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This is a contest entry for Clip studio paint’s 35th anniversary with the theme of magic.

While many of the entries were upbeat and whimsical, lately things for me have been stressful and difficult with my horizons looking darker than normal but there is light beyond the storm I just have to get past the craziness of everything that’s going on but regardless this piece came to me when I finally just stopped trying to fake it through the mess of everything. Which if I’m being honest magic is many things and I think I took a more philosophical approach to this piece, many interpret magic as whimsical feats beyond human comprehension but in light of the darkness I’ve faced throughout my life magic to me has always been an escape, my special getaway from the hurt and trouble of daily life. I had stepped away from magic for sometime due to a toxic friendship I had that kept restricting my creativity and so for a few years I tried to live within these neat confines set up by this “friend”. In the end all it did was hurt me, I put myself in a smaller box than the one I was originally set in so this contest is one of my steps to officially returning to magic and fantasy settings (the other step will be revealed soon within a few weeks or so but for now is a secret ) anyway enough of this rant…it doesn’t really matter in the end but submitting this piece and just making it in general I feel is like gaining my confidence back, returning to a realm I closed off to myself, I still struggle with ideas thanks to the impossible bar that was originally placed above my head to explain every little detail With impeccable realism but slowly I’m learning to let go it’s just hard on some days but now I can heal. To anyone who actually read this thanks for just reading it, didn’t initially intend to rant/vent but lately the world to me has been spinning while I stand frozen in place waiting to be swept up by the inevitable storm so it sorta just came out here anyway hope everyone is having a good day and doing well! ^^
PS yep I changed my online name so my instagram tag will be recreated as a watermark soon, for now though that’s what I have. Feel free to check out the Instagram page but be warned a lot of my WAY older art is there to haunt you but I struggle to get rid of them because I like seeing where I started to where I am now UuU

Description
This is a contest entry for Clip studio paint’s 35th anniversary with the theme of magic.

While many of the entries were upbeat and whimsical, lately things for me have been stressful and difficult with my horizons looking darker than normal but there is light beyond the storm I just have to get past the craziness of everything that’s going on but regardless this piece came to me when I finally just stopped trying to fake it through the mess of everything. Which if I’m being honest magic is many things and I think I took a more philosophical approach to this piece, many interpret magic as whimsical feats beyond human comprehension but in light of the darkness I’ve faced throughout my life magic to me has always been an escape, my special getaway from the hurt and trouble of daily life. I had stepped away from magic for sometime due to a toxic friendship I had that kept restricting my creativity and so for a few years I tried to live within these neat confines set up by this “friend”. In the end all it did was hurt me, I put myself in a smaller box than the one I was originally set in so this contest is one of my steps to officially returning to magic and fantasy settings (the other step will be revealed soon within a few weeks or so but for now is a secret ) anyway enough of this rant…it doesn’t really matter in the end but submitting this piece and just making it in general I feel is like gaining my confidence back, returning to a realm I closed off to myself, I still struggle with ideas thanks to the impossible bar that was originally placed above my head to explain every little detail With impeccable realism but slowly I’m learning to let go it’s just hard on some days but now I can heal. To anyone who actually read this thanks for just reading it, didn’t initially intend to rant/vent but lately the world to me has been spinning while I stand frozen in place waiting to be swept up by the inevitable storm so it sorta just came out here anyway hope everyone is having a good day and doing well! ^^
PS yep I changed my online name so my instagram tag will be recreated as a watermark soon, for now though that’s what I have. Feel free to check out the Instagram page but be warned a lot of my WAY older art is there to haunt you but I struggle to get rid of them because I like seeing where I started to where I am now UuU