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Just a silly little, "artistically low-quality", drawing. Good perspective practice though.

I wish I could say that I'll be more active and post more, but it's a little complicated. I still can't decide if I hate my life more for being born a man or being born a human, or should I just red pill myself into oblivion. Like, just how hard could it be to supress any of my emotions? I did it for almost 21 years and I'm still alive, so it must be working.
I know that's just a plain bad idea, but I just need to get somewhere. Once again I'm stuck wasting my days away with youtube and video games until my next therapy session. And if it's not a therapy session, then I just pick out, some random date or event to waste my life until it eventually happens and then I can move my goal and waste my days again.
It feels so amazing when I can forget about my physical body, and just do the thing I'm doing, then I accidentaly become self-concious again then, get upset, then get upset at getting upset and so on. Sometimes I can will myself to do something else, other times I just snap, and get the need to ruin or break something, but "I'm not gonna break my own stuff they cost money, I'm gonna hurt the only thing that can heal istelf and is for free".

Okay, sorry that you had to witness and read this, but I just wanted to vent.

Description
Just a silly little, "artistically low-quality", drawing. Good perspective practice though.

I wish I could say that I'll be more active and post more, but it's a little complicated. I still can't decide if I hate my life more for being born a man or being born a human, or should I just red pill myself into oblivion. Like, just how hard could it be to supress any of my emotions? I did it for almost 21 years and I'm still alive, so it must be working.
I know that's just a plain bad idea, but I just need to get somewhere. Once again I'm stuck wasting my days away with youtube and video games until my next therapy session. And if it's not a therapy session, then I just pick out, some random date or event to waste my life until it eventually happens and then I can move my goal and waste my days again.
It feels so amazing when I can forget about my physical body, and just do the thing I'm doing, then I accidentaly become self-concious again then, get upset, then get upset at getting upset and so on. Sometimes I can will myself to do something else, other times I just snap, and get the need to ruin or break something, but "I'm not gonna break my own stuff they cost money, I'm gonna hurt the only thing that can heal istelf and is for free".

Okay, sorry that you had to witness and read this, but I just wanted to vent.