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To my watchersHi everyone, ik most of you won't read this as from what I've seen all people care about is when they see a render, however if you just happen to read this please know it is about my renders.I'm not ok, I'm burnt out.I have no ideas and life is starting to catch up to me with exams, personal issues etc.I'm not saying I'm quitting, I may start uploading less however, I love what I do (mostly) it's just at the moment I'm not always gonna be uploading daily like I had been doing at some point as I've been struggling to sleep and have been very easily irritable, a post I made a few days ago had me pissed off at deviantart's algorithm for treating me like piss when everyone else got 50+ favourites, I'm sorry to the person I lashed out at too, I feel like a dick for it because I knew you were just "playing along" although please understand that not everything is a jokeI make a minecraft resource pack and I am thinking of possibly continuing its development soon, which will be on my server and early versions (that aren't really intended for survival more just if you want to see and try it out) will be unlockable with my subscription on my da account, its only $1 (which for me irl would probably be the price of a chocolate bar in a shop lol, probably wouldn't use it for smth like that tho)Here's some screenshots:,,,,,On another topic, there's something I struggle with that I haven't told anyone really other than a couple: gender. I'm still trying to find out who I am, at times I've seen myself as non-binary but now I wish I was born the opposite gender, I'm biologically male. An issue that comes with this is the fact that I live in a VERY homophobic/transphobic place which often forces its ideology onto my generation, which includes me and very much me, I have 2 sides to who I am on and offline and I am really disliked offline due to my unique personality, truth is not being a dick is hated by many people, surprisingly.I love my watchers and anyone who genuinely cares about my health, without all of you I dunno where I'd be today, I'd still be struggling way more.Thank you for reading this, as I was writing I felt a lot less pressure, everyone who makes art is a human, including me, I've struggled a lot for many of my years alive too, despite there not being a ton.,To everyone who supports me no matter what :)Once again, I'm not quitting, just remember thatttt, tysm

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To my watchersHi everyone, ik most of you won't read this as from what I've seen all people care about is when they see a render, however if you just happen to read this please know it is about my renders.I'm not ok, I'm burnt out.I have no ideas and life is starting to catch up to me with exams, personal issues etc.I'm not saying I'm quitting, I may start uploading less however, I love what I do (mostly) it's just at the moment I'm not always gonna be uploading daily like I had been doing at some point as I've been struggling to sleep and have been very easily irritable, a post I made a few days ago had me pissed off at deviantart's algorithm for treating me like piss when everyone else got 50+ favourites, I'm sorry to the person I lashed out at too, I feel like a dick for it because I knew you were just "playing along" although please understand that not everything is a jokeI make a minecraft resource pack and I am thinking of possibly continuing its development soon, which will be on my server and early versions (that aren't really intended for survival more just if you want to see and try it out) will be unlockable with my subscription on my da account, its only $1 (which for me irl would probably be the price of a chocolate bar in a shop lol, probably wouldn't use it for smth like that tho)Here's some screenshots:,,,,,On another topic, there's something I struggle with that I haven't told anyone really other than a couple: gender. I'm still trying to find out who I am, at times I've seen myself as non-binary but now I wish I was born the opposite gender, I'm biologically male. An issue that comes with this is the fact that I live in a VERY homophobic/transphobic place which often forces its ideology onto my generation, which includes me and very much me, I have 2 sides to who I am on and offline and I am really disliked offline due to my unique personality, truth is not being a dick is hated by many people, surprisingly.I love my watchers and anyone who genuinely cares about my health, without all of you I dunno where I'd be today, I'd still be struggling way more.Thank you for reading this, as I was writing I felt a lot less pressure, everyone who makes art is a human, including me, I've struggled a lot for many of my years alive too, despite there not being a ton.,To everyone who supports me no matter what :)Once again, I'm not quitting, just remember thatttt, tysm