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A shattered mirror, a hopeless dream, crushed and empty beyond my means. Torn into a million pieces like confetti, I reassemble them with an angel. Black as coal describes my pain endearing eyes. Never seen what I have seen, lucky you are. In your perfect world that you throw around so happily. Never shedding a tear after a loved one dies, never losing your mind after constant failure. My blood is driven to destroy the very core of my existence. It is colder than my beating heart, if you could imagine.

I can imagine and I will imagine, the images driving my brain to insanity, the depths of my heart screaming profanity. You are broken but I am not. I hold the key to make you whole. I've seen the world through your eyes, and it is a frightful place. If it were but a race, you'd be losing, but this training has made you strong, and you can get through this. I will help you. I will cut the wires in your self-destruct mechanism.

I feel as if everything falls into place only when it wants to. I'd like to dance with the devil and see what is up his sleeves for me. If he were real. My skin feels cold and scribbled out into dead cells left alone to die hopelessly. Wait, that's me. To be within this abyss of darkness, you'd have to read my eyes. My cry for help has been answered by but only one person. Not god. You. Who has saved me from my own damned soul.

Oh, but you are wrong. The devil is real and he lives within us all, our damned souls. You're not the only one with which the devil is having fun. Your skin is cold like all hearts on earth, and few mortals die alone. There's always something out there dying at the same time. Look at the Maths. The Maths is everything and no one can escape it. You can escape maths like you can escape a black hole: You can't. But I'll tie you to the planets of a red dwarf; a star which will never go out or explode. At least, not until the end of the universe. We will be safe and we will have freedom.

Despite all my flaws? I can't even do the right thing when it comes to my thoughts. They control everything I do; from the piercing of my skin to the flashbacks of pain. I've contributed plenty of pain to humanity. I'm only human, but I'm also insane. I don't need a label for who I am, just know my flaws aren't the best side of me. I have different sides and you've seen them all. I run to you for closure and comfort when I feel those drops of liquid flee my eyes. Never leaving this state of mind, but slipping away into your care. Tie me down, chain me, do whatever it takes, just don't let me slip away.

I could never chain you like the others. I'll instead hold you above me, away from the suffering. I'll never let you fall, listen to your every words, keep you high up out of harm's way. This could go for eons, and you're worth it, my God you're worth it. Your flaws are far less than most humans', and the fact that you can see them makes it negligible. And by saving you, I have something to cling to. Don't worry about me. I will be fine, so long as we are together.

You are the light I've been waiting for. You are the promise that I will keep. As long as you're here, I will be alive. My words will ring true into your ears. I'll never fall to deceitful terms. Nor will I leave you. You are something better. Better than I could ever imagine. Strings tied together, promises broken, hearts torn. I won't let this happen. For as long as I'm breathing, I'll be reminded of how you awakened me, the dead. Trashed and maybe scattered at times, we'll always find a way through.

So long as we're together, the world will be cupped in our palms. For as long as we're together, there'll be an oasis of calm.

And we will become love.
And we will be free.

Description
A shattered mirror, a hopeless dream, crushed and empty beyond my means. Torn into a million pieces like confetti, I reassemble them with an angel. Black as coal describes my pain endearing eyes. Never seen what I have seen, lucky you are. In your perfect world that you throw around so happily. Never shedding a tear after a loved one dies, never losing your mind after constant failure. My blood is driven to destroy the very core of my existence. It is colder than my beating heart, if you could imagine.

I can imagine and I will imagine, the images driving my brain to insanity, the depths of my heart screaming profanity. You are broken but I am not. I hold the key to make you whole. I've seen the world through your eyes, and it is a frightful place. If it were but a race, you'd be losing, but this training has made you strong, and you can get through this. I will help you. I will cut the wires in your self-destruct mechanism.

I feel as if everything falls into place only when it wants to. I'd like to dance with the devil and see what is up his sleeves for me. If he were real. My skin feels cold and scribbled out into dead cells left alone to die hopelessly. Wait, that's me. To be within this abyss of darkness, you'd have to read my eyes. My cry for help has been answered by but only one person. Not god. You. Who has saved me from my own damned soul.

Oh, but you are wrong. The devil is real and he lives within us all, our damned souls. You're not the only one with which the devil is having fun. Your skin is cold like all hearts on earth, and few mortals die alone. There's always something out there dying at the same time. Look at the Maths. The Maths is everything and no one can escape it. You can escape maths like you can escape a black hole: You can't. But I'll tie you to the planets of a red dwarf; a star which will never go out or explode. At least, not until the end of the universe. We will be safe and we will have freedom.

Despite all my flaws? I can't even do the right thing when it comes to my thoughts. They control everything I do; from the piercing of my skin to the flashbacks of pain. I've contributed plenty of pain to humanity. I'm only human, but I'm also insane. I don't need a label for who I am, just know my flaws aren't the best side of me. I have different sides and you've seen them all. I run to you for closure and comfort when I feel those drops of liquid flee my eyes. Never leaving this state of mind, but slipping away into your care. Tie me down, chain me, do whatever it takes, just don't let me slip away.

I could never chain you like the others. I'll instead hold you above me, away from the suffering. I'll never let you fall, listen to your every words, keep you high up out of harm's way. This could go for eons, and you're worth it, my God you're worth it. Your flaws are far less than most humans', and the fact that you can see them makes it negligible. And by saving you, I have something to cling to. Don't worry about me. I will be fine, so long as we are together.

You are the light I've been waiting for. You are the promise that I will keep. As long as you're here, I will be alive. My words will ring true into your ears. I'll never fall to deceitful terms. Nor will I leave you. You are something better. Better than I could ever imagine. Strings tied together, promises broken, hearts torn. I won't let this happen. For as long as I'm breathing, I'll be reminded of how you awakened me, the dead. Trashed and maybe scattered at times, we'll always find a way through.

So long as we're together, the world will be cupped in our palms. For as long as we're together, there'll be an oasis of calm.

And we will become love.
And we will be free.