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It's wild how time seems to go by so fast - I say that because I thought I've only dated my boyfriend for 3 months but turns out it's been 6 months, so I'm very excited about our first year anniversary!

The project has set me back by a lot and university required us to do more work on top of that - normally formatting and being organized but it should have been considered at the start or something we should have done from the start rather than in the second term with formative and summative assessments arriving :s but whatever. At least I'll be able to fill up my portfolio with some more bullshit I've learned from outside of my course and whatever is relevant to fill the space. Grading hasn't been what I expected and so I'm aiming really high as my standard so I won't have to worry about failing if I'm trying to get everything done - does that make sense? Or at least it makes sense for me that if one aims to achieve for the highest grade, they will most likely pass and not fail because even the basic requirements are set in getting the highest grade. I don't know.

It does actually feel like that I'm behind by a LOT of work, partly due to me finishing a project ASAP and I was struggling to concentrate for a while - this module is relatively boring but I guess I don't have to work in a group anymore and there's a lot of freedom for now so maybe I should value this time.

There's still a lot of things that I personally disagree with between how we're being taught and marked. There was a task when we had to explore re-branding because it's supposed to go into our portfolio of our own branding... but my argument is that if, in the end, we are presenting our own branding - then what's the point of exploring another brand and re-branding them? I think it's only needed if it does benefit the individual but it doesn't feel very beneficial for me, personally. I think it might be because I've wanted to open my own business anyway and I've really grown to love myself lately so I know what branding I want to do.

The other thing is that it feels like we're carrying too many objectives in these modules, even though this term is 12 weeks long. Not only are we formatting huge amount of work portfolios for each modules, we're also working on a set of briefs while trying to make a name for ourselves. Like I've said earlier, we have to look into re-branding a company/business but we're also working on our own branding and campaigns so it feels like a lot to juggle right now.

I also find that when one is overloaded with work, it seems like we lose the motivation to do anything. I find that has happened with me and the only determination/motivation I had was working on my own hobbies - maybe I'm just not finding this term particularly fun but at least 4 weeks have already gone by, meaning there's 8 weeks left and they're looking into easing lockdown... the downside is that I still don't want to attend university because I like to save my own money when I can but I guess it makes it less worrying to be outside and travelling. Although I much rather have a longer lockdown and shut everything off rather than easing in and out of restrictions little by little but whatever, I guess.

Hopefully I can spend the summer with my baby and then we can finally go to the music store so we can buy some instruments <3 I haven't been working on my music for a while and I'm considering re-writing that same album again because there were a few songs that I wasn't satisfied with but at the same time, I don't like putting pressure on myself so I'm just stuck in between wanting to make music and trying not to force myself to be musical.

I'm going to really work hard and crack on with university work until I'm up to date. I feel like I don't have enough time or attention to devote into lectures because I just really want to get everything updated and expand on my portfolio a little more so I'll attend lectures but not participate this week. A shame how much mental health has set me back, if that makes sense.

Description
It's wild how time seems to go by so fast - I say that because I thought I've only dated my boyfriend for 3 months but turns out it's been 6 months, so I'm very excited about our first year anniversary!

The project has set me back by a lot and university required us to do more work on top of that - normally formatting and being organized but it should have been considered at the start or something we should have done from the start rather than in the second term with formative and summative assessments arriving :s but whatever. At least I'll be able to fill up my portfolio with some more bullshit I've learned from outside of my course and whatever is relevant to fill the space. Grading hasn't been what I expected and so I'm aiming really high as my standard so I won't have to worry about failing if I'm trying to get everything done - does that make sense? Or at least it makes sense for me that if one aims to achieve for the highest grade, they will most likely pass and not fail because even the basic requirements are set in getting the highest grade. I don't know.

It does actually feel like that I'm behind by a LOT of work, partly due to me finishing a project ASAP and I was struggling to concentrate for a while - this module is relatively boring but I guess I don't have to work in a group anymore and there's a lot of freedom for now so maybe I should value this time.

There's still a lot of things that I personally disagree with between how we're being taught and marked. There was a task when we had to explore re-branding because it's supposed to go into our portfolio of our own branding... but my argument is that if, in the end, we are presenting our own branding - then what's the point of exploring another brand and re-branding them? I think it's only needed if it does benefit the individual but it doesn't feel very beneficial for me, personally. I think it might be because I've wanted to open my own business anyway and I've really grown to love myself lately so I know what branding I want to do.

The other thing is that it feels like we're carrying too many objectives in these modules, even though this term is 12 weeks long. Not only are we formatting huge amount of work portfolios for each modules, we're also working on a set of briefs while trying to make a name for ourselves. Like I've said earlier, we have to look into re-branding a company/business but we're also working on our own branding and campaigns so it feels like a lot to juggle right now.

I also find that when one is overloaded with work, it seems like we lose the motivation to do anything. I find that has happened with me and the only determination/motivation I had was working on my own hobbies - maybe I'm just not finding this term particularly fun but at least 4 weeks have already gone by, meaning there's 8 weeks left and they're looking into easing lockdown... the downside is that I still don't want to attend university because I like to save my own money when I can but I guess it makes it less worrying to be outside and travelling. Although I much rather have a longer lockdown and shut everything off rather than easing in and out of restrictions little by little but whatever, I guess.

Hopefully I can spend the summer with my baby and then we can finally go to the music store so we can buy some instruments <3 I haven't been working on my music for a while and I'm considering re-writing that same album again because there were a few songs that I wasn't satisfied with but at the same time, I don't like putting pressure on myself so I'm just stuck in between wanting to make music and trying not to force myself to be musical.

I'm going to really work hard and crack on with university work until I'm up to date. I feel like I don't have enough time or attention to devote into lectures because I just really want to get everything updated and expand on my portfolio a little more so I'll attend lectures but not participate this week. A shame how much mental health has set me back, if that makes sense.