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This drawing was made back in September or August of 2017 as an emotional/depression vent of my emotional pain during a misunderstood bond between me and a certain guy.
When I have a crush on someone, I have a nearly uncontrollable habit of drawing so many pictures inspired by the character or person I have unrequited feelings for as if drawing pictures for someone was the only thing that kept me alive like I was pressured by extortion. I really don't know how to say this in full as of right now, but the pieces of the story between me and this person in question may come to light or may be told in the context of my stories and art.

When I make art, it's like I used a piece of my soul to make the good art i make and I receive what of the piece I got back. If i tore up and destroyed the drawings, more used pieces are returned to me and I feel satisfied and clear-minded. But if just crumpled up and thrown away, that doesn't happen and I have feelings of regret (Ex. A drawing of one of my dragon ocs named Pattern). But sometimes, when I use part of my soul to make art for someone special to my heart, the pieces used are not returned at all.

Those who have been following me since the beginning of DeviantArt would know the dragon standing on the right.

Oh, and before you say that the new design looks like Nina from ShaloneSK, I am aware, but I swear that my character was not intended to look like her, so to separate the color palette to prevent any drama of this, I made this character's colors darker and the eyes more purple with a dark colored crest, dark purple wing web, and a dark colored stripe running from her nose down to her tail. And yes, I still haven't chose an official final color palette for Rayana. It's been years and I still haven't make up my mind at all and with color palette to choose for her...

Description
This drawing was made back in September or August of 2017 as an emotional/depression vent of my emotional pain during a misunderstood bond between me and a certain guy.
When I have a crush on someone, I have a nearly uncontrollable habit of drawing so many pictures inspired by the character or person I have unrequited feelings for as if drawing pictures for someone was the only thing that kept me alive like I was pressured by extortion. I really don't know how to say this in full as of right now, but the pieces of the story between me and this person in question may come to light or may be told in the context of my stories and art.

When I make art, it's like I used a piece of my soul to make the good art i make and I receive what of the piece I got back. If i tore up and destroyed the drawings, more used pieces are returned to me and I feel satisfied and clear-minded. But if just crumpled up and thrown away, that doesn't happen and I have feelings of regret (Ex. A drawing of one of my dragon ocs named Pattern). But sometimes, when I use part of my soul to make art for someone special to my heart, the pieces used are not returned at all.

Those who have been following me since the beginning of DeviantArt would know the dragon standing on the right.

Oh, and before you say that the new design looks like Nina from ShaloneSK, I am aware, but I swear that my character was not intended to look like her, so to separate the color palette to prevent any drama of this, I made this character's colors darker and the eyes more purple with a dark colored crest, dark purple wing web, and a dark colored stripe running from her nose down to her tail. And yes, I still haven't chose an official final color palette for Rayana. It's been years and I still haven't make up my mind at all and with color palette to choose for her...