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Had a pretty shit day at school today and my carelessness got out of control and ended up getting in trouble for it. I didn't really mind it until the teacher told my brother ((cause mom is away rn)) and my heart just sank. I knew she told him as soon as they both went out back. Now I feel terrible and I feel like i disappointed him and the teachers. Now I'm terrified mom will find out. As of right now fear and aching sadness has replaced all of my emotions so all I can do is fake a smile, act like everything is ok and like nothing ever happened. I just feel like all color has been drained from me so I'll just dye it on or color it on with a crayon.

I hate myself so much

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Had a pretty shit day at school today and my carelessness got out of control and ended up getting in trouble for it. I didn't really mind it until the teacher told my brother ((cause mom is away rn)) and my heart just sank. I knew she told him as soon as they both went out back. Now I feel terrible and I feel like i disappointed him and the teachers. Now I'm terrified mom will find out. As of right now fear and aching sadness has replaced all of my emotions so all I can do is fake a smile, act like everything is ok and like nothing ever happened. I just feel like all color has been drained from me so I'll just dye it on or color it on with a crayon.

I hate myself so much