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What is this freedom they keep jabbering about? Freedom this, freedom that, let us all be free and happy for all time to come. Would you even recognize freedom if you’d see it, if you’d feel it, if you’d have it? Or maybe you already have it and you simply cannot realize that it’s there. You only see what could be, what should be, what others, those who you call good, peaceful and freedom-wishing people, have told you to be right and yet, by doing so, they themselves create an ideology no better nor worse than those of Stalins or Hitlers. You think communism was bad? Yes, it was bad. It is bad. Despite the positive sides of it which are constantly brought up it books, presented to dear ol’ readers as things which they can look back on and say ‘Maybe we weren’t screwed after all’. Who knows, maybe they can even find new meaning to their sad little history-obsessed lives. Or don’t like Nazis? Think they were bad? All those millions of Jews. Yes, of course it was wrong, of course it was a crime against humanity and of course it should have never happened. But freedom? ‘The condition of being free of restraints.’ Restraints. How about law. How about Law? Law – lex – ley – loi – legge! Ringing any bells yet? About bloody time it started to because people, apparently, think law is not important. That law is the evil tool of those evil devils that control your sad little country, want your money and hope you die as soon as possible. Right? Of course right. Go anarchy, fuck democracy, fuck stability! Speaking of which, stability. We don’t see much of that these days. Stable, nothing is stable. Countries are not stable, the European Union is not stable, NATO is not stable, UN is not stable. Corruption here, corruption there, big pink bubbles bursting in front of your face and you suddenly discover that everything isn’t so very perfect as you were lead to believe. Lead by who? By yourself, you lead yourself. Others try to have their effect on your path, they try to do what they have to do. So do you. None of you actually notices it though. It’s all life to you. And throughout all this – you lust for freedom! Has not the past taught you anything? Have not those fights for freedom that have ended one way or the other – but all in great loss of blood and equally great loss of general well being of all humans closely or not so closely connected to the incident (yes, be it war, be it genocide, be it the KKK) – successfully or not so successfully, influenced your understanding of what’s right and what’s wrong even on the smallest of scales? Have you not developed this more detailed vision of the world around you? Of course you have not. Nobody does, nobody feels the need to. It’s all this one big blur and it is better to keep it that way. For bringing it into focus would mess up even what’s left of the peace in your life. But have you ever compared the amount of this peace? Have you created this imaginary scale of maximum potential peace and tried to set your own bar as high as possible? Maybe you could do that now? Or maybe you could not. Maybe there is no maximum potential peace. And if there is, we have not experienced it. I doubt anyone has, I doubt anything has. Not here, not on this planet, not on the next, not on any. If there could ever be such a thing as maximum potential peace it could only be measured in terms of infinity. Infinity can never be reached and nor can such peace. We must accept what we have. And what we have is the general conception of peace being equal to freedom. That is true. But only because we make it true. Only because we fight for freedom being so sure that it is the ultimate good thing, our salvation, our new beginning, our better life, our great shiny golden future. And when we get it, we are not pleased. We are not pleased because we do not recognize it. Freedom – it’s only a mental image of something we are not very sure about. That something which holds no shape, no size, no form, no mass, no outlines. Some might confuse it with God. Some already do. Too bad for them. What did Isaac Asimov say? ‘To surrender to ignorance and call it God has always been premature, and it remains premature today.’ Ignorance – what a beautiful word. And how convenient, how perfect to explain everything we come across and cannot instantly explain. So much easier than thinking, is it not? But discussing the value of ignorance is hardly going to prove my point as it is exactly the thing to bypass points and reason and, most importantly, rationalism and facts. Thus let us continue.
Why do we hunt the one thing we can never get? Why do we hunt freedom in the darkest of forests while being unarmed and weakened, without eating for days? Do we really need it so much? Or do we think we need it? Is it really the only thing to give us hope for a better future and by doing so - keep us alive? We are utterly convinced of just that, but, and this exceeds everything else by far, we do not even realize it. We do not know what we are convinced of and what we are not. We blindly just hope that our instincts will guide us through this hell of life, through this hell we ourselves have created and into which we ourselves keep lighting up new flames to make it hotter, to make it burn harder. We fry ourselves on the pan we molded and on the fire we made. Do we enjoy it? No, we don’t. Do we like it? No, we don’t. Do we do anything about it? No, we don’t. All we do is complain, complain, complain and fight for our precious little freedom. Is it not great to fight for something you can never have? Is it not great to fight for something that does not exist in the realm we exist in? Law – lex – ley – loi – legge. We can never overcome what has been set. We can try to chance, we might succeed in changing, but what is – is! It is now and it will continue to be, no matter what we may try to do about it. And the really sad fact of the matter is that even though we do not try to do anything about the laws, we continue to rebel, we continue to make silent barely hearable noise and we continue to believe that it will make a difference. Ignorance, that’s what we recognize, but only in others. Freedom, that’s what we recognize, but only where we think we see it. We can never clearly decide on the limits and limitations of reality and truth. And when we do, we suspect a flaw. Sometimes because we doubt our own righteousness, something because the reality we find does not match the reality we wanted to find, the reality we always believed to be there, just waiting for us to arrive and live happily ever after. We will, and it is about time to accept this, never live happily ever after. We will hate, despise, attack and destroy, but we will never NEVER live happily ever after. And until the nuclear holocaust ends our lives, one massive body-count bite at a time, we will live in this ignorance and we will live in this hate and we will lust for freedom which we are not even able to recognize and which we can never actually reach. This will keep us alive, this will give our existence meaning and this will shine over truth. All true freedom is maximum potential freedom. All true freedom is equal. If such a thing was possible in the first place, giving freedom to people is the same as putting a land mine between their hands. Only for a certain short period of time they can keep the pressure on it, but when they become weak, they die. Freedom is too much to be handled by anybody or anything. True freedom is nothing more than destruction, but such a destruction is impossible to me imagined by any intelligence, no matter how developed or undeveloped. Such destruction cannot be imagined, seen, understood. Such freedom cannot be imagined, seen, understood. But freedom is what we lust for and freedom is perfect. Freedom is perfect! Freedom, true freedom, utter freedom, destruction is perfect – for such peace has never been seen before. And such peace will never be seen, experienced, comprehended until freedom and destruction will roam all ends of space. And as space is equal to infinity, freedom and destruction will never roam all ends of it, and such peace will never be seen. Freedom, still and always the one thing we all lust for, does not actually exist. It does not exist and it is not only out of our reach, it is out of all reach, for you can not reach for something that lacks existence.
There will never be freedom and restraints will forever continue to hold us in their mighty grip. We will always be the prisoners of our own mind and intelligence and it is exactly that which will keep us alive – until we die.

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What is this freedom they keep jabbering about? Freedom this, freedom that, let us all be free and happy for all time to come. Would you even recognize freedom if you’d see it, if you’d feel it, if you’d have it? Or maybe you already have it and you simply cannot realize that it’s there. You only see what could be, what should be, what others, those who you call good, peaceful and freedom-wishing people, have told you to be right and yet, by doing so, they themselves create an ideology no better nor worse than those of Stalins or Hitlers. You think communism was bad? Yes, it was bad. It is bad. Despite the positive sides of it which are constantly brought up it books, presented to dear ol’ readers as things which they can look back on and say ‘Maybe we weren’t screwed after all’. Who knows, maybe they can even find new meaning to their sad little history-obsessed lives. Or don’t like Nazis? Think they were bad? All those millions of Jews. Yes, of course it was wrong, of course it was a crime against humanity and of course it should have never happened. But freedom? ‘The condition of being free of restraints.’ Restraints. How about law. How about Law? Law – lex – ley – loi – legge! Ringing any bells yet? About bloody time it started to because people, apparently, think law is not important. That law is the evil tool of those evil devils that control your sad little country, want your money and hope you die as soon as possible. Right? Of course right. Go anarchy, fuck democracy, fuck stability! Speaking of which, stability. We don’t see much of that these days. Stable, nothing is stable. Countries are not stable, the European Union is not stable, NATO is not stable, UN is not stable. Corruption here, corruption there, big pink bubbles bursting in front of your face and you suddenly discover that everything isn’t so very perfect as you were lead to believe. Lead by who? By yourself, you lead yourself. Others try to have their effect on your path, they try to do what they have to do. So do you. None of you actually notices it though. It’s all life to you. And throughout all this – you lust for freedom! Has not the past taught you anything? Have not those fights for freedom that have ended one way or the other – but all in great loss of blood and equally great loss of general well being of all humans closely or not so closely connected to the incident (yes, be it war, be it genocide, be it the KKK) – successfully or not so successfully, influenced your understanding of what’s right and what’s wrong even on the smallest of scales? Have you not developed this more detailed vision of the world around you? Of course you have not. Nobody does, nobody feels the need to. It’s all this one big blur and it is better to keep it that way. For bringing it into focus would mess up even what’s left of the peace in your life. But have you ever compared the amount of this peace? Have you created this imaginary scale of maximum potential peace and tried to set your own bar as high as possible? Maybe you could do that now? Or maybe you could not. Maybe there is no maximum potential peace. And if there is, we have not experienced it. I doubt anyone has, I doubt anything has. Not here, not on this planet, not on the next, not on any. If there could ever be such a thing as maximum potential peace it could only be measured in terms of infinity. Infinity can never be reached and nor can such peace. We must accept what we have. And what we have is the general conception of peace being equal to freedom. That is true. But only because we make it true. Only because we fight for freedom being so sure that it is the ultimate good thing, our salvation, our new beginning, our better life, our great shiny golden future. And when we get it, we are not pleased. We are not pleased because we do not recognize it. Freedom – it’s only a mental image of something we are not very sure about. That something which holds no shape, no size, no form, no mass, no outlines. Some might confuse it with God. Some already do. Too bad for them. What did Isaac Asimov say? ‘To surrender to ignorance and call it God has always been premature, and it remains premature today.’ Ignorance – what a beautiful word. And how convenient, how perfect to explain everything we come across and cannot instantly explain. So much easier than thinking, is it not? But discussing the value of ignorance is hardly going to prove my point as it is exactly the thing to bypass points and reason and, most importantly, rationalism and facts. Thus let us continue.
Why do we hunt the one thing we can never get? Why do we hunt freedom in the darkest of forests while being unarmed and weakened, without eating for days? Do we really need it so much? Or do we think we need it? Is it really the only thing to give us hope for a better future and by doing so - keep us alive? We are utterly convinced of just that, but, and this exceeds everything else by far, we do not even realize it. We do not know what we are convinced of and what we are not. We blindly just hope that our instincts will guide us through this hell of life, through this hell we ourselves have created and into which we ourselves keep lighting up new flames to make it hotter, to make it burn harder. We fry ourselves on the pan we molded and on the fire we made. Do we enjoy it? No, we don’t. Do we like it? No, we don’t. Do we do anything about it? No, we don’t. All we do is complain, complain, complain and fight for our precious little freedom. Is it not great to fight for something you can never have? Is it not great to fight for something that does not exist in the realm we exist in? Law – lex – ley – loi – legge. We can never overcome what has been set. We can try to chance, we might succeed in changing, but what is – is! It is now and it will continue to be, no matter what we may try to do about it. And the really sad fact of the matter is that even though we do not try to do anything about the laws, we continue to rebel, we continue to make silent barely hearable noise and we continue to believe that it will make a difference. Ignorance, that’s what we recognize, but only in others. Freedom, that’s what we recognize, but only where we think we see it. We can never clearly decide on the limits and limitations of reality and truth. And when we do, we suspect a flaw. Sometimes because we doubt our own righteousness, something because the reality we find does not match the reality we wanted to find, the reality we always believed to be there, just waiting for us to arrive and live happily ever after. We will, and it is about time to accept this, never live happily ever after. We will hate, despise, attack and destroy, but we will never NEVER live happily ever after. And until the nuclear holocaust ends our lives, one massive body-count bite at a time, we will live in this ignorance and we will live in this hate and we will lust for freedom which we are not even able to recognize and which we can never actually reach. This will keep us alive, this will give our existence meaning and this will shine over truth. All true freedom is maximum potential freedom. All true freedom is equal. If such a thing was possible in the first place, giving freedom to people is the same as putting a land mine between their hands. Only for a certain short period of time they can keep the pressure on it, but when they become weak, they die. Freedom is too much to be handled by anybody or anything. True freedom is nothing more than destruction, but such a destruction is impossible to me imagined by any intelligence, no matter how developed or undeveloped. Such destruction cannot be imagined, seen, understood. Such freedom cannot be imagined, seen, understood. But freedom is what we lust for and freedom is perfect. Freedom is perfect! Freedom, true freedom, utter freedom, destruction is perfect – for such peace has never been seen before. And such peace will never be seen, experienced, comprehended until freedom and destruction will roam all ends of space. And as space is equal to infinity, freedom and destruction will never roam all ends of it, and such peace will never be seen. Freedom, still and always the one thing we all lust for, does not actually exist. It does not exist and it is not only out of our reach, it is out of all reach, for you can not reach for something that lacks existence.
There will never be freedom and restraints will forever continue to hold us in their mighty grip. We will always be the prisoners of our own mind and intelligence and it is exactly that which will keep us alive – until we die.