for the lack of sleep, his body was thin because he didn't eat much anyway, so the suit looked big on him.

-Are you ready?-Tony asked, Loki didn't looked at him.

-Yes-said.

The cemetery was silent that morning, Victor's family was crying silently in the front, Loki and Tony were in the back, trying not to disturb the grieving family. When the service finished, Amora, Victor's sister came to them, she was a beautiful blonde and had green eyes like his brother. She stood in front of Loki, watching him with red eyes and then hugged him. Loki broke in that moment.

-I'm sorry, I'm so sorry...-Amora framed his face with her hands.

-Look at me, Loki, this wasn't your fault, ok? It was that stupid drunk guy, I know you tried to save him, and noone blames you, ok? He didn't had much luck and it hurts and I know you cared about him too.

She kissed his cheek sweetly.

-Take care of yourself, dear, we would see each other again someday, I know.

-Thank you, Amora-said Loki with a tiny smile. She left with her family, Loki stood there for a while, just watching the grave, saying silently his good bye.

-We should go home-said Tony in a quiet voice. Loki looked at him for the first time in the day and nodded, he came closer and hugged him, Tony was surprised but he felt that Loki needed this.

-Take me home, Tony-and he did that.

*

That brief moment of calmness didn't lasted, Loki passed his days in his room, he quitted his job and refused to talk to anybody except Clint and sometimes Frigga. Tony was being displaced little by little. Loki barely spoke to him, he didn't pay any atention to him, he was reading or watching trough the windows, with a look full of sadness and hollowness. Tony started avoiding him, doing nothing to fix what was slowly creating a breach more and more big, he buried himself in his job, drinking a lot and sleeping very little. He didn't even notice that Loki didn't slept in the same bedroom anymore, he didn't noticed when Loki started to spend more time outside than inside, he never noticed that Loki cried every night, having nightmares about the accident. He didn't noticed how much restless he looked and how much he was suffering in silence, he didn't noticed when he stopped feeling the warm feeling of love.

He noticed that everything was wrong when he saw Loki pass by his side and neither of them acknowledged the presence of the other. He went out that night, went to a bar and drank a lot, dancing from time to time with strangers, trying to forget why was so bad that he had forgotten about the love he always thought it was going to last forever. That night he went to bed with a blonde girl, he didn't remembered exactly how they got there but the next morning he was with a big headache and in a bed that wasn't his. He didn't say goodbye just dressed and went home. He entered home, yawning when he saw Loki. He froze in the spot. The two of them stood still for a few minutes, looking each other in the eyes. Loki looked at him from to head to toe and Tony knew that he knew what had happen, the raven haired man pursed his lips and then he left. Tony didn't knew what to do but something was clear, he wasn't feeling any remorse, the fear and the pain that should be there it wasn't.

It was over.

He knew it was over long time ago, since the accident but admitting it to himself was harder than what he thought and his knees went weak. All the promises, the love that used to be there was gone, they lost each in other like they always said they wouldn't. Tony realized with pain that Loki was a stranger, they only lived in the same house, they didn't talk to the other in any way. It was sad, incredibly sad that they had ended this way, and Tony knew he had to put a end to this meaningless life that they were living.

So he went for the divorce papers.