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In my youth I was warned:
"Listen- never pledge your soul away."

I was always a poor listener, wasn't I? I Saw you,
eternally lovely, knowing someday I will rot away.
Do you remember the promises we made,
the nights we curled together in the cold, entwined
on that miserable bed like a helix of DNA?

Yes, I tried not to look into your eyes, I did!
Oh, but how could I not? I cupped your face in my hands
understanding, yearning even, to fall into your abyss...

Perhaps you will think me completely mad
like all the others- they do not consider
emotional outbursts like mine welcome in their hotel,
and so I find myself with no place, locking
so many feelings away, silently observing from afar!

Even my own Father didn't understand my grief.
Following his demands, I locked myself away
on the topmost floor- 80, I think?- and
regretted every cruel word. It can't be something I said;
giving myself credit would be a mistake- I am just human.

I wonder if I've made you hate me- it is so, so
very dangerous to get close to me, and so
even someone as cunning as you may fall victim.
My grief is incessant, my heart an inferno, my tears
endless as the sacred River Styx.