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“We went out for dinner again. Dinner at TGIFriday’s again. She wanted to bring her friend again, the friend that I know has a crush on her. They always seem to have a fun time whenever they are around. It’s amusing to watch them laugh and make insider jokes to each other. They have a lot of interesting topic to talk about, most of them I’m not even familiar with. I didn’t complain at all. I just wanted to be in a social group from time to time.

“ They continue to chat throughout dinner time. I remained quiet, almost a bit distant. I just nosh on some of the appetizer nachos as we wait for the main coarse. They drink and laugh and fool around. I remain still and quiet, almost like a fly on the wall. They know that I’m there with them, but I mostly look at myself as the small break in the conversation or if one of them goes to the bathroom and the other talks to me for a while.

“ I really don’t know what to say in their conversations since they have a longer friendship history than I do with my friend. I feel like if I say anything out of context, I would look like an idiot, or like a small baby bird trying to chirp in a group of older birds.

I just wait until dinner is done and I will pay the check…”

Table for Two © 2010 Alex Cockburn

Description
“We went out for dinner again. Dinner at TGIFriday’s again. She wanted to bring her friend again, the friend that I know has a crush on her. They always seem to have a fun time whenever they are around. It’s amusing to watch them laugh and make insider jokes to each other. They have a lot of interesting topic to talk about, most of them I’m not even familiar with. I didn’t complain at all. I just wanted to be in a social group from time to time.

“ They continue to chat throughout dinner time. I remained quiet, almost a bit distant. I just nosh on some of the appetizer nachos as we wait for the main coarse. They drink and laugh and fool around. I remain still and quiet, almost like a fly on the wall. They know that I’m there with them, but I mostly look at myself as the small break in the conversation or if one of them goes to the bathroom and the other talks to me for a while.

“ I really don’t know what to say in their conversations since they have a longer friendship history than I do with my friend. I feel like if I say anything out of context, I would look like an idiot, or like a small baby bird trying to chirp in a group of older birds.

I just wait until dinner is done and I will pay the check…”

Table for Two © 2010 Alex Cockburn