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I am a FUCK-UP,
a WASTE of space,
a worthless FAILURE
hiding away in this husk of flesh I am CURSED to.
I am forever labelled as "legally INSANE."
I SUFFER from multiple mental disorders.
(Severe Depression
Chronic Anxiety
Acute Insomnia
Chronic Schizophrenia
Bipolar Personality Disorder
Borderline Personality Disorder)
These disorders have TORTURED me for nearly six years.
Pathetically enough, I've recently discovered that all the
aforementioned problems I've suffered since
childhood were developed from FALSE memories which have
haunted me for as long as my memory holds.
On top of that, I've suffered three abusive relationships,
the last one being the most damaging,
and because of that,
I have developed an IRRATIONAL fear of "letting people in"
and "getting close" to others.
So I keep my problems from my friends, and the things I
tell people are either PARTIAL in truth or complete LIES.
I am HIDEOUS, disgustingly SKINNY, a smoking ADDICT, an ALCOHOLIC,
a pot head, a BINGE-eater, a PURGER, a PSYCHOPATH, and a ruminator to top it off.
I SELF-HARM on a weekly basis and, though
I enjoy the CUTS when they're made,
the SCARS they leave REPULSE me.
I am eighteen years old and, though
I was NEVER truly here,
(hopefully) soon I will DISAPPEAR.