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Murdx — Too Far
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Published: 2013-04-23 00:53:05 +0000 UTC; Views: 1500; Favourites: 104; Downloads: 12
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Sometimes it does feel like it. Like if my heart just popped out of my chest and I can't move, or do anything to reach it.Relationship problems? No, no. In that I'm happy. And I don't want my boyfriend to feel bad about this.
Here in this picture, my heart is representing Portugal. That's my country. That's where I was born, where I grew up, where I have my family and friends, where we speak my language, where we do what I was taught to, where I truly belong and was happy. I'm currently in France, at first I thought it was so cool to live in a foreign country. But the time passed, and I was never so tired. I'm tired of have to constantly hide my face in public, in being in a dark corner in school, In being the shy girl who everybody in school points at because I'm too quiet. I hide myself because I just don't feel right. I feel a bit too much, like if I was a black dot in a blank screen...I don't know. Which in my country was different.
Since I came to France, I started using the internet quite alot more than I used to. I came to DA and other social medias. Because I know there are other people in the same situation, or that can understand and hear me. Well yeah, I was on DA much before this, but still..
I wanted to meet people who would at least for some hours, get my sadness away. Since my cousin, who's my best friend can't be around and doesn't have internet.
I did find, amazing friends whom I'm so proud to have met them.
But there's always this one thing, that keeps bugging me. I go to sleep in hopes for the next day to wake up in my house in Portugal, but I keep getting dissapointed. I know Portugal might be in a shitty situation now, but still. I was born there, I wanna die there when it comes my time. :c
This is a long description for nothing so I'll just leave the song I've been listening to [link]
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When it hits, home-sickness can be extremely hard to cope with. Your loved ones, home, and charished memories are seemingly torn away from you and everything you have lived. You feel alone, shunned, pushed down, and beaten. You feel the humiliation of difference and begin to wonder what the point in leaving ever was. But, there is always a way to get past that. You must realise that you are here not to leave the ones you love, but to return to them with stories to tell and more people to love in your life. You will always have the memories of the past, but you shouldn't STAY in the past. Think of the future and the adventures it holds. Hold the memories you have close to your heart, remember that your friends and family will always be with you in spirit and be by your side, and just remember that just because you aren't near those that you are familiar with, you will always have the future and the hope of returning one day to tell of what you have done. You must not let things like this hold you back in life. Instead, use these problems to your advantage an have them act as inspiration to keep going forward.
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I understand the problems you're having. When I was away from my area for a long while I missed everything :c
Hope things get better for you c: This was very deep to read and I've never seen anyone with a heart right here <3 I know this is really late too but I still hope things are okay
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Hey.. I had the same problems some time ago.
Well, i didnt move or anything, but i was the shy girl and nobody quite wanted to even talk to me either.
And my friends were being mean to me or ignored me too.
But you should try to live happily, and people will come to you, talk with you.
Hey.. i hope you'll feel better..
If you want to talk to anyone, im here for chu
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I'm feeling sorry for you, I know that it must be hard for you, to never see your family and friends so much. When I'm allowed to ask this, are you in france for study or something like that?
But I hope you will be alright soon.
And I understand your current situation, got that too, I'm also very shy to everything, in school or with strangers.
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I read your description, it was anything but nothing...
I can actually relate to your story about the situation at school and being on the internet for quite some time. Being the outcast in public unlike the rest. Also I depend on the internet so I am not completely isolated from people and can make great friends. ;~;
Unfortunately, (as of missing your home country) I can only offer little help to you compensate you for this. The only potential chance I think I can make you wipe out your sadness is to make you laugh, since as people say laughter is the best medicine. c:
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Awh... I'm sorry...
If I was in your situation, I'd be homesick too. u . u
I wish I could do something to make you feel better..
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That was pretty insightful and also amazing at the same time Taunty,I used to live in New York about a couple years back but sometimes I feel kinda homesick and I wanna go back there soon even though things where I used to live are as bad as it was before I still want to go and see everything that was there and what used to be there
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I just literally cried.. ;A;
This is so touching taunty.. ;A;
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