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Dear Diary,

Does she even love me anymore? I feel like she's avoiding me. As much as I don't want to see her I want everything in the world to have both my parents back. Please, please give me my family back. I hate pretending to be happy. I hate pretending everything's find when it isn't. The world isn't ending, falling apart or anything like that. I could live the rest of my life this way. But I desperately want it all to end.

Dear Diary,

I wanted it all to end, I was ready. But something really weird happened at like, 3 in the morning. I guess 2 because it's 3 now. I was on the bridge getting ready to lea and it was all because life had stopped. Things weren't moving, I wasn't feeling, everything was wrong. Just as I was about to jump, this boy came out of nowhere to talk to me. And the weirdest thing is that, it didn't fix everything just looking at him, but time started again. He was this beautiful being with brown hair, green eyes, a beautiful smile, and he was wearing a t-shirt in my favorite color. He gave me his number and the things is, I think I want to text him. Because I laughed on the way home, me made me laugh and cry all in one night and I haven't been able to really do that for months. That's it, I'm going to text him.

I set down my diary and pick up my phone, laying back on my bed.

"Hey, it's me, bridge girl." Okay, that was a stupid line, now he's not going to answer.
"Sorry, but I didn't know what to say."
...
"Nah, it's cool. Make it home okay?"
"Yeah, I'm home right now actually."
"Btw, you didn't leave your name on the napkin."
"Well of course not, I still don't know your name."

"That makes absolutely no sense." I'll admit it makes me laugh though.

"Well that's me, no sense guy."
I don't know what to say, this conversation is going nowhere. What do you say to a guy who keeps you from jumping from a bridge anyways?

"Can I ask you something?"
"Shoot, go for it."
"Have you thought about my offer? To hang out again? See each other?"

"I have, but why do you want to see me again?"

"Because I believe in love at first sight."

"You're not ever afraid?"

"Every single time. But since this is the first, my hopes are high."

"Okay, let's meet again. Where do you wanna go? And when?"

"Let's start at the bridge and take a walk. And how about tomorrow night say 11?"

"Sounds good to me. But I still don't know your name."

"That's okay, I don't know yours."
"Get some sleep, I'll see you tomorrow."

And the world stops. The minute we stop talking the happiness that was rising in my chest fizzles out. I look around my room. It hasn't changed since I moved fully into my dad's house 3 years ago. It still has red walls, my bed is still in the corner, and it's still dark as always.
I get ready for bed and as an after thought I put the new number in my phone under the name stupid boy. And I close my eyes, and I fall asleep.

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Dear Diary,

Does she even love me anymore? I feel like she's avoiding me. As much as I don't want to see her I want everything in the world to have both my parents back. Please, please give me my family back. I hate pretending to be happy. I hate pretending everything's find when it isn't. The world isn't ending, falling apart or anything like that. I could live the rest of my life this way. But I desperately want it all to end.

Dear Diary,

I wanted it all to end, I was ready. But something really weird happened at like, 3 in the morning. I guess 2 because it's 3 now. I was on the bridge getting ready to lea and it was all because life had stopped. Things weren't moving, I wasn't feeling, everything was wrong. Just as I was about to jump, this boy came out of nowhere to talk to me. And the weirdest thing is that, it didn't fix everything just looking at him, but time started again. He was this beautiful being with brown hair, green eyes, a beautiful smile, and he was wearing a t-shirt in my favorite color. He gave me his number and the things is, I think I want to text him. Because I laughed on the way home, me made me laugh and cry all in one night and I haven't been able to really do that for months. That's it, I'm going to text him.

I set down my diary and pick up my phone, laying back on my bed.

"Hey, it's me, bridge girl." Okay, that was a stupid line, now he's not going to answer.
"Sorry, but I didn't know what to say."
...
"Nah, it's cool. Make it home okay?"
"Yeah, I'm home right now actually."
"Btw, you didn't leave your name on the napkin."
"Well of course not, I still don't know your name."

"That makes absolutely no sense." I'll admit it makes me laugh though.

"Well that's me, no sense guy."
I don't know what to say, this conversation is going nowhere. What do you say to a guy who keeps you from jumping from a bridge anyways?

"Can I ask you something?"
"Shoot, go for it."
"Have you thought about my offer? To hang out again? See each other?"

"I have, but why do you want to see me again?"

"Because I believe in love at first sight."

"You're not ever afraid?"

"Every single time. But since this is the first, my hopes are high."

"Okay, let's meet again. Where do you wanna go? And when?"

"Let's start at the bridge and take a walk. And how about tomorrow night say 11?"

"Sounds good to me. But I still don't know your name."

"That's okay, I don't know yours."
"Get some sleep, I'll see you tomorrow."

And the world stops. The minute we stop talking the happiness that was rising in my chest fizzles out. I look around my room. It hasn't changed since I moved fully into my dad's house 3 years ago. It still has red walls, my bed is still in the corner, and it's still dark as always.
I get ready for bed and as an after thought I put the new number in my phone under the name stupid boy. And I close my eyes, and I fall asleep.