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i recently just went through the hardest thing ive went through so far. the girl who i thought i was going to marry was playing me from the very start, and nothing seems real anymore. i wasnt even her main man. i was second the entire time... and this shit hurts. ive been in solitary confinement in my own mind, and it hasnt gotten better. i nearly dropped out of university because of this. my mind is so absolutely fucked that i just like disappeared off the face of the earth. im only 19, but i had bought her a promise ring out of 32 diamonds and a ruby in the middle, her birthstone. i spent 12k on it.

SHE FUCKING SOLD IT.

im so tired of everything to be honest. i cant even feel normal anymore. weed doesnt have the effect as it did on me anymore, neither does drinking or anything else. i know this is honestly just an overreaction more than likely, but this is so painful. and before you ask, no im not going to kurt cobain myself. i dont even feel like doing that.

im sorry for the abrupt disappearance, but please, if you have any ideas or anything at all, talk to me. im honestly a lonesome piece of shit, and idc who you are, i need friends... this is the saddest shit ive ever written.

outside of deviantart, im a college football player at the university of michigan. we just won the national championship, and i was atop the world. millions of people watched me and saw me play football this year, and it doesnt matter. nobody cares honestly.

all people want me for is my "clout" and everything. im so tired of never being good enough in reality and just being used. depression has been kicking my ass since i was 14, and on my 15th birthday i tried to off myself and ended up in a psych ward for the first time. i was back in another one in august of the same year. thank you to the university of toledo and havenwyck medical center staff for showing me what i wanna do with my life btw.

but last thing imma say, i need some friends. and if ur in michigan or surrounding areas, i just want people to hang out with for who i am...

im still here, no new art for a little bit, but sometimes, no matter who u are, u gotta let it all out...

thank you.

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i recently just went through the hardest thing ive went through so far. the girl who i thought i was going to marry was playing me from the very start, and nothing seems real anymore. i wasnt even her main man. i was second the entire time... and this shit hurts. ive been in solitary confinement in my own mind, and it hasnt gotten better. i nearly dropped out of university because of this. my mind is so absolutely fucked that i just like disappeared off the face of the earth. im only 19, but i had bought her a promise ring out of 32 diamonds and a ruby in the middle, her birthstone. i spent 12k on it.

SHE FUCKING SOLD IT.

im so tired of everything to be honest. i cant even feel normal anymore. weed doesnt have the effect as it did on me anymore, neither does drinking or anything else. i know this is honestly just an overreaction more than likely, but this is so painful. and before you ask, no im not going to kurt cobain myself. i dont even feel like doing that.

im sorry for the abrupt disappearance, but please, if you have any ideas or anything at all, talk to me. im honestly a lonesome piece of shit, and idc who you are, i need friends... this is the saddest shit ive ever written.

outside of deviantart, im a college football player at the university of michigan. we just won the national championship, and i was atop the world. millions of people watched me and saw me play football this year, and it doesnt matter. nobody cares honestly.

all people want me for is my "clout" and everything. im so tired of never being good enough in reality and just being used. depression has been kicking my ass since i was 14, and on my 15th birthday i tried to off myself and ended up in a psych ward for the first time. i was back in another one in august of the same year. thank you to the university of toledo and havenwyck medical center staff for showing me what i wanna do with my life btw.

but last thing imma say, i need some friends. and if ur in michigan or surrounding areas, i just want people to hang out with for who i am...

im still here, no new art for a little bit, but sometimes, no matter who u are, u gotta let it all out...

thank you.