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Rin’s eyes fluttered open. It was very late…the stars were above her twinkling brightly and the moon lit up her face. She had dreamed of the kiss. How could she not? Such a thing could not be pushed from her mind. She sighed softly and rolled to her back to gaze up at the moon. A star went streaking across the sky and she smiled.
I get a wish now…but what for?
She thought again of the afternoon, only a few hours ago, when it had happened. After the kiss had ended, her lord had stood and offered her his elegantly clawed hand to help her up. She took it and rose up, her head stopping just at his broad chest. Sesshomaru still held her hand…he didn’t release it until they were walking side by side and Jaken and Ah-un had come into view. Then he gave it a reassuring squeeze and met her gaze momentarily…as if to tell her to keep their experience a secret.
She felt her face flushing again and sat up. Wrapping her arms around her raised knees, she stared down at her naked feet…and tried to remember every second of their kiss. His surprisingly soft lips, his sweet intoxicating scent, and the way his hand had cradled her cheek so gently…it all had made her heart race. And the way his eyes had gazed into hers…seemingly looking at her inner soul. Why did he do it? He couldn’t possible have fallen in love with a human as lowly as herself…could he? Maybe he didn’t even mean to kiss her as he did. It may have been just an accident. Yes, that must have been what happened: stooping down to her, he must have momentarily lost his balance and simply pitched forward.
But she knew him better than that. No one as graceful and lithe as her lord would ever lose their balance by stooping down…and the way he had said her name, so sweetly. She imagined his face again…so close to hers…feeling his soft warm breath on her face…
“…Rin…”
She sighed again and flopped back down, her mind racing for explanation after explanation. Her brow furrowed in pouting frustration. Then it all became very clear: she must kiss him again. Maybe after that…she would know for certain. She stood up and closed her eyes tightly, clasping her hands in front of her…and she made her wish…
Make him love me…
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Lord Sesshomaru shut his eyes, trying to for get what he had done. All these years, all this time, he had succeeded in keeping his feelings towards the human girl a secret. The first time he had seen her, she was just a small child with large bright eyes. Those eyes had looked upon him with a strange mixture of pity and fear. She had grown to respect and adore him all of these years…as her protector, nothing more. He felt his throat tighten as anger for what he had done began to overcome him. He also felt a twinge of sorrow. How could she ever know how he truly felt towards her?
She looked up to him as if he was her adopted parent. How many times had he been there to rescue her from the jaws of death? Time and time again she had proven her loyalty to him, no matter the circumstances. In the end, she always returned to him…smiling…lovingly gazing up at him with those brightly shining eyes…
“Lord Sesshomaru!”
And now…he had lost it all. With just one slip of his self-control, she could never be his. He was her “father” and she was his “daughter”. She would never trust him again. Angrily, he squeezed his hand into a fist, piercing the flesh and starting a steady flow of blood. He closed his eyes once more…but he still saw her face, smiling at first…then changing to a mask of fear as he leaned in towards her. A growl rose up from his chest.
This Sesshomaru is truly a fool…
Pain shot up his arm and he looked down, finally realizing the extent of the damage he had caused himself. The dark blood stood out against the pale skin. Sadness overtook him again…he knew what she would do next…she would come to him and state that she did not feel safe with him any longer. She would leave him…alone. Who would protect her then? No one. Because of him, she would never trust another man and in that decision, she would die…because of him…
“Rin…why?”
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Her bare feet padded softly, making not one sound. She held her breath as he came into view. Her hands shook and her heart wavered. Her mouth felt suddenly dry.
Please, do not be angry with me, my lord...
The wind blew against her face, stirring her hair as it passed. When her lord came into view, she stopped. He sat with his back facing her. A wind blew again, ruffling his silver mane. His scent was carried to her on the wind…strong yet comforting. But there was something else with the scent: blood. Her nose was not as good as her lord’s but she could still distinguish the metallic tang of his blood. She saw his hand, now stained a deep red. She knew what had happened…he had been thinking of her and had become so angry, he thrust his own talons into his flesh. Tears stung her eyes, as realization finally sunk in …
He doesn’t love me.
Then she heard him speak, just a quiet whisper,
“Rin…why?”
His words cut into her. Unbearable despair and pain welled up inside her. He couldn’t have hurt her more if he had run her through with Tokijin. A sob caught in her throat. At the sound of her crying, Sesshomaru turned around to face her. Her face was tear-streaked and showed nothing but sadness.
“Rin!”
He hadn’t expected her to confront him so soon. Caught off his guard, he fumbled for something to say to her…but that face had rendered him speechless. To see her in so much pain…and he was the one who caused it.
“I’ll… be leaving… in the morning…”
“You’ll never… have to put up… with me… again.”
Then she left. As silently as she had come. Leaving him behind to blame himself… a single tear fell down his striped cheek.
Rin…Why?
Why do you have to leave me…?

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Rin’s eyes fluttered open. It was very late…the stars were above her twinkling brightly and the moon lit up her face. She had dreamed of the kiss. How could she not? Such a thing could not be pushed from her mind. She sighed softly and rolled to her back to gaze up at the moon. A star went streaking across the sky and she smiled.
I get a wish now…but what for?
She thought again of the afternoon, only a few hours ago, when it had happened. After the kiss had ended, her lord had stood and offered her his elegantly clawed hand to help her up. She took it and rose up, her head stopping just at his broad chest. Sesshomaru still held her hand…he didn’t release it until they were walking side by side and Jaken and Ah-un had come into view. Then he gave it a reassuring squeeze and met her gaze momentarily…as if to tell her to keep their experience a secret.
She felt her face flushing again and sat up. Wrapping her arms around her raised knees, she stared down at her naked feet…and tried to remember every second of their kiss. His surprisingly soft lips, his sweet intoxicating scent, and the way his hand had cradled her cheek so gently…it all had made her heart race. And the way his eyes had gazed into hers…seemingly looking at her inner soul. Why did he do it? He couldn’t possible have fallen in love with a human as lowly as herself…could he? Maybe he didn’t even mean to kiss her as he did. It may have been just an accident. Yes, that must have been what happened: stooping down to her, he must have momentarily lost his balance and simply pitched forward.
But she knew him better than that. No one as graceful and lithe as her lord would ever lose their balance by stooping down…and the way he had said her name, so sweetly. She imagined his face again…so close to hers…feeling his soft warm breath on her face…
“…Rin…”
She sighed again and flopped back down, her mind racing for explanation after explanation. Her brow furrowed in pouting frustration. Then it all became very clear: she must kiss him again. Maybe after that…she would know for certain. She stood up and closed her eyes tightly, clasping her hands in front of her…and she made her wish…
Make him love me…
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Lord Sesshomaru shut his eyes, trying to for get what he had done. All these years, all this time, he had succeeded in keeping his feelings towards the human girl a secret. The first time he had seen her, she was just a small child with large bright eyes. Those eyes had looked upon him with a strange mixture of pity and fear. She had grown to respect and adore him all of these years…as her protector, nothing more. He felt his throat tighten as anger for what he had done began to overcome him. He also felt a twinge of sorrow. How could she ever know how he truly felt towards her?
She looked up to him as if he was her adopted parent. How many times had he been there to rescue her from the jaws of death? Time and time again she had proven her loyalty to him, no matter the circumstances. In the end, she always returned to him…smiling…lovingly gazing up at him with those brightly shining eyes…
“Lord Sesshomaru!”
And now…he had lost it all. With just one slip of his self-control, she could never be his. He was her “father” and she was his “daughter”. She would never trust him again. Angrily, he squeezed his hand into a fist, piercing the flesh and starting a steady flow of blood. He closed his eyes once more…but he still saw her face, smiling at first…then changing to a mask of fear as he leaned in towards her. A growl rose up from his chest.
This Sesshomaru is truly a fool…
Pain shot up his arm and he looked down, finally realizing the extent of the damage he had caused himself. The dark blood stood out against the pale skin. Sadness overtook him again…he knew what she would do next…she would come to him and state that she did not feel safe with him any longer. She would leave him…alone. Who would protect her then? No one. Because of him, she would never trust another man and in that decision, she would die…because of him…
“Rin…why?”
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Her bare feet padded softly, making not one sound. She held her breath as he came into view. Her hands shook and her heart wavered. Her mouth felt suddenly dry.
Please, do not be angry with me, my lord...
The wind blew against her face, stirring her hair as it passed. When her lord came into view, she stopped. He sat with his back facing her. A wind blew again, ruffling his silver mane. His scent was carried to her on the wind…strong yet comforting. But there was something else with the scent: blood. Her nose was not as good as her lord’s but she could still distinguish the metallic tang of his blood. She saw his hand, now stained a deep red. She knew what had happened…he had been thinking of her and had become so angry, he thrust his own talons into his flesh. Tears stung her eyes, as realization finally sunk in …
He doesn’t love me.
Then she heard him speak, just a quiet whisper,
“Rin…why?”
His words cut into her. Unbearable despair and pain welled up inside her. He couldn’t have hurt her more if he had run her through with Tokijin. A sob caught in her throat. At the sound of her crying, Sesshomaru turned around to face her. Her face was tear-streaked and showed nothing but sadness.
“Rin!”
He hadn’t expected her to confront him so soon. Caught off his guard, he fumbled for something to say to her…but that face had rendered him speechless. To see her in so much pain…and he was the one who caused it.
“I’ll… be leaving… in the morning…”
“You’ll never… have to put up… with me… again.”
Then she left. As silently as she had come. Leaving him behind to blame himself… a single tear fell down his striped cheek.
Rin…Why?
Why do you have to leave me…?