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Boiler Room

My insides scream
louder and louder AND LOUDER
until I can't take it anymore
the urges grow, minute at first
then, my rage compiles and expels itself
flurry of hit after hit
the steel falls crumbled to the ground, bone broken
in two

I fall upon the concrete, bleeding and heaving

Don't you see?
Don't you see?

I dread coming home, I can't stand you
I can't stand the way you treat me.
You call my name, into the darkness.
I can feel my spine tingling.

Running and running, fulfill fulfill
The world spins and the flow begins.
Ebbing and spiking, I climb back down the stairs

My world ablur, I pound and press.
Every inch of muscle, all the while chanting
"why, why, why"
Fuck it all, for you do not care.
I collapse, when muscle can take no more. A bleeding
pulp, knuckles lay beside raw and open.

My heart collapses, and the world grows dark.
Every day, the same old shit.
Every day, I waste my life - to come back to you.

One day, I'll leave and never come back.
You can count on that.

date: 02/27/02