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I just kept telling myself to make it through
i needed to survive, it wasn't optional
and i did it all, in spite of you
i fed on the hope that one day, things would be different
that happiness would find me, if i waited long enough
and the anger building inside me, would help me toughen up
it builds character, as they used to say
and this hope, this shred of light was the only thing helping me make it through the day
their were so many words that were left unsaid
i just took deep breaths, and held my sorrow in instead
dreaming of the day that i could set it all free
and it would no longer burden me
but i thought wrong, oh so very wrong
i thought that in the long run, it'd make me strong
but it turned out to be my weakness
my silent suffering had sentenced me to this
a life of fear, a life of living in the shadows
afraid, always afraid to open up my heart to anyone
and for awhile, i took refuge in this philosophy
that i needed nobody, nobody but me
but then something opened my eyes, and I'm still unsure why
being guarded and scared was all i ever knew
it was the way i was taught to feel, or not to feel, from day one
and once you're told a lie long enough, you begin to believe its true
and i suppose never knowing anything else, lead me here
this way i can go through life, without ever really knowing anyone
without giving them a chance to see past this hollow facade of smiles
and just see me, and nothing else
everything associated and interweaved into my very self
blocked the light from a world of thousands of open hearts
each one waiting on someone's sleeve
thrown to me, like a game of darts
i reflected almost everyone, because i was afraid
but the last one hit me like a pinless grenade
still intact, i stood my ground
and i finally knew what it felt like
to let go of everything i know, everything i was programmed to believe
and love filled this hollow shell, more than i was ready to receive
deserted in idle from these bridges burned
and i guess i was never too concerned.

Description
I just kept telling myself to make it through
i needed to survive, it wasn't optional
and i did it all, in spite of you
i fed on the hope that one day, things would be different
that happiness would find me, if i waited long enough
and the anger building inside me, would help me toughen up
it builds character, as they used to say
and this hope, this shred of light was the only thing helping me make it through the day
their were so many words that were left unsaid
i just took deep breaths, and held my sorrow in instead
dreaming of the day that i could set it all free
and it would no longer burden me
but i thought wrong, oh so very wrong
i thought that in the long run, it'd make me strong
but it turned out to be my weakness
my silent suffering had sentenced me to this
a life of fear, a life of living in the shadows
afraid, always afraid to open up my heart to anyone
and for awhile, i took refuge in this philosophy
that i needed nobody, nobody but me
but then something opened my eyes, and I'm still unsure why
being guarded and scared was all i ever knew
it was the way i was taught to feel, or not to feel, from day one
and once you're told a lie long enough, you begin to believe its true
and i suppose never knowing anything else, lead me here
this way i can go through life, without ever really knowing anyone
without giving them a chance to see past this hollow facade of smiles
and just see me, and nothing else
everything associated and interweaved into my very self
blocked the light from a world of thousands of open hearts
each one waiting on someone's sleeve
thrown to me, like a game of darts
i reflected almost everyone, because i was afraid
but the last one hit me like a pinless grenade
still intact, i stood my ground
and i finally knew what it felt like
to let go of everything i know, everything i was programmed to believe
and love filled this hollow shell, more than i was ready to receive
deserted in idle from these bridges burned
and i guess i was never too concerned.