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/huggles/ you aren't.Β
but i know that feel
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yeah i just really hope to improve...
i wish i could take some art classes that are one on one
but i definitely can't afford that OTL
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ah same... ;3; Don't worry~ improvement always comes slow..
we all just gotta keep practicing <3
(although for me i've already given up being an artist XD
the med road is the road for me!)
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yup yup~
and d'aww xD but that seems pretty cool >v<
i'm so focused on being an artist, it's the only thing i want to do with my life ;w;
i've never thought about any other job... none would be right for me
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aww~ i sort of feel you... I was like that too when I was smaller ;3;
I guess I'm just mainly afraid and under pressure from high expectations haha
(my family are all into med)
being an artist is just so risky these days... sniff
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yeah i know Q-Q my mom went to school for graphic design
( because the artistic ability and musical ability runs in my family )
and the only jobs available were in the city, at the time my brother was a
baby ( like 23-25 years ago pfft ) so of course she couldn't move being a single mom >.<
and when you start out, the lack of experience calls for less pay ; 7;
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;A; man that sounds tough
it hurts me so much when i see those city street artists (i lived by NY for some time)
who had so much talent but looked like beggars...
but thats interesting how your family are all towards music and art!
I feel like mine does too..but we never made it into our jobs...hrmmm
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yeah i know ;-; so many incredibly talented people are on the streets
because there aren't enough jobs out there anymore...
yeah... i feel bad for my brother though, he didn't get either of the talents ; 7;
he's just good with kids XD
and OMG dude i just looked at your art why are you even talking to meeeeee it's so beautiful QAQ <3333
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haha thats good too! I'm so awkward around kids lol
does he teach now?
and waahh you stalker haha jk
lol ty! XD
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no he's a daycare worker but he wants to be a preschool teacher
you're welcome >v<
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eee well good luck to both of you ;3;
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thanks good luck to you too for well whatever XD
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because there's always this beautiful art and it kinda puts me in a bad place in my mind
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Hmmm, but your work seems quite nice...
Surely you know that you can't force art, I understand that feeling that you don't do enough, but at the same time it's important to remember that you do what you do (but only when you do it).Β
So cheer up XD
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yeah XD i mean, i'm fine right now
but i just have those moments some days where i feel like i'm not trying hard enough to get to where i want to be
but i know i have improved a lot during my first year on DA which gives me hope for the future improvement to come~
some people are just slow on progression and i'm one of them XD
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Let me put this in perspective, I more or less founded the creative writing community that I actually designed this DA account for...
As of now, the community is officially dead and I'm planning on changing my profile and submissions to reflect that; The community died because we all sort of fell out with the world we were trying to bring fourth, we had put in such love and had been planning for over a year, we just couldn't finish all the necessary writing in the face of fatigue and soΒ few new members...
I am VERY familiar with the feeling of just not being able to do enough
...you're not that slow if you've progressed so much in one year, there is no community for you to support, there is no necessary end goal, just always stay focused on your potential! ^_^
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omg that's awful i'm sorry D:
and i will thank you for the encouragement >v< <3
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Thanks, I beat myself up over it thinking i could of just pushed a little harder...
...but when I was writing on the forum and no one was responding anymore, what could i have done? Harass them on skype?
I sat on the original Holders forum (which I didn't start) for a month alone before getting enough people to begin the new community, we planned, wrote, talked and built our group for a full year before moving to our own brand new site; Then it just...sort of...ended...
I hold out hope we can bring it back, but without a guarantee I'm left with broken pieces to begin working on a new writing project.
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yeah, it's sad to say it but not many people really appreciate that stuff anymore like they used to Q-Q it's sad to see something die out honestly
it's kinda like... watching an endangered species get wiped out with a bomb or something
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Well, the thing about these communities is some work well and some die quickly...
Fear Mythos is still doing well, but a friend of mine who broke off from it to start her own has left her forum becuase she feels she failed it. I'm considering trying to help her re-start her own as a joint effort, but i'd hate to see it just crash the same way.
The truth is, we learn so much from it either way...
Chaos flows, though we do not always know how.Β
If we did not try, fail and restart...we'd never find the one that worked
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we would probably all be caveman still if we didn't try fail or restart xD
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All things follow the path chaos lays out for them, it's why we must have faith...wherever that faith may lie...
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wow it's like 5:43 am for me, and i've been up all night...
my brain hasn't crashed from what you said ( since i normally wouldn't understand ) so i'm shocked at myself <_<
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Same timezone, I need to sleep as I volunteer at the fish hatchery tomorrow afternoon and then have to go to work in the evening...
Too bad i didn't find you sooner, but of course i'll be here after work to chat if you're around; You don't give yourself enough credit, we'll keep in touch and you'll see what i mean
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d'aww little fishies <333
sure i'll be here ( i usually wake up around like 2 pm ._. )
and for the rest of the day i'm on XD i need to change my sleeping schedule
but okay ~ have a good night/morning c:
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do you not go to school? XD
I might message you in the afternoon before I go, and yes, I love the hatchery; It's sort of an extra for me.
Volunteering is my passion, and I'm so lucky that most of the volunteer I do is in my field (I do the same job I get paid for, for free, when event organizers can't pay someone...i'm blessed to do so)
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um no sadly i got bullied so badly throughout all the years i mentally was crashing because of it...
i'm going to start homeschooling instead :3
sounds pretty cool
wow you are lucky.
i've been thinking of becoming a volunteer for a daycare and or animal shelters next year
i really love helping out and making a difference ( even if it is a small one ) i just want to do something meaningful with my life basically
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I volunteered with a private cat shelter a few years back when I was unemployed , one of the best experiences in my life.
Homeschooling sounds interesting, i'm sorry it took something so awful to put you there though, as always we must accept that all things happen simply because they do...and if we were to change the things we hate most about yesterday, we'd lose the things we'll love most tomorrow.
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aww that sounds like it was great
yeah, life is basically just a give and take for me, but i'm fine with that
what happens happens and once something is done ( for the most part )
there's nothing anyone can do to change it
at least that's my view on life
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...which is why I try to promote taking that to the next step
It's one thing to say "man, that sucked but now I'm powerless" and it's another to say "man, that was a terrible event...but now it's up to me to use it to make something"
I'll give you an example, do you know what I do when I have a terrible day? The sort of day where I'm sad, angry or tired?
I do something...anything...I write, learn a recipe, practice something new in origami, meet a new friend online, find a new band to listen to, buy a new comic or pack of Magic cards (i'm a geek), bascially I do ANYTHING that will last longer then the bad day.
This way, whenever I think back to the day or look at what I have done (no matter how small) I can remind myself "without that bad day, I wouldn't have this".
Thus every bad day has given me something to keep, and a perfect life would of left me with less.
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....
you blew my mind again
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Here, I was literally crying at 3 in the morning one day and couldn't sleep...I wanted to...but I was just so broken about my...life...
I just wrote this
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I wouldn't change that night for anything
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jeez that made me tear up.. Q-Q
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...exactly
I have that forever, and it has since inspired another piece that I never posted.
Even a night spent crying alone will never go to waste if we have faith in chaos, guiding each and every event to inspire the next as we build a path out of hopes, fears, dreams and tears. If you're interested in chaos philosophy, be sure to check "Twixt Faith in Fate and Chaos" (another shameless plug, i'm terrible for this)
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i'm going to read everything you've posted.
it's all too good to pass up
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well, the earlier stuff isn't quite so much...it was a bit more "poetic" with less of a point. I'm going to be focusing on writing more in the near future as I begin to change around my profile...
However feel free to look through my stories and mourn the loss of a great community if you wish XD
Thank you for your support, btw, i love knowing people appreciate what i try to do here
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Home from volunteer, about to head off to work, just thought I'd send you a message and say hi ^^
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I hope the day is going well
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yup it's going just fine so far ! :3
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How did it go in the end? XD
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good xD a little boring but good
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you literally respond instantly XD
I'm here now, so we can talk!
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yup xD i have nothing exciting going on in life lol
awesome >v<
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then make something exciting =O
...go for a walk? XD
I'll be on in a minute, let me put my groceries away first ^^
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idk how to o;
it's 11 pm XD yeah i'll take a walk alone and get abducted or something
kay x3
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