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Who am I?
She'd felt lost, not just because she lost Falcon. She was lost from the day of the Calamity. She lost her mother, her mind, her soul. Cleansed by fire, she awoke in a new world on a new path, but still so lost. Everything was different, and she didn't know who she was. She didn't really need to know, she just had to push forward. But with a broken soul and a looser grip on who she was, she found herself faced with the question, forcing herself to search for an answer in her own rippling reflection.
I am...
Vashti stared at her reflection, a wave of thoughts flowing through her mind. Doubts and imperfections. She refused to give them a voice.
I am kind.
Yes, I'm kind. I care about others. I give them my time. I like to uplift them.
I am kind. And supportive.
I listen, and I stay steady, at least I try to. But that counts... for something. It's hard, hard to make new friends, to find a new family. I lost everything, but I'm still trying. Still supporting others. Still helping.
I am kind, supportive, and hopeful.
Hope, it's not easy to come by. I almost lost all hope at the Spire, but I didn't. I made it back. And I keep fighting. Despite my doubts, I still believe in a future, a future worth fighting for. That's why I won't stop fighting.
She looked into the water, struggling to think of much else. There was more to her than that, of course there was. A flood of insignificant qualities, good and bad. All the things she'd said and done... all the things she hadn't. They were hard to make sense of, she wanted to recoil, to let the subject be.
Her reflection stared back at her, she was sad. She needed help. The reality sunk in. Vashti couldn't be there for others, if she was not first there for herself.
With more time on her paws than she cared for, she could take the time she needed to discover herself, the good, and the bad. She needed to walk a path of self improvement, forgive herself, and support herself to learn from this and grow beyond it.
Soul Fever Severity 2: 5/10
- 1. Mentally replay the familiar's death.
- 2. Accept the familiar's death.
- 3. Meditate on the values the familiar embodied.
- 4. Meditate on how the familiar helped you grow.
- 5. Discover aspects of yourself that remain.
- 6. Use those aspects to complete a task or help another Havener.
- 7. Explore and develop a value, emotion, or characteristic that was not lost.
- 8. Reflect on what you learned as a result of the familiar's death.
- 9. Make and commit to a promise, whether to another Havener or yourself.
- 10. Resolve to let go of the familiar or await its return.
